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A Beautiful Nightmare...Poems written by Gabi...xxx

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Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 7th, 2008 at 07:45pm
well...
welcome...
i hope you enjoy my poems...
but really i just write them as a release...
it's kind of therapy for me...
xxx

Poems I wrote for / because of MCR...In Love Smiley

Wait And See

Poem For Mikey

Frankie's Poem

My Thanks Are Sincere

I'm So Glad

Catch Me When I Fall

Frankie's Laugh

You'll Never Take Me Alive

Five Special Guys

To The Media

This Is My Good Deed

Another Day

MCR And Me

Setting Me Free

Are We To Blame?


Poems for Collette: my best friend. the one I love Smiley Smiley Smiley

Definitely Bi

Be Mine

Never Let Go

It Stops Us

Can't be With You

Going Mad

Because We're Best Friends

Holding Your Hand

Do You Still Love Me?

The Dream

Would You???

Cherokee, Thank you for bringing me to my senses

I Will Let Go

Well...actually...

Will Soar

Other random poems that pop into my weirdo brain

A World So Wrong

The Reason I Lie

Won't Sleep

Why Did I Do It?

Label Me

Only A Hug

Can You Tell?

Heart Of Lies

Pascale's Poem

Through Teary Eyes, With Shortened Breath

Bi-Polar Or Not

Days Of The Week

Drunk? No, Not Me

Cancer/Aunt Peggy
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 7th, 2008 at 08:38pm
Wait And See

First, there's my friends,
It's definitely time to make amends.

Next, it's mum and dad,
All the times I've made them sad.

Also, all the people around me,
I should be as nice as I possibly can be.

And all of those I've never met,
I should make a difference they'll never forget.

I want to make a difference, in a special way,
Make someone's life easier, to live through everyday.

Five special guys, have done that for me,
I'll follow in their footsteps, just you wait and see.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 7th, 2008 at 08:38pm
Poem For Mikey

I'm glad you're through the worst of the depression,
I now know that life's just a lesson.
It teaches you about good and bad,
That some things make you happy, and others, sad.

I've learnt alot about my life,
And that something always comes out of strife.
I know that others' lives are worse than mine,
But I shouldn't lie and say I'm fine.

Some people laughed when I cried,
But without you and MCR, I'd have died.
You have saved my life so many times,
And stopped me commiting terrible crimes.

Without you, I wouldn't be sane,
I would've gone mad with all the pain.
Believe it or not, my words are true,
And i just really want to say, Thank you.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 09:59pm
Frankie's Poem

The thought of you dying,
Always leaves me crying,
Is it true the stuff they're saying?
Or a trick on my mind, are they just playing?
You're always the one I look to,
To make me happy, I just think of you.
Did you really do it?
Was there a raw nerve that someone hit?
Were you stopped by a best friend?
Did he make it so, your life didn't end?
Did you really want to die?
And to take your life, did you actually try?
Saving my life, is something I thought you could do,
But I know it will never work, if the rumors are true.
How is the band meant to save my life?
If within it's self, death and depression are rife.
I'm sorry I'm taking this out on you,
But I don't know what else to do.
You're meant to be my heroes, save me from myself,
But all the things I'm hearing, aren't good for my health.
I want to know how it feels, what it's like to die,
None of this is your fault, so don't feel guilty, dn't even try.
I really love all of you,
And my words, honestly are true.
None of you, have ever let me down,
You can always make me smile, when on my face there's a frown.
I really wanted to die, I was going to use a knife,
Then I remembered your concert, the best day of my life.
I wore your t-shirt, sang every word,
I felt more alive with every bass note I heard.
But you there weren't there, to play infront of me,
You had to go home, fly over the sea.
Your Grandma died, just the day before,
And although I don't now you, I couldn't care more.
But now I've heard that your Grandad died too,
Did that make you wanna die, are the stories true?
So answer me this, I really do care,
I heard you tried to kill yourself, is there any truth there?
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:00pm
My Thanks Are Sincere

I've found out, they aren't true,
All the horrible things, I've heard about you.
Now I know the truth, I am so glad,
Just thinking of you dead, makes me so sad.
Now I can look at you, when I'm depressed,
And seeing you so happy, doesn't make me stressed.
All over my walls, pictures of you and band,
My problems and fears, I know you'll understand.
The guys bully me, you should hear what they say,
But for all you've done, that's a small price to pay.
Although I've doubted it, it's definitely true,
You can save my life, I'm still here thanks to you.
I really can't apologize more,
I shouldn't have doubted you like I did before.
To you and the band, my life I owe,
So many things to say, but you'll never know.
All my words, you'll never hear,
But believe me, my thanks are sincere.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:01pm
I'm So Glad

I'm so glad this is over,
Now when I see you I smile.
I know that's how it should be,
But it hasn't happened in a while.

