She, The Souless Warrior, of Vast Suicidal Thoughts.

Haha, thankyou Hannah.

just out of curiousty, did you do that song of myne in the end?

I read "Simple Goodbye" and "Thank Holy Fros For Liquor". I love the imagery. You have a very trancing style of writing. Love your poems. xD

Thankyou.

4/7/08, 12.33AM; "I'm in heaven"

I gaze around, there's nothing but emptiness
Was it all my doing, could I be blamed?

I cried silently and unnoticably that night
Did they really even care? I was ganged up
I guess I asked for it, like I always do

I'm their victim

The one they can't resist to pick a fight with
They'll never see me like I want them too
I'm no good to them, I'm all alone tonight

And when the early summer morning arrives
I'm nowhere, gone, out of sight
They can't see me, they don't care
They only wonder where their victim's ran too
Plain and painful answer is

I'm in heaven

:: Would You Notice? ::

If I spoke to you today
would you notice how I feel?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice the tearstains?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice how unhappy I am?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice how I miss you?

If I spoke to you today
would you notice the love I have for you?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice the joy written all over my face?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice how I've been destroyed without you?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice how much I need you?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice how scared I was?
If I spoke to you today
would you notice the way I feel for you?

If I spoke to you now
would you notice that I love you?
You've known all along, and now you're gone
I'm sorry. I broke.
I need you, even after all this time.

:: Tomorrows Brand New Day ::

Are those eyes dried out yet?
I know you're crying, and I know what you're thinking
You make yourself unhappy, almost every day
When will you ever change?

I see the way you look anxiously around
You feel eyes on you, but nobody's there
Your mind's playing tricks on you, like it always do
I know how you feel, you're scared to be by yourself
But it's all you want at the end of the day

You can shut yourself away from the world
But locking yourself in the bathroom
And collapsing to the floor, crying
Isn't going to solve anything
When will you ever learn to stop
Arguing with yourself in your head?

I know you'll grow out of this habbit at some point
I just hope it's sooner rather than later
Before it completely destroys you from within
God only knows, you've got to pick yourself up
Off the tearstained floor and face it all
In tomorrows brand new day

:: My Life ::

Day after day, it doesn't seem to go away
I could stare at the painkillers, or the blade
So many thoughts running through my mind

You're so worthless, almost useless
Crazed and deranged
You're a fucking idiot - so you keep saying to yourself

I wonder from time to time
What would've happened if I could've met you
A time would change, and I'd be different
I'd be okay?

Sat at the end of the table, in a small corner part of a room
Here I am, sprawled out on the floor, hugging myself
Cause I know, I'm the only person who can understand
The way I feel...for myself

And as the sunsets beneath God's beautiful creation; Earth
I can feel the insecurity, sinking within
Was it madness or plain stupidity?
I don't even know who I am
Cause I was determined to forget
Whatever it was, that was me

:: In Love with You ::

Excuse me, while my heart shatters
While I demolittion myself into sure bliss
I just want to feel the warmth coming
From your protective arms, and
I want to save you in my memory forever
Before I let myself go, before it's all gone

There's a thing called depressing love
I hide and hide, I won't shed another tear
I'm heartless and oh so cruel
It's why I'm so in love with you
But you're not here to save me

I stare outside my window countlessly
The rain hails down, like the tears
That falls from my weary eyes
Blood that stains it all
Is from my pure love with you

And as the day ends, so will my life
I won't live another day longer
Sitting by myself in the staircase
Crying over the stupidest of things
Which is mainly you!
Not again, over and over
There is nothing wrong with me
I'm just buried, buried for good

:: Vampiress Tales of Love ::

Scream out, scream out.
Abuse, abuse.
Memories, photographs.
Torn, so torn.
Fragile, yet frail.

Misery, misery.
Tell me, what is new?
Smoke, dust.
Shredded paper.
Bloodlined tears.

Vampire, vampire.
Stained red, lost death.
Tragic, so unknown.
Soul minded, never told.
Forgotten, still not known.

Venom, venom.
Snake’s dare.
Slithered lips.
Godforsaken bliss.
And one slit wrist.

hi lora. you are very talented. i am mcr-my & im new here. I to am a poet, & i am touched by your words.

Aw, thanks.

