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i'll.be.fine
Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 10:16pm
P.s thanks to my friend (georgeSmile that inspired me to start writing as I do now<3

What He Said
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Lonely lands and spacious skies,
Watch as a young girl cries.
Mocking laughter still rings in her ear.
But sadly, it's only begun my dear.
Long nights are followed by an even longer day.
Nearly giving up, she's in agony, its the least I can say.
With nothing left to ease her pain,
He tells her she's got nothing to lose and it all to gain.
Her crutches are gone now, she's thrown in head first.
Gone are the razors, the pills, and the bottle to quench her thirst.
He says to her, "Be strong, for me, because I love you."
She wishes she could believe him, and says "I love you too."
The doubt and pain coming to much for her to bear,
She wants to say something but when she see's him, can only stare.
Days go by, sober and full of fear.
The only give away to the pain is a single tear.
She gives in, blood mixing with the spilling alchohal.
Him and his so called "love" wasn't there to catch her after all.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 10:24pm
Falling Silently
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Falling.
Falling down.
Falling hard.
Silently.
I swore this would never happen again.
Swore I'd never fall,
Fall out from common sense,
Fall away from sanity.
But that was before I met you,
Before you smiled and put your arm around me.
You tell me it won't be the same as before,
Promise me I won't hurt again.
You say I won't have to bleed anymore.
That you're better than he was.
And there won't have to be more nights I can't remember.
But nothing is forever,
You will leave with the changing of the seasons,
I will be left in the dark once more.
And after falling and falling,
Silently,
Although the way down can be fun,
When the hit rock bottom no one hears you scream.
i'll.be.fine
Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 10:41pm
Beautiful Suffering
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Over rolling hills and through sunny skies,
The black tears flow freely from her eyes.
She skips through feilds of green,
Judged by everyone they were so mean.
A pretty picture through the sky is a rainbow,
She watches it as she lets the blood flow.
Staining the white flowers with her blood,
It rains down her arms like a flood.
She looks around and everything goes black and white.
No more pain, no hate, no one to fight.
The sound of birds chirping turns to static,
Everything a shade of gray, fading, so dramatic.
The black and red mixes togetherm the colour of her death.
It keeps flowing until she draws her last breath.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 10:52pm
Note: some of the content in this poem may offend some, as it deals with frusteration with judgmental religious people.

Thank God?
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All these so called perfect people,
Gather round the fucking church steeple.
They pray "God save us from the evil people that corrupt us so"
Their 'innocent' minds are poisioned and they cry out in woe.
Now welcome to the real world outside your box.
Where people condem, kill and throw rocks.
"Oh how they persecute us Christains" they say,
When really it's them that won't look our way.
Judging and laughing they mock, "Look how they sin"
They're convinced in the end they'll win.
But both you and me know,
When it comes down to it, we get things done through our sorrow.
We don't sit and cry out prayers in vain.
We use the heads "God" gave us, we stay grounded and sane.
So look at me, bottle in hand,
A sight so sinful the holy cannot stand.
They gasp in disgust saying "Roll down your sleeves!"
I reply "I can't help the scar never leaves."
So go ahead and shake your head and laugh as I fall.
I only have one last thing to say.."Fuck you all."
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 10:59pm
Faking
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Just another day,
Of going through the motions.
Just another day,
Of pretending I'm okay.
Theres a smile forced on my face.
Yet you can see the scars on my wrists.
A laugh comes from my lips,
While my heart cries out in pain.
The smiles and laughter are fake.
While the scars and tears are all too real.
If only you could see,
What I try so hard to hide.
Too look into my eyes,
Finally realize.
The hold me close,
So the scars heal,
And the tears dry.
They become distant memories,
As the smiles and laughter become real,
And all else fades away.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 11:07pm
Forever Still
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I float by, seeing with out being seen.
I see what was there before and what is done now.
Laughing family concerned, caring friends there.
They became ignored...then seemed to disapear.
My innocent heart so trusting, so in love...
Not belonging to me, more to another.
Now it is broken and hopeless,
There's an empty bottle on the floor, the lid lost.
Sleepless nights gone now, for I sleep forever.
Don't have to endure any more of this heartache.
Now I lay in this wooden bed.
Never to be disturbed.
But out of habit tears stream down my quiet face,
From my unseeing eyes.
This grave lined with black roses.
Forever still, it will remain undisturbed.
Because for most,
This is an ending they will want to forget.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 5th, 2008 at 11:13pm
Insanity
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Now I spend my days in misery,
My nights alone and missing you.
I can almost feel you here...
My mind in such a state of desperation,
I feel your arms around me now.
Holding me close, your breath on my neck warm.
Your whisper in my ear soft.
You run your fingers over my skin,
Our lips meet for one sweet second..
Then you are gone once again, although it seems you never were here.
Now you should probably know,
It's you that did this to me,
When I cry silently,
When I bleed in the dark.
And when I take too much...
It's all because of you.
You still hold my heart,
Although you may not know it.
And its you and you alone that can save me from myself.
Asiah Scott
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Asiah Scott
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 194
July 6th, 2008 at 04:00am
What He said: Wow. This is awesome. Its really hard to write like this and you have made it sophisticated and full-of-feeling in just one go. I love the emotions and I can relate to it. xD

