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Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | oops |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Found some of my old shit, so I'm gonna post it... |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Like the quickly turning pages Of a very good book Cruelly do joy and security pass I have somehow lost More than I’ve loved I have seen Already way more than I cared to Returns that panicky sense of uselessness As familiar to me as a favorite pair of jeans I wear just as readily What’s happened to us all? When did we start caring? When did we stop living? Why doesn’t it make sense to me? What is it that I’m missing? (1990 something) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Never Say Die 10/92 There lies a wealth of knowledge Within this realm, my friend; And Time is of the essence As we approach this end. We are changing As sure as the sun will rise; But most of all, remember That nothing ever dies |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Your eyes Remind me of how Empty my life has been They mirror my thoughts And somehow, I am not afraid I can touch you Without reaching out I can feel you with every breath You know me And I know you Not one word needs to be passed Our souls have touched; In spirit, we are one. (1990-something) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | He suffers in silence The pain in his heart Does not show In his hard, cold eyes His reckless existence Does not reveal The torture of his past He cannot feel emotion Only bitterness But underneath He is in eternal suffering He longs Like no other man He needs In eternal desperation And she is so young And fresh And beautiful His heart aches He wants to love her But he has never learned how To love Only to hate So he will suffer the rest of his days In emotional turmoil Until someone Knocks down The wall He has spent all his life Building up And he will be left Naked And vulnerable A little boy Once again And he will break Under the stress And all that will be left Will be the pieces of a man Who could have been Her’s To love Had she not found him Too late (1988 I believe) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Ashes, Ashes (1/18/91) Come take my hand And join the Circle Build a wall Around it all Just as what goes around Comes back around Ashes to ashes We all fall down Boy sitting next to me Clad in navy green His eyes say it all Wonder when it’ll be? The world spins faster Pinning me to the ground Then, ashes to ashes We all fall down Where will you be When it all blows? Will you be watching As it all goes? What will we become Does anyone know? Ashes to ashes And let the blood flow |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Grandpa… Too intimate a term for a man I hardly knew I admit I felt nothing when I heard the news. So what legacy did you leave behind? Surely not the will from which Mom and I were excluded. Nor the identical, meaningless gifts you sent To my cousins and I every year. Were you even there the night your grandson died? I don’t remember seeing you But then again, I never do I wonder what you did to reassure yourself Those last few moments on your bathroom floor. Were you consoled with the recognition that your children would see Your corpse? Were your kidneys leaving the only empty space inside you? Did your heart stop only in death Or long ago? I have found compassion for every scum of the earth, But I cannot find any for the man who turned his back on all of us. I wonder what I’ll say to you When they force me to stare into your dead eyes. But then, what did I say all those other times? (1987?) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Education. What does that entail? And upon whose path Are we to trail? Are we expected to learn What we’re expected to do And only from those high On the list of “Who’s Who?” Will we grow to heights Simply “moral” and “good” The way that we’re trained To do what we should? Is College reality And whose reality? Perhaps it is – only in The matter of legality. Chalk it up to experience But how does that weigh Up to the demands Of the everyday? When you live in a world Where it’s easier to be green Why be concerned With what anything else means? (late 80’s early 90’s) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | So the years roll on by And the tears subside You’ve got nothing left inside But at least you’re alive So you say goodbye to The broken dreams And how nothing turns out To be what it seems And who knows What happiness means? Just look at where you’ve been And you’ve got to smile. Like a picture upon a screen You watch your life flash on by Sometimes you have to laugh Sometimes you can’t help but cry Things that you’ve loved And things that you’ve lost Things you’ve gotten for free And things with too high a cost Moments of highs And blithering lows And where you wind up at the end Nobody knows (late 80's) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | And as my vision grows dimmer And my strength begins to fade I feel a tremor As the priest starts to pray I beg forgiveness For the things I’ve done wrong Then the trembling recognition That I’ve waited too long And all around me The world grows dark and cold Then suddenly a white light Upon a vision in gold (0ld as shit – late 80’s) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | We’ve Only Just Begun (1988 again?) As the days roll on And the