Through Foggy Glass: Rei's works
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| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay  Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Little Angel 5-oct-07 Hello little angel Are you my savior? Are you the one to stop the hurt To take me to a better place Take my dirty hand in your pure ones Look into my guilty darkened orbs With your innocent wise ones Its all for sale Going cheap! Take me to your home Your happy peaceful place See my past and present What i am What i could be What i always was Don't judge For my doom is sealed already Take my hand Make me wings To fly like you can I'll see her smiling face I'll await theres Then we will be together Whole Like we were before they came Before they ruined it in heaven they can't touch us In perfect union In perfect harmony Safe from them Can you fall and rise at the same time? 15-Jan-08 I'm so confused All these things racing around me I can't run away I can't hide Past and present Both joy and missing Pain and rushing rivers of memeries Best forgot I feel the tug from the past The urge to join them To reconsile To stop running To stop forgeting To stop pushing them away I don't understand how far I've fallen Or how I've assended so high From the ash rises the phionex But I'm just the rat Can you fall and rise at the same time? Can you feel so crushingly augished Yet the happiest you've ever felt? I don't know But I do To push away is the same as too run Weak Unhonerable Yet one who lives for honer does so? It makes no sense No fucking sense I should face the past If only to make me a better person Let my demons kept a lick away consume me Can I? Am I that strong? Frightened childlike eyes stare And I don't know if i can. Hope? 6-Feb-08 I dare not hope for whats to be Nor what may not be I hold the hope in its cage Un willing to let it free Un wiling to be hurt again You look with such hope I can barely look away I see the same with myself But hold back Steelly resolve is my shield Only showing what i must My heart commands an ocean Yet sense guids me to the bay Not sure where to tread I giud my hands forward To navigate this darkness I can't see Can't breathe But still i wade this water Unsure Scared... Danger 5- March-08 What if I put you in danger By simply being there? What if there was something A dark whispering A secret kept far from you Its everywhere but no where Danger is what i thrive on Danger could harm you I'd give it all to keep my friends safe If only to make up for the danger You don't understand You wouldn't believe me But its for your own safety At least the secret will bide time Til I greet them again I understand/ Is it so wrong? 7- May-08 I see the beast All scales and teeth And in his eyes I see myself I understand I understand why he kills Why he eats little boys and girl And delights in their screams Is such understanding wrong? They say killing is wrong They say understanding is right In such a crazy world Who is to say whats right and wrong? I've felt the thrill of tearing flesh Of drinking the blood of an innocent Of the frantic screams When it is inevitable Is that so wrong? Is that so right? That i may feed like i was born to Innocent blood A prize or a shame? Who is worthy of telling whats right and wrong? Is it true? 24-May-08 So is it true? Whats always been said, Whispered by school girls Yelled by parents Reinforced by truth Is it true I'll always be a failure? I'll never succeed Is it true that I'm just another dumb kid stumbling through life? How much longer can i make excuses For poor grades For failed tasks Are they excuses Or are they true challenges Can I rise to the battle? More importantly Will i succeed? Will i survive this time. Turn to the blade See it run No more No more Not again Turn to darkness to feel less pain Hello old friend I missed you Let me feel nothing once more Turn to light Where i don't belong Where i'm the black angel amongst pure souls Home is the darkness Its safe and cold Light is sucess Fortune And favour It is the key to living Andif you don't live you don't move forward |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | An update I am Rei 6-9-08 You call an angels name Emily In a voice so soft I almost believe I am an angel In your arms I feel like Emily That angel But I'm not Emily I abandoned that innocent human name I'm Rei The surviver A dark soul that is an oposition of itself I care yet I don't I enjoy the pain of others I want to kill I'm arragant and think I'm better than them all When I'm with those that matter I 'm the kind Rei I care I help I understand I'm a better person Better? Will better help you survive You gotta steal Cheat And lie your way to victory Its the way life is I'm not ashamed Why be ashamed of living? Am I a "bad" person? I'm honest with those closest Does that amend my sins Make right all I've wronged? Do I want to? No I am what I am That I will never escape I'm Rei |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Sometimes I just want to escape Run in the rain Untill its all gone Borrow an angels wings If only for the day If I run away Wild winds and rain That wild gleam An excitement My hair whipping behind me In the pouring rain I know why I love this I know why i want this |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Do you even care? I love you I need you Yet you treat me like nothing Am I still your lover? A part of me wants to see you In joyous strides Kiss you Like theres no tomorow But the other half refuses I can here the thorns in your vioce Somethings changed Did I piss you offf? Again |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | I promised I'd never lie to you I promised a sincereity So rare for me It was hard to give To promise As I open my eyes I smile A happy grin Hello world I'm just dandy I'm a'ok Never have they seen My pain Never shall they Its mine I lie to all those around me I lie to thier face And feel no guilt As another lie escapes my lips I'll sleep well tonight |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | I hate you I hate you so much I hate you with a passion And I want the world to know Stab me in the heart Stab me in the back It would hurt less You betrayed me and my love I thought you were different I thought I could trust you The way I could no other boy I thought you loved me I thought you cared But I was wrong And I should have expected it I should have known I was too nice Too easy Too stupid Too weak Now I pay the price. I'm sorry I wasnt good enough And.. I hope your girlfriend knows That you were too much of a coward To even tell me |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | A cut for the pain A cut for the anger A cut for you And one for me For all the sacrifice For all the love For all the anger Tonight you will regret it Anger burns And to be honest Its the only thing keeping me here To seek revenge is to live If only a little I don't want to fly I want to fall To feel the world in all its bright intensity Then feel no more |
