And In the end, who will care? Attempts at poetry by Sarah.

My poetry.

Junkie

I know I’m selfish, wanting you.
But I can’t live without you.
It’s an addiction, I need my fix
I’m a better damn junkie then you’ll ever be

This is the last song I’ll write
This is the last time I’ll cry
This is the last poem, I swear
I’m done with torturing myself for you.

Please just let me drown in peace,
Please just let me lose myself
This is how I want to be
Look at what you did to me.

Look; can you see what I am?
Can you tell I’m dead inside?
Cause you know its all your fault, my dear.

Dear one, I love you so.
But sometimes it’s time to let things go.

Liar’s Breath, Angel’s flight

Can you see the liar’s breath?
Dark and evil, moist with sweat
Can you see Death’s hard strong gaze?
Burns a hole, digs a grave

Can you see the angel’s flight?
Leaves a trail, so white so bright
Can you tell they’re not coming back?
Death has conquered life at last

Just in time, as we die
The Black Parade collects our lives
Reads the book, sings the song
Judges the ones who did no wrong.

The evil ones, the vampiric few
Are left behind, like me like you
We live off of the others breath
And now we see our own true death.

Untitled

I can see the dark ahead
Waiting till the light is dead
Gathers strength and waits for night
Silent til the good take flight

I can see the lightness go
Taken by the blackness low
To the ground, and from the sky
Swept by the winds of chance; they fly

I can see my last chance leave
Flying on the last strong breeze
As darkness withers away the day
And night; takes over as the day goes by

Dreams

As I wake from tortured sleep
Devils die and angels weep
Crying for the souls they’ve lost
As that is the ultimate cost

I remember a time before
When sleep was an escape; no more
Now nightmares come when I close my eyes
And I see the world end, I watch as she dies

Dies inside, because of me.
Who else can I blame, who else can I be
I cannot remember who I was long ago
And now I’m slipping down below

As I fall into dead sleep
Your twisted face will haunt my dreams
If I die before I wake
You will be my last mistake

Can I say that? Is that true?
Is that all I feel for you?
You are now just one mistake
See the twisted path that true love takes

I once loved you, I think I still do
But you now hate me, well I can’t blame you
If we switched roles, I’d feel the same
I think I have lost this sick sick game

Sugar Coated You/ Little White Lies

I know what you want me to say, my dear.
I know what you need to hear
I can tell when you’re fishing for flattery, my dear.
I never fail to appease.

Yes, you look lovely. Yes you look cute
No you’re not fat, yes it is true.
Of course we’re not lying, just not telling the truth
Little white lies to sugar coat you.

When you come crying, broken hearted again.
It’s always my job, not as lover but friend
To pick up the pieces, pat you on the back
Tell you he’s blind, he’s probably gay
Maybe, just maybe, maybe one day
I’ll have the guts to tell you the truth.
But until then…

Yes, you look lovely. Yes you look cute
No you’re not fat, yes it is true.
Of course we’re not lying, just not telling the truth
Little white lies to sugar coat you.

Done with the lying, but tired of the truth
Tired of people pretending they care.
I know when they don’t, when they don’t even glance
Before launching into their prerecorded rant.
I want someone to tell it as it is
But only when I don’t look like this

Yes, you look lovely. Yes you look cute
No you’re not fat, yes it is true.
Of course we’re not lying, just not telling the truth
Little white lies to sugar coat you.

Yes, you look lovely. Yes you look cute
No you’re not fat, yes it is true.
Of course we’re not lying, just not telling the truth
Little white lies to sugar coat you.

Of course it’s all true…

Little white lies to sugar coat you

One Dark And Stormy Night

One dark and stormy night
Rain falls
Like teardrops down
A frost-incrusted windowpane
A tearful face pressed
Against the wall
Of her glass prison

The rain
Is like the drumbeats
Of angry music
In the background
Of the movie that is her life

The raindrops streak their way down
And she stares in awe
As the storm grows
The lightning strikes
like flashes of bright silk in the sky

She watches, enthralled
As the lightening strikes
A nearby tree
It shrivels and burns
Like the look on her friends faces
When she showed them the scars
Little white lines
Torn and twisted up her arms
A memory of a past
That hurts too much
To remember

As the storm comes to a close
She turns away from the window with a sigh
Gazes around her dark room
The numbers on her clock flash midnight
The witching hour

She glances one last time out at the tree
To remind herself
Everything is mortal
Nothing can last forever

ADDICTED

Desperately pleading
Wanting no needing
It’s not you it’s me
Doesn’t help as you leave

Help me; I’m fading now
Help me; I’m drowning now
Pull me out; I need you
I need you to need me

I’m not alive without you
This hole surrounds me; this water
Threatens to drown me
My safe harbor can’t leave me
You can’t leave me now?