Falling Silently: This one is just as beautiful as the others. I love the imagery. This was so deep:
"Falling.
Falling down.
Falling hard.
Silently."...
Keep it up. xD
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 6th, 2008 at 08:25pm
Awe, Thanks AsiahSmile I'm glad you liked them, I'm trying to get some feedback on what people think, so thanks.
Asiah Scott
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Asiah Scott
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 194
July 7th, 2008 at 04:24am
You are really good. Its really hard to make it rhyme and make it sensible at the same time. And your style is the mix of every essential ingredient. xD

Insanity: I love the emotions there. That was my favourite:
"When I bleed in the dark."...=)
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
July 7th, 2008 at 06:22pm
Thanks once againSmile
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
August 2nd, 2008 at 06:40pm
-Hush-

Oh hush little one,
Stop the sounds rolling off your tounge.
Hush now, look around.
Be careful, don't make a sound.
Why you ask?
It's really not such a task.
Oh so silly my little dear,
Why do you allow that tear?
Just shhhh, take a sip.
To calm the nerves lets take a trip.
There now, thats better my love.
The numb look fits on you like a glove.
The silent looks are the ones that kill,
But you already know that, although not at your will.
You've joined us now, see her over there?
She sits and waits without a care.
Don't let her see you, don't make a sound.
Lets not spill blood on the ground.
You'll get the hang of it, teehee.
There you go thats it you see.
Now hush little one,
Stop those sounds that come off your tounge.
Hush now, look around.
And never ever shall you make a sound.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
August 20th, 2008 at 10:15pm
Forgetting.

The darkness was my sweet escape,
Hiding there was my only painless place.
It covered me and acted as a drape.
Now there all I see is your face,
Looking down at her with such love and care.
As she lies in your arms and looks up at you,
You tell her you'll always be there.
I laugh as I remember that was me too.
Such trust, and love, with no doubt.
But I know what you wanted, you didn't get it from me.
But you and her took the other route,
You got what you wanted, doesn't she see?
Or does she care, does it mean nothing to her anymore?
Why do I care, you mean nothing like you did.
You must have for you left my heart broken and sore.
Not sure what it was I did to you, I was nieve like a kid.
Now I'll try to forget you, stop you from killing me again.
But it's to late, the damage is done.
You said you'd be a friend.
You lied, so you're gone from my mind with the setting of the sun.
Your Ghost.
Thinking Happy Thoughts
Your Ghost.
Age: 25
Gender: Female
Posts: 440
August 27th, 2008 at 08:31pm
These poems are amazing, i mean AMAZING!! I can relate to some so well. you have done a fantabulous job!!! MAKE MORE PLEASE!!
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
August 28th, 2008 at 10:41pm
Thanks alotSmile I'm glad someone likes them, and I am planning on putting up a few more very soon, thanks againSmile
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
September 6th, 2008 at 03:33pm
-Unclear-

Everything is fading to a shade of grey,
Oh when everything was clear, I yearn for that day.
This pain thats taking over me, I should fear.
It should hurt, but it doesn't, see this tear?
It numbs me to this wave of pain,
Maybe now I'll understand when people say "no pain, no gain."
Because this state I'm left in today,
With these walls keeping everything at bay.
Sure it makes everything seem easy,
With all these people I used to call sleazy.
But some day I'll need to wake up.
From this grey world of mine thats become so corrupt.
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
September 6th, 2008 at 03:50pm
-Rain drops-


Looking up into the black sky,
Now even the birds aren't trying to fly.
I stand as the first drop hits my cheek,
I find it so beautiful, I cannot speak.
All these problems and everyday pain,
Are washed away in this pouring rain.
As the water flows over me,
A rare smile crosses my face, do you see?
See how free and happy I am standing in the cold,
Everyone else takes cover, I don't have to do what I'm told.
While everyone hides, I find this refreshing and new.
Everything starts over as the raindrops grew.
It's stopping now, turning into a light shower.
It seems like you can feel the power,
That somethings there, saying it's okay.
And giving me strength to live another day.
i'll.be.fine
Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
September 11th, 2008 at 11:03pm
-Kiss-

I feel your arms around me,
Forever this is how I want to be.
You whisper sweet words into my ear,
You tell me everything I love to hear.
You brush my hair from my eyes,
So you can look at me and promise me you tell no lies.
I never want you to let me go,
I love you, thats what you should know.
Your breath on my neck is warm now,
Please take my hand and show me how.
My heart skips a beat,
As our lips finally meet.
You draw me closer to you,
I melt in your arms, for that was my cue.
Now until this ends I will be in sheer bliss,
Because this is it, our perfect kiss.
emolove4everurs
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emolove4everurs
Age: 26
Gender: Female
Posts: 199
September 12th, 2008 at 01:13pm
OH MY GOSH!! Do you know how great of a writer you are? Your poetry is really really good!! i mean it's AMAZING!! Don't ever stop writing! And if anyone gives you crap for writing forget the them because you are extremly good at this! I love all your poetry! The way you write is Amazing the words flow and have such stong emotion. It's really great how you can make the words rhyme and still hold so much.....Detail...Emotion...hmm can't think f the word. Basically what i'm trying to say is that you are REALLY good at writing poetry! Haha sorry i kinda ranted there... =]
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Killjoy
i'll.be.fine
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 33
September 12th, 2008 at 08:15pm
Thanks emo_love! I'm so glad someone enjoys them. I don't plan on stopping anytime soon, hopefully improving more, that's all. It means alot to have someone give encouragment like that, motivates me to keep writing in hope that someone will check to see if I've writen anymore like I do with other people and their poems. Lol, so yeah.. thanks againSmile