| I.wish.i.wer.a.ghost Motor Baby  Age: 29 Gender: Female Posts: 940 | i like them =] |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Thanks. I read some of yours. Its pretty good. |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Whats really going on 24-6-12 You see whats there to see Not whats on our minds You see a happy girlfriend Smiling and playing around You see our 'talks' Never a fight Only smiles as the good girlfriend conceded Cooks and cleans for him Just to see a smile grace his beautiful face You won't see them yell Or the strain of a kiss The strain in her laugh The hesitance in her eyes As he talks of babies and marriage No you won't see her cry Or her desperate pleas to the gods Give me a reason to live I want to die I want to let go No we all see what we want And never question whats there |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Deaths sweet release 27-06-2012 Take your best shot I'm ready to die Nothing to lose A mother to gain I want to feel her open arms Her soft hugs Her gentle ways She who left too early To be truly met I'm not done here But I'm not ready to finish it I'm not gonna listen to my head I'll listen to my heart To be free and happy All I've wanted to be All I've never been All I will reach in death |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Born anew I feel as if I'm born a new I want to rise out of this mess Into a new day I am Emilia I am another face A part of the collection What will I become? What do I need to be? I am not afraid Just nervous of the crowd I need to be brave Unafraid Unashamed But strong enough to resist Strong enough to survive Strong enough to live I need only the will power Not a fleeting hope A fire to put others to shame What is there? The friendship of duds The love of a boyfriend Too much of a child to know his actions Or its reactions A family long gone A family of hate This will be tough I need to be tough Or patient enough to wait Is the desire to help enough Or just apart of the problem Still it burns Despite all the tears Pain Is it strong enough? Or foolish enough to break it Moutians wer'nt made in a day So it is with life |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Oh angels of above Pull me up with you I don't want to be crazy I don't want to lie I don't want fear I don't want to be alone I don't want to be scared I was once a young baby To young to know my life To young to understand hate Or know pain Innocent and pure Oh to understand that again I was one a young girl I wore dress and pink I loved barbie and dolls All to please you I wanted to love cars Transformers Trucks GI joe I was a shattered soul The moment I had to resist I didn't know daddy I didn't want to anger you I swear I never meant it Back then I was a nervous school child Different Hated School enemies hitting nerves I was freak and loser Just like at home I was a nervous worker A scared child in an adults world Yet i grew to love this place Here I was Emily Just Emily Not mistake Freak Loser I was just Emily the team member I'm an adult now Hurting and afraid Learning how to live Like the other well adjusted around me Pretending to be like them Still that shattered soul |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | Another facade 7-7-12 I don't want to lie But my facade must stay I don't want to smile I want to cry I don't want to say sweet nothings I want to scream I just want to be me For you I'll smile Say I love you Say we will be forever together Have babies Get married All lies I want to yell and scream But If I don't have you I'll kill myself For you I'll smile I'll laugh and play Just like in the old days I don't want your company I need your company to be sane I don't want to need your company But if I don't have you Who will remember me when I die? Finally kill myself I want to cry out loud Be heard Live life without pain Without this urge to cry To die Yet I must act sane Maybe that will make me sane Or dig me deeper Some part of me cares Hangs on The other part is waiting to die So willing the knife to cut The marks to bleed And death to come |
| MyChemicalBlack Salute You in Your Grave  Age: - Gender: - Posts: 2351 | Love the narrative style of each of these works. Nice work.  |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | thanks |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | That girl 12-7-12 She's a million miles away "Her heads up in the clouds She need to come back down to earth" They say She's so cold So sharp Barbs seem to prick any who dare come close "She's just a bitch Her heart is ice cold Don't bother with her." She doesn't think she can make it alone She curls up and cries She can hear their insults Their laughter She can still feel the bruises where her parents hit her Hear their insults Maybe an angel can save her Or maybe she will die The school kids don't know They are ignorant They don't ask her story Just judge her If she turned up dead Would they care at all? Arms a carved up mess The bandages forgotten The blade on display And her pain showing to the world The world who let her down |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | I'm standing on the edge A smooth calming place Not knowing where to go Just where I was Toward the light my only direction I have a heart of pain A wondering mind And an uncertainty Yet I will walk till I drop I will not stop to drown This ocean of pain is too deep But if I believe I will be granted a path Strong in mind Weak in mind Strong in heart Weak in heart Strong in body Weak in body To choose seems so easy Yet is so hard |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | So your finally gone All packed to go Should I feel angry? Yell and scream Say its all your fault Should I cry for loss? Beg you to stay Cry and plead? My heart aches for you I just want a human touch Anyones A hug A smile Anything to show someone's there That someone cares I'm as lonely as a child Desperate for some light A hug A friendly kiss Anything to end the darkness |
| geradsredskittle666 Really Not Okay Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 610 | So your finally gone All packed to go Should I feel angry? Yell and scream Say its all your fault Should I cry for loss? Beg you to stay Cry and plead? My heart aches for you I just want a human touch Anyones A hug A smile Anything to show someone's there That someone cares I'm as lonely as a child Desperate for some light A hug A friendly kiss Anything to end the darkness |
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