months fly by I feel you letting go Inside We used to laugh We used to cry But now we simply Pass the time We hardly ever Talk at all And we make love With no urgency at all How can it be gone When we’ve only just begun To share our lives Our loves Our souls How can we bring it all Back again When I look into your eyes The world still closes in When you’re in my arms I can feel you grow weary You used to tell me I was all you needed; everything Yet nothing now You hardly even notice When I’m around What’s the point of love If it can’t keep you in What’s the point holding on If it’s just going to end? And what’s the use in trying To forget things you’ve done You won’t get them back again Once goodbyes have begun |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | The wide-eyed child Looks upon her world In wonder The woman Looks upon her world With scorn Pain and bitterness Collide with joy and hope For the child will not win It is weak; too weak To break though the chains that bind her She longs to love But she cannot risk the pain She has seen too much to let herself Still somewhere inside of her Is that desperate need That ties her to Her endless search for fulfillment She will be searching for all of her days. (1987?) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | Why... The question of the aftermath. Blasted question! What good is asking why Once the damage has already been done? How would be a better question. How is ten steps away from Repeating the same mistake again. If one would only analyze How Before they take that first step in They would never even make it to Why -April 14, 1989 |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | The Hunter and the Deer (this shit is mad old – I think from the early 80’s) I am the deer, so docile am I That I can freeze like a stone without blinking an eye You are the hunter, so frigid are you That your shots are your life, and mine is your stew I don’t see you coming – the sun is too bright But I hear the leaves rustling and I take to flight I am too late – you fire a shot Which pierces my backbone, and laugh you do not I wince at the pain – I can’t make it home My family will be all alone! But you don’t give up – you want me to die So you shoot me twice again; I’m starting to cry This shot did not miss; my legs will not hold And as I collapse, I try to be bold I know I must die – there’s no other choice I pray that dear God will please hear my voice I pray that someday, at nature’s revival These men cannot stop my family’s survival Oh please save my children from this horrible death I’m praying, you know…on my…last…ounce…of…breath I can feel it now – I’m slipping away Please answer my prayer, God, work on it today I cannot…breathe…my body…is alive… My family…I must…be with them…I… Mu-ust…not…d-d-die… This was the footnote... ...And so is the fate of an animal – so innocent – yet that man loves to kill (that bloodthirsty creature!) For him it’s never. |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | What sorrowless acts Of bitter greed Plague our Planet Earth! What suffering we Perpetuate What goals of little worth When did we Succeed Mother Nature? By what means Do we feel we came Upon such a high stature? And whom – are we sure? Is guiding us Along this grandiose path? What “God” to receive us When we’ve reached the aftermath? Can we not see the bloody tears Of our very own dying? Can we not hear the sound Of our own children crying? Whom will we hold responsible When this all has gone to waste? Better look back to ourselves For the end of our own human race (Um, I’m gonna say early 80’s again) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | My love is a flame Burning, scorching as it rises I can feel it burn inside of me Tearing my guts, polluting my brain A living hell And I am trapped Alone in my darkness My dusty memories In a stranger’s hand For once the child has died Loneliness becomes your only friend That is when the dream Comes to an end Your face in my mind Tortures me As I toss and turn In the deep, dark night I’ve got to have you by my side Only you can take away these fears These fears of my own self My soul that must be sold Only you can save me now So afraid to love Won’t you touch me? Won’t you take me? For I am a robot at your command Now I reach out a hand To touch the girl I hardly know But have always called my friend And I spit in her eye So long, my friend, so long Nothing stays the same And I cannot reach you now The time has come I can no longer pretend For ever since I met you I’ve had tears in my eyes (Hmmm early 80’s again) |
Person0001 Always Born a Crime Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 5099 | If I perceive you to be a messenger And see how well we both played our parts Understand the crucial purpose we’ve both served In one another’s lives I suppose then I can make some sense Out of how something can Dissolve into nothing By just a few careless words or actions But I can’t make any sense out of All your deception. I can’t make any sense out of My own selfishness. I can’t see the logic behind My helping to create that wall of stone Between us. I don’t understand why I can’t touch you I don’t understand why we’re not friends Never mind why we’re not lovers. (I’m gonna go with 1988 ) |
valiumobsequy Awake and Unafraid Age: 27 Gender: Female Posts: 13973 | i like your poems. you are very talented |
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