:: Tears Tell a Story ::

These tears tell a story;
Like the blade falling
I could tell a few times over
When I raised a toast to my death

I could remember vague time
If I could've had a time when I was happy
And I wanted to be just like you

I lived your mistakes countlessly time again and again
Just so I could say I could be exactly like you
And the alcohol bottles drained slowly

Now the bath water runs
and I attempt to drown
One final lesson to be learnt
I'll always be fucked just like him
But the difference was
I refused to get better

:: Life is Ticking ::

Clock's ticking, Tragedy, tragedy.
Another Emergency Room stay
A chance for me to start all over again
Perfect timing to start lying

I pour my heart and soul out
Carved into my wrists
Pumped the blood running
Through my very veins

And told one thousand and one lies
But I didn't care - who said I do now?
I could run a thousand miles
And I still wouldn't escape
The thing I hate the most - which is myself

I'm in heaven
WOW? Nah, not enough! That poem is magical!
Favourite part:
I cried silently and unnoticably that night
Did they really even care? I was ganged up
I guess I asked for it, like I always do

I'm their victim

and yeah, you are in heaven xD.


:: Would You Notice? ::: Great style you wrote it in. One would think it would end up boring, but yours was charming, love the endig. Ow My Gawd, the ending was my favourite part. X].


:: Tomorrows Brand New Day ::

This was so great, loved it, all of it X).
and the begining was a hit.

:: In Love with You ::

Favourite part:
Crying over the stupidest of things
Which is mainly you!
Not again, over and over
Was pretty simple... lol I really like complex poems more XD

:: My Life ::: The begining was very strong.

Favourite part:
Cause I know, I'm the only person who can understand
The way I feel...for myself

It had so many feelings in it, so many emotions, it's so beautiful.

:: Vampiress Tales of Love ::
Whow, I lurve the title X0. Amazing.

Favourite part:
Vampire, vampire.
Stained red, lost death.
Tragic, so unknown.
Soul minded, never told.
Forgotten, still not known.

Venom, venom.
Snake’s dare.
Slithered lips.
Godforsaken bliss.
And one slit wrist.

It really reminded me of the truth of lost death and being a vampire. XD
Personally, my favourite of all, along with 'My Life'


:: Tears Tell a Story ::
The ending was... wow.

:: Life is Ticking ::: Good title xD.
And the ending was smaching ^,,,^.


Guess I'm done here, waiting for your next.

:: Broken Dispair ::

The sun rose one early morning,
Silence split the south west,
A tornado was coming, we'd better run quick!

Terror wreaked havoc, and damaged was paid for,
Lives lost through something, that they hadn't done,
Mothers lie weaping, over the coprse of their young,

Hearts broken into dispair, their lives became unfixable,
For the damage was done, and all within an hour,
JUSTICE!! For where has that gone?

Years crept by, damaged was repared,
But the hole in their hearts remained,
For everything that they lived for, was gone.

:: Romeo & Juliet ::

I wish I could be more than what I am today
Failure is one word that suits me
I would like to be somebody else tonight
Me and my paintings are all I have
Just drawings of my pain, all the blood in me
I shall kiss goodbye to the hope of finding
Someone to love me, romance should be kept to theatres
Like Romeo and Juliet, cause that's all just fiction in my eyes.

The rain falls, like my heart drops
Blood red in one hand; cyanide in the other
Miffed screams of horror, is your conscious getting clearer?
Tell me you love me one more time, then swing me to the floor
For another mass blow to the head
Swear your vows to me forever, hold my hand in the cold weather
Then leave me on the floor crying, dying.

This love could never taste much bitter
Just another failure, crazed lover
Romance should be kept to theatres
Like Romeo and Juliet, cause that's all just fiction in my eyes.

A simple contradiction, it's tradition
Kiss me tenderly, then put me in the brig
Lock it and toss away the key, there's no point in saving me.

Could you paint this picture much clearer?
Close your eyes and imagine, day by day
Screams of anger, abuse like no other
Terrified to breath.

This life isn't getting much easier
Every breath strains me, more than it did yesterday
May as well die, there's no dignity in living either
Makes me wonder how these people survive.

Failure is the one word that suits me
Me and my paintings are all that I have
The paintings, the scars of my pain
Blood red cut deep to the flesh, the blade still clasped in your hand
Another misery, another life

Could you paint this picture much clearer?
Just think Romeo and Juliet, romance in the theatres
Only with a screwed up little twist
Murder and hatred, that's not the only thing left behind the scene
Anger, blood and tears, but wait it doesn't stop there
Love, violence and two-faced fucks
This life couldn't get much better, just tell me that you love me
Then I'll cry, shall die, all over again
Not for your pleasure, just for the torture
I won't need to think, worry about you, I'm out of your grasp
Buried ten foot deep of dirt, in a wooden box, to sleep for the rest of Earth's time.

:: I'm A Nightmare ::

I knew it'd happen one day,
Told you timelessly I'd hurt you,
Break you down, destroy you,
And you didn't listen, did you?
Well now you've learnt your lesson.

I'm always the one to take the blame,
or loose the friendship gain,
It's happened to me one thousand times.

I don't want you back in my life,
I'm the tears you cry, the lies
that sneak from within your mouth.
I can crawl, I can lie, I'm a nightmare,
But only in your eyes.