When I heard the rumors,
I didn't know what to do.
I just felt so confused,
And I stopped believing in you.

Then I thought you couldn't do it,
That there was no way.
That you ould save my life,
But you do it everyday.

Now I know the rumors are lies,
And know I believe in you all.
Because you're always the ones,
Who catch me when I fall.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:01pm
Catch Me Whan I Fall

I'll always have my friends,
Well, that's what they say,
But I know someday soon,
We're going to part seperate ways.

So when they're gone,
Who'll be there to hear my call?
Who will be the ones,
That catch me when I fall?

My family will always be here,
I wish that with all my heart,
But what am I meant to do,
When they all fall apart?

So when that happens,
Will I have anyone at all?
Wll there be anyone left,
To catch me when I fall?

Yes' I know there is,
And because we've never met,
These five people,
Havn't let me down yet.

So when my friends have left my side,
And my family's built it's wall,
I know they'll be the ones,
Who catch me when I fall.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:05pm
Poem For Gee

It didn't take long,
For me to realise,
That you're my brown eyed angel,
In disguise.

You're my hero,
And eternal saviour,
You help me control,
My rash behaviour.

You help me stop,
Injuring myself,
And all the thoughts,
That are bad for my health.

I've never met you,
But if I did,
Would you treat me,
Like a stupid little kid?

I'm pretty sure you wouldn't,
That's not how I see you at all,
You're always such an angel,
And you'll hear my last call.

Alot of the time I want to die,
But I'm still here thanks to you,
So I thank you so very much,
Without you I dont know what I'd do.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:06pm
Frankie's Laugh

If I could bottle it up,
And take it everywhere,
You could slag me all you wanted,
But I wouldn't care.

I'd never put it down.
It'd be with me always,
Carrying it around,
For all the down days.

When I hear the laugh,
I see his smile,
And that makes me happy,
If only for a while.

If it could always be with me,
I'd never be sad,
And I'd listen to his laugh,
Anytime I felt bad.

I know this must sound strange,
But I doubt you understand by half,
That all I need when I feel down,
Is that contagious Frankie's laugh.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:07pm
You'll Never Take Me Alive!!!

They led a broken childhood,
But ventured further,
Than many would.

They've witnessed terrible things,
But survuved it all,
To me they're kings.

I admit, they're my obsession,
But without them,
I'd be in a deeper pit of depression.

Thanks to them, everyday I survive,
And because of what they've given me,
You'll never take me alive!!!
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:08pm
Five Special Guys

Ray.
I love the way you play guitar,
And on stage you're such a star.

Bob.
The beat of your drum is in my heart,
And of my life you'll always be part.

Mikey.
You are so gorgeous, and talented too,
And all my problems, you help pull me through.

Frankie.
I love your laugh, it always makes me smile,
And I picture you, when the world seems vile.

Gerard.
I have so much to thank you for,
Like saving my life, and much, much more.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:10pm
To The Media

I can't handle it,
When they're accused.
It's always them,
That are blamed and abused.

All this small mindedness,
Has to stop.
Because without My Chem,
My confidence will drop.

You abuse them so much,
But they keep me alive.
And without what they give me,
I doubt I'll survive.

It's always them you blame,
For teenage suicide.
But they've helped me,
Anytime I've cried.

Suicide and self-harm,
You say they promote.
But thanks to them,
No-one's seen my last note.

I have seen,
You know nothing about them.
So when will the media,
Stop attacking My Chem?
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:11pm
This Is My Good Deed

I'll tell everyone the truth,
And spread the word.
And I'll make sure,
My voice is heard.

People have to know,
They don't want us to die.
And all the stuff the media says,
It's all a lie.

They want to save our lives,
Keep us standing strong.
They have more power than most,
In just one song.

Just hearing one song,
Can keep you alive.
Carrying your burdens,
They'll help you survive.

I'll shout this to the world,
Let them know somehow.
Writing letters and blogs,
I'll start right now.

To my favourite band,
And the saviours of my life.
It's the least I can do,
For pulling me through strife.

They have to stay strong,
So many hearts still to touch.
This is my good deed,
I love them so much.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:12pm
Another Day

Days come and go,
But will they play,
Another show?

Will they be on stage,
Performing their songs,
Releasing my rage?

That's where I belong,
When I'm at their concert,
There's nothing wrong.

It's such a release,
It's like therapy,
It brings me peace.

Music blaring through the speakers,
It heals me inside,
And my pains grow weaker.

The riffs of guitars,
The beat from bass and drum,
The music of stars.

Then it starts,
That wonderful voice,
Mending our hearts.

That was the best day ever,
It's true to my heart,
I'll forget it, never.

I need to go see them play,
Just once more,
I need another day.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:15pm
MCR And Me

I see their faces,
When I'm hiding,
From these mucked up places.