And who am I anyway?
Who am I to say?
I can’t live without you
I am fading away

Hold me close; hold me tight
Help me just get through this night
If I can, maybe tomorrow
I can rise above this sorrow

The Silences Mean Everything (April 9th)

I need you like you need the rain
The rain that hides your tears from me (or so you think)
I need you like you need your sleeves
The sleeves that hide the new scars up your arms

I love you like you love the memories
Of a time when death was nothing but a nightmare
I love you like you love the darkness
You feel so much safer there (away from eyes looking for flaws)

I watch you like you watch the sunset
Never understood, always hoping for a divine understanding
I watch you like you watch the TV screen
Just a distraction, but needed for survival (lose yourself in “reality” TV)

I see you like you see celebrities
Perfect, distant, impossible to become (but you can try, oh you can try)
I see you like you see distance
(Distance makes the heart grow fonder)

I listen to you like you listen to the radio
As if each word will change your life
I listen to you like you listen to emptiness
You can’t hear a sound, yet the silence means everything

I need you like you need distractions
Anything to stop you from looking too hard at yourself
I need you like you need strangers
(They don’t know what you can’t understand)

Death.

Sleep now, my child.
Rest, I’ll take care of it all
Don’t worry, never waking isn’t such a burden
Sleep, don’t fight the inevitable
It will still come

Just let go, my child
Just trust in me, your god.
Death isn’t such a sorrow.
Even though you have much to live for
Maybe it’s all a lie

Never doubt me, my child
Never mistrust, it will all work out for the best
Even though you will never see another day
Even though your life ends now
I have come to take you away

Sleep now, my child
Rest, trust in me, let yourself go now…
Never again to awake.

Uncertainty in the face of danger.

Kissing the rain
Welcome your fate
Watching the rain pour down,
Pounding the earth all around

Thunder roars, lightening strikes.
Desperate proof that not all is light
Storms are your solace, your one desperate hiding place…
You can’t hide from yourself

Missing me, by just a moment,
Maybe I was just a trick of the light
Just a shadow, only dancing before your eyes.
I am just an illusion after all

You stand up, turn on the lights
Chasing away all the shadows,
Showing all the dark corners to be merely that,
Unlit spaces,
I am no longer there.

You chased me away, as you do not believe
And now, in the moment of your death, you change your mind?
Maybe you hoped always, that maybe you were wrong?
But now you may find out you were always right

I am no longer here, my child.
I am watching from far away.
You had one chance, my child.
But like humans do, you threw it away.

THE END


Can you tell me it was worth it?
Can you say you meant it
To end this way?

I know that this wasn’t how I imagined it
Us both crying here,
Us both lying here, fading slowly into deep black nothing

You said that we were meant to be
Meant until the end,
And that the end for one was the end for the other

Two pieces of a hole
We were one
Now I am only half of what I could become

Despicable

Confused and dazzled and blinded by you
Can I not understand why I love you?
Just the madness that descends upon me
That’s all that I know now

I know that this is never again
Never again shall I never again
I love you but I hate you so much
Never again shall I never again

You tore out my heart with one fucking glance
You broke it in two and that’s all that you can do
I can’t stand you, but I still fucking love you
I know, I’m despicable (but so are you)

You know that I know that you know I know.
So give up the game, admit your pain
I know that you know, so don’t even lie
I know you as well as you do yourself.


Fucking bitch
Do I look like I care?
I gave you a chance
(“do you have any feelings for me” “No”)

So fuck you again
And yeah, I’ve fucked you once, I’ll do it again
You know you want me
You know you want too

I know you know.

So give up and let go

Razorblade Sirenade

Sing with me for one last song
Stay with me for one last time
Remember oh so long ago
When you promised you’ve save the last dance for me
Well this is it this it the end

Dance with me as your dress is stained ruby-red
Kiss me as you whisper for the last time
“love you” love you you know I do
but this razorblade sirenade is calling and you know I can’t say no

the orchestra of pain and suffering is playing the last notes
of the song we’ve come to know as the end of the world
and let this go
Take me and let me go
I know and you know I know

Dance with me as your dress is stained ruby-red
Kiss me as you whisper for the last time
“love you” love you you know I do
but this razorblade sirenade is calling and you know I can’t say no

This razorblade sirenade is calling, and you know that I can’t let go
You know I never kicked my habit
That addiction to you that will be the end of me
And now the razorblade sirenade is whispering my name
And with a backwards glance I will let you go

Dance with me as your dress is stained ruby-red
Kiss me as you whisper for the last time
“love you” love you you know I do
but this razorblade sirenade is calling and you know I can’t say no

You promised oh so long ago
You’d save the last dance for me

Dear me, what have I stumbled upon? ^_^
Pardon my excruciatingly late reply to your works....I can be a lazy ass 50 percent of the time.

*ahem*

I love the flow every piece has (I'm a stickler for some sort of flow, lol) and the imagery I get while reading them.
Very good.

