Creating A Mind Of My Own.

My poetry isn't that good. They usually don't rhyme but they have alot of feelings.

But here it is...

Now I Can Live

She hides her pain
her bouqet of tears
under one big smile
but nobody knows how
shes tempted to reach
for the scissors or a knife
and abruptly end her life

Nobody cares how much
they push her around at school
how much they make her feel like
taking to many pills
she can't believe in god anymore
because he would never let this happen

So today will be the last day
she will hide her tears
She'll let go of her tears
and her urge to live.
Someone will eventually find her
Dead and alone on the bathroom floor.

Someone will read the message
in blood on the mirror
"Now I can live"

How About Now

Can't you see that
those words hurt?
that words feel like dagers?
When you say "go die"
I consider it

If I die tomorrow
will you be sorry, i ask
You say no.
So tonight,
I will sing my last song
and write my last note
and write my last word.

Then i will do as you said.
I will cut my wrists so deep
the blood will rush like
a stream of red tears.
The last thing I hear
is you saying it again
and its over.

Everything.

So now i wonder, do you feel bad now?

Ever

Every time I look
into your eyes
I see innocence
but you,you are guilty

You said things to me
that made my heart break
and tears breakfree from my eyes
all I wanted was to be around you.

But now I can't look at you
around you, i can no longer be
nothing you can say
will heal the wounds you inflicted
do you excpect me to forgive you?
I hope you don't
becasue i won't.

Ever.

What Happened

What happened to my smile?
I'm not sure where it went.
What happened to my laugh?
I think i lost it.
What happened to my hair?
I think its black.
What happened to my nails?
I painted them black.
What happened to my high heels?
I think I wear Converse.
What happened to my clothes?
I think they got darker.
What happened to my makeup?
oh,That got darker too.
What happened to my life?
It got really bad.
What happend to my wrists?
I cut them.
Do I know what I did?
I overdosed
Do I know where I am?
Hell, of course.
Am I alive?
I don't think so anymore.

Nothing like a good emotion filled poem.
My favorite is "What Happened", it's relatable on a certain level.

Well done, can't wait for more.

Thankss soo muchhh<3

not sure of a title for this yet... :/

All they do is push her around.
They tell her she's not worth a thing.
Her tears dont matter to them.
Her scars mean nothing.

How can those be the people she trusted?
How could they turn on her, just like that?
What did she ever do to them?
Now, she has to go it alone.

But as she thinks about it,
she was always alone.
She just couldn't stand to be alone
and she pretended they cared.
But nobody did.

Forever and Today

They way i feel,
can't be real.
Every word from your mouth
sounds like a song i've never heard.

Your like the guy,
i thought never existed.
You make me laugh,
so hard i cry.

You make me feel,
like i've never felt before.
My heart that was cold,
is now so warm.

So never say goodbye,
you know i would cry,
You promised me you'll stay.
Forever and today.

wow! Awsome! loved them all! keep goin' girl!

thankss!!! im working on one now. i should have it on here soon! :]

Let Down

Is this really how I'm supposed to feel?
like everything i do, dissapoints you?
well, im sorry.
There isnt much more i can do.

For you, i would make mountains rise.
The stars, i would make them brighter.
only to have what i used to.
Smiles aren't lasting as long as they should.
Tears are becoming more painful.

Were hearts only made to be broken?
I wish there was someone who could tell me
"i love you" and i would truely believe.
I thought i could believe you.

But the mountains won't be rising,
and the stars wont be brighter any time soon.
And im not sure what else to do.
But im not sure i can believe anyone.
anymore.

Deaths Light

I can see a light.
Im not sure what it is.
but something is pulling me towards it.
Nothing can explain this.

My feet are dragging.
My nails digging into the ground.
My knees are scraped
as well as my palms.

I didn't mean for this.
I don't want this anymore.
I have discovered a meaning.
Something is out there.

But nothing is stopping this force.
The light is too bright
And i cant pull away.
I was wrong.
And now i cant change a thing.

Love the new updates. ^_^
"Death's Light" was very powerful, not to mention had a kickass ending. xD

Well done, it's always fun to read your work.

woah! this is really good! like all of it

Thanks a bunchhh<3

Please, No

I can see it,
in they're eyes.
Something i cannot explain.
A pain now in my gut.
Please, no.

This is the look,
that gives me nightmares.
The one i wished,
i would never have to see.

This is it.
the end of me.
i should have known,
the promises were lies.

I know i was afraid to see him.
I should have said goodbye.
Just in case,
this was the end.

You promised he'd be just fine.
He would be there when i turned 13.
he'd be with me for a while.
but he won't now.

I'll nod as you speak
but, im not listening.
I fighting back my tears,
my heart is now in half.

And as i turn away,
i wish i had said,
I'll love you forever, Goodbye.
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This one was hard to write because its about my uncle who died of cancer.Even though that was in 2004, i just came to realization of how much i really miss him.

This isn't really a poem, just kinda something i wrote.
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Forget
If I could forget about you,
believe me i would.
I would forget all the times you gave me butterflies,
without even knowing it.
I would forget all the things,
that remind me of you.
I would forget about how empty I feel,
when you don't realize how much i care about you.
My mind could just walk away from it all,
but my heart won't let me because
Your simply not worth forgetting about.

Excellent new updates. ^_^

Please, No really hit home for me.
The whole poem definately gets points for emotion.

Nice work.