It's my private retreat,
It's where I go,
To escape defeat.

When I'm on the edge of tears,
I disappear off,
To that place with no fears.

I become enveloped in love and understanding,
When I fall in this place,
There's always a soft landing.

Surrounded by five awesome guys,
I want to stay here forever,
That's no surprise.

I've never met them but I love them so,
And my complete obsession,
Lets that show.

It makes everyone think I'm weird,
But thanks to MCR,
I've forgotten all I feared.

I'm not scared of dying,
But living on,
I'm always crying.

Until I go to my special world,
There I'm only myself,
A mucked up girl.

That's the way it's meant to be,
And the way I like it,
Just MCR and me.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:17pm
Setting Me Free

Yeah, so what?
I love My Chem.
Truth be told,
I can't live without them.

I understand you think it's odd,
But that's up to you.
You're allowed to make your own choice,
Just so long as you see it through.

Well, maybe I am,
Overly obsessed.
But without MCR,
I'd be more depressed.

You can't begin to imagine,
The things they've helped me with.
I don't care if you believe me,
I know it's no myth.

They've reduced the number,
Of scars on my wrist.
And given my life,
An awesome twist.

That might sound bad,
But I mean it in a good way.
They also make life easier,
For me to survive everyday.

I can't recall a day,
Since I heard them first.
That I didn't listen to them,
Even when I felt my worst.

When I feel so down,
That I can barely even move.
I'll just look at them and feel better,
There must be something that'll prove.

Like, how MCR,
Don't make people kill themselves.
They are actually improving,
My mental health.

Just because I'm a huge fan,
Doesn't mean I'll join that girl.
I'm never going to kill myself,
If MCR'll be blamed by the world.

Does no-one stop to think,
How hurt this might make the guys?
Being blamed for the death of a girl,
When a rope round her own neck, she ties.

Imagine you,
Were in their place.
Your mission in life,
Thrown back in your face.

How does it feel?
Isn't it bad.
Just thinking if them feeling that way,
Is enough to make me sad.

So, yes, I really love them,
But who can really blame me?
They're saving my life,
And setting me free.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 14th, 2008 at 10:18pm
Are We To Blame?


Is it us,
Giving My Chem a bad name?
Is this all our fault?
Are we the ones to blame?

People come to their sites,
And see poetry about self-harm,
The fans constantly writing,
About the blood dripping down their arm.

It's really no wonder,
That everyone's starting to think,
That we all cut ourselves,
There's definitely a link.

But that's really so wrong,
Not how it should be at all,
So, poetry-writing fans,
Please hear this call.

I'm not trying to tell you,
What you should write about,
But show that we are strong,
And you can live without doubt.

Don't try to always be positive,
Still use that darkened twist,
But don't let the stereotyping people,
Read through the cuts on your wrist.

I'm sure I'm not alone,
In wanting the discrimination to stop,
And wanting to protect My Chem,
So the media will let this drop.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:22pm
Definitely Bi

I cry everyday,
When we part.
You can't believe,
The pain in my heart.

Everyone says,
"I, love you".
But is it really,
Always true?

To your friends,
It's something you should always say.
And you should mean it,
Everyday.

I do love you,
But it's not how you think.
There's a connection between us,
A really special link.

I'm in love,
I have real feelings for you.
Please hear my words,
My voice is true.

I still like guys,
But you're my special girl.
You mean everything to me,
You are my world.

So no, I'm not lesbian,
But I'm definitely Bi.
And if you hate me once you read this,
I may just die.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:23pm
Be Mine

I can't help but wonder,
Do you love me too?
Do you share the feelings,
That I have for you?

You tell me you love me,
But that's not what I mean,
I meant actual true love,
Like on the movie screen.

Each day comes,
But slowly passes by,
And when we leave each other,
I cant' help but cry.

I really do love you,
I hope that much you see,
So then we'll be together,
Just like it's meant to be.

People will think it's weird,
But they don't understand,
It's just the same as being straight,
I still want you to hold my hand.

Being Bi-sexual,
Is nothing to be ashamed of,
It's completely natural,
I'm only being in love.

Just because you're a girl,
Doesn't make anything wrong,
Being around you,
Makes me strong.

It's not quite enough,
My other friends saying it's fine,
I need you to listen to me,
I need you to be mine.
Molko. Killjoy.
Motor Baby
Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:27pm
Never Let Go

Is it just,
The 'best friends forever',
That keeps us,
From being together?

I don't want to ruin it,
I wouldn't swap our friendship for the world,
But I want you to be mine,
You're my one and only girl.

We both wanna be together,
And we both know that's true,
When I sleep, I only dream,
Of being with you.

No-one else knows,
About you being Bi,
But I swear we can keep it secret,
Just between you and I.

If we can make this work,
No-one has to know,
We won't hold hands in public,
But when alone I'll never let go.