An Average Mistake

I’m an average underachiever
And you’re a fucking oxymoron
You’re distant overcompensating
For being so close to me

I can’t keep my eyes off you
And you know, there’s a reason too
In the back of your mind you know
You want to as well

But you have more sense then me
That’s why we’re not a we
And you have more sense than me
And that’s why, we’re here in pieces.

If you only let me
I can, fix the pieces
Take back, all the harsh words
I can, understand you

I’m an average mistake
And you’re a perfect mishap
You purposely avoid my eyes
And I make you uncomfortable again

We were once a perfect pair
And now we’re sitting in despair
I know you’re in a state of disrepair
But I can fix a broken heart

If you only let me
I can, fix the pieces
Take back, all the harsh words
I can, understand you

Maybe you have more sense than me
But I have something you say you don’t
Hope and faith and something else
You’re a perfect angel to me.

If you only let me
I can, fix the pieces
Take back, all the harsh words
I can, understand you

Disconnect The Dots

Disconnecting everything
I heard someone say
Sometimes you have to lose yourself
In order to find your way

Interconnecting photographs
Take a chance on me
I know something you don’t know
And that’s what’s hidden underneath

(chorus)
(Like a child’s game we play
Connect the dots and draw a picture
We almost do the same
Disconnect and erase the future)

Killing time or killing ourselves
Wasting away in this dead end place
Tasting freedom barely haunts us
Content to waste away our days

In absolution lies redemption
Confess and be cleansed of your sins
Everyone is doing it nowadays
So that means you’d join the game?

(chorus)

Wasting away in this goddamn place
Same as before nothing will change
Taking hits to live through the boredom
Everyone knows that’s the way to survive

Survival isn’t living
We’re just barely surviving
Nothing ever happens we’re in a dead zone
We need a fast track to the next horizon

(chorus)

Take a chance on me I said
I can take you to a different place
Take note, I didn’t say better
But nowhere can be worse then this.

Survival isn’t living
And we’re just barely surviving.

Maria

I’m in love with my own dreams
And these dreams are taking my life away from me
Just listen one minute as I tell you everything
I never trusted anyone as much as they trusted me
I never listened to anyone as much as they needed me
I was the one you wanted to
And you were the one I needed to

Dear Maria, just listen one minute
Dear, Maria, just wait for me right here
I’m sorry for everything I lied to you
But you never lied to me
Dear Maria just please listen to me

I’m in love with the scenes that plague my mind
In the darkest of hours the midnight draws closer
And dare I say you’re my only solace
My only way to survive
I grasp at straws as you grasped at me
And in the deadliest of nights you cried for me
And over and over I lied to you
But you never let me go.

Dear Maria, just listen one minute
Dear, Maria, just wait for me right here
I’m sorry for everything I lied to you
But you never lied to me
Dear Maria just please listen to me

And in the end of this endless night
I swear it’ll be alright
In the end of this endless night I wait for you in vain
You said you’d always love me
Do I still retain the right to your heart?
I should have given it up long ago
Dear Maria, did you wait for me?

I didn’t think so.

Second Chances
If life is better than it ever was
Why do I feel so alone
If this is the best it’s ever been
Why do I feel so abandoned?

So by myself
All my safe havens have vanished and I relied on you
Just another bad decision in my high class train wreck of a life.

But still I should be so happy
Life is better than it ever was
Which is suppose says something about my life
I suppose everything says something about my life

So disappointed
I trusted you and you let me down again
I suppose all the second chances have vanished and I’m here alone again
Lost all my last shots waiting for you

So forlorn
Spend my life writing sad songs and waiting for someone to care
Crafting phrases into rhymes for other people to read
For other people to take over and make their own
Make my life your own

But still I should be so happy
Life is better than it ever was
Which is suppose says something about my life
I suppose everything says something about my life

So abandoned
Maybe I should sit here longer and listen to the sad songs on rotation
Dead ends and false starts
Take over the desperate pleading of my voice
The desperate glances from my eyes.

I should be here
I shouldn’t be here
I should be here
I shouldn’t be here

All the choices
All the decisions
All the crossroads
I wonder what would have happened then.

For Someone

Don’t hate me for this
I didn’t ever mean it, to end up this way
Your lying pleading lips move as I watch, disenchanted
Finally

I force myself to walk away,
Although what I want most of all is to stay with you
What I want most of all is you
Desperately

I know you don’t want me
I knew that from the very beginning of all this
I just keep fooling myself
Again

Do you feel anything for me?
I scream as I push you roughly against the wall
You nod, and I smile
Sadly

Then just stay with me
I say, stay until she dumps that jerk.
Stay with me until then, I need you
Pleading

I know you’ll break my heart again
I’ve been warned, I’ve warned myself
But I love you, I need you
Forever