Poetry Of A Forgotten Heart And Broken Soul
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MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | The house is quite and I’m all alone The darkness and the shadows are bigger But I’m not scared of any worthless shadow I’m not scared by any lack of light I head straight towards the bedroom door Because I know what lies behind it I go to the dresser And open the top left door The dreaded top left door With the small silk covered box That lays behind all the socks I take out the box They will all pay I take off the silk cover and run my fingers over The wooden carvings details Of figures in the moonlight Dancing and singing All at my disgrace I open the box And there it sits inside The pleasure in my eyes Is hard to hide The gun is small And cold to the touch My hands were warm But not anymore As my right hand wraps itself around the trigger I don’t have much time I can hear the clocks ticking I don’t have any time to spare And I can almost see your face And feel you breath along my neck Feel your fingers on mine Feel your hand on my heart And all I want Is it to stop I pull the trigger Silence fills the air Just my luck The gun was jammed If not now then when? If not that then how? What do I have to do? Just to look at you? That’s all I’ve been trying to do Is just get one last look at you |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | A Gun in Hand with Plenty of Time I look around slowly With a gun in my hand Trying to find a better reason to die Than you Pictures around me Simi-circle form Tears on my face That I can taste As memories of you Dance in my head Back and fourth you go Up and down Just dancing around Memories of you With my head above clouds The gun is loaded And I don’t think twice As I tighten my grip on the trigger I close my eyes Your voice sounds so sweet As you threaten me Yelling at me to put the gun away But my hand does not stray And neither does my mind I’ve got plenty of time And time does pass slow Very slow As if your gentle finger is holding back the clock But I know better I know your not really there But tell my eyes that As I look into your stare A wonder-less look That stare of yours It’s like looking into the ocean blue With specks of golden-brown fish held within their bowl They swim around me Capturing me and taking me down into the deep, dark, depths of your soul If I only had my fishing pole The strike of the clock awakens me And you fade away The gun Now heavy in my hand sends chills through my veins The pictures on the ground Blurred and spotted from my tears Lie there Watching me Waiting for my next move I pick them up One by one and put them in their box Then physically and emotionally I walk away To live to see you yet another day |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Heartbroken Lover I walk passed you You walk passed me And then stop on a dime and turn around You walk back up to me And treat me with a smile I smile too And then stop to look at you It’s like you’re looking past me Like you’re looking at someone new This shouldn’t be And you know it too As I refuse to talk to you You look me in the eye You know that I’m just going to tell you a lie Anything just to be able to finish walking by You don’t leave And I can see The tears welling up in your eyes I could bottle them up and sell them For a dollar and a dime But I think twice as another thought crosses my mind Who have you told? What have you done? If anything at all I threaten to kill you And you now know that the truth has been told What will you do? Ah, it’s so easy to see You know that I won’t hurt you And you love me |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Shadow Standoff I open my eyes From a dream of light kisses And sunshine To a room filled with darkness And suffering The rain pounds on my window Like a heartbroken lover Begging for that last kiss I hit the light switch And like a flash The light slithers across the room Enveloping the darkest shadows With light I head to the bathroom door And that's when I hear it A sickening cry Laughing? No It's some twist between crying And screaming The bathroom light turns on I duck beside the far wall And pray that my presence stays unknown. I listen until my ears buzz But all I hear is the unforgiving rain And my restless heart. I stand up slowly Take a few steps closer And watch in horror As a shadow moves across the front of the door I stand still and hold my breath Waiting for a sign But the shadow stands there Mocking me Daring me to open the door For what feels like hours I stand And wait But I can't take it anymore I run to the door. In a rush I turn the knob And open the door Close my eyes and jump in the room With both arms out A failed attempt to be Superman And land on the bathroom floor with a thud I stand up and turn around With my fists in the air Ready to kill whoever broke into my house With me staying home alone. And there SHE stands Perfection in its greatest form Blond hair Green eyes Warm stare Heart - stopping smile Perfection. I stand in silence and shock I want to speak Yell Anything But its like I'm frozen I can't say a word My eyes drift to the mirror And that's when I realize I'm the only one in the room. I turn back Confused And there SHE stands Perfection in its greatest form And then I noticed something that I didn't before SHE does not blink SHE does not breath SHE hasn't even moved. I take a step closer And another And another until I'm right in front of HER. I wave my hand in front of HER face. Nothing. I mange to somehow speak HER name. "Jen...." Nothing. I try in put my hand on HER shoulder But it passes straight through. I scream and stumble backwards And watch as SHE fades away I fall to the floor in a trembling heap Trying to think up an explanation But I can't think Through the sound of the Pounding Unforgiving Bloodthirsty Rain. |
xxtoryxx Killjoy Age: 28 Gender: Female Posts: 51 | i thought they were beautiful!! |
Pansy Wayero Jazz Hands Age: 33 Gender: Female Posts: 372 | there great! cant wait to see more! |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Thanks guys! It really means a lot! |
misa misa. Shotgun Sinner Age: 33 Gender: Female Posts: 8241 | hey some of your imagery was very nice i especially liked the stanza I take off the silk cover and run my fingers over The wooden carvings details Of figures in the moonlight Dancing and singing All at my disgrace The idea that the carved figures were dancing at your ridicule was very evocative. Some tips though; make sure to use spell check on your wordprocessor. Mainly you were fine but there were a few mistakes which take away from the fluidity of your poem. Also, you could try looking up some synonyms on either your wordprocessor or online. This is a very simple way to help diversify your expression, and sometimes you come across interesting phrases. It is something I use a lot myself. I hope that didn't sound too harsh. Overall your poems were good, you had some lovely imagery and it really expressed your emotions well. |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Nadiya.: wow, thank you! I never knew that you could look up synonyms on the wordprocessor, I'll have to try that next time. I'm glad you enjoyed the poems! |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Eclipse Kiss I look at you You look at me The world stops And so do we I stroke your face You touch my lips Then altogether at once We both kiss Each other On the lips It's an amazing sensation That I've never had the guts to try But together we fly Through the clouds To the sky We push away the sun But block out the moon Just me and you That's all I need Just me and you together For all entirety |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Just Drifting Away Sometimes I feel like I'm drifting away On top of a river Just floating away Being carried away Just laying on top Acting like everything's okay Even though it's not I would rather be drifting away Barely thinking of you and me Than drowning in my own thoughts And having you be so inquisitive about me Asking me who I am Where I've been And what I've done I can't change these things Even though I've tried Being with you is always on my mind What would you say? What would you think? It's not that I care I just want to plainly see What the world thinks about me So I'm just drifting away Laying on top Acting like everything's okay Even though it's not |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Yesterday, Tomorrow, and Christmas Eve Dancing tears stream along your face The sparkle in your eyes lost in their wake My fingertips touch your lips You hardly breathe a sigh As I tell you goodbye I wrote you a letter on Christmas Eve Told you I love you and never would leave But today is the day I must tell you I'm going Cause' tomorrow's plane as no sign of slowing So goodnight my fair lady You hug me and beg me to stay I longing memory I still have today But today is not yesterday and I still believe That if I came back your heart would still beat for me I wrote you a letter on Christmas Eve Told you I love you and never would leave But today is the day I must tell you I'm going Cause' tomorrow's society has no sign of slowing So goodnight my fair lady I may miss you I may want to cry But deep down inside I know it was right To leave you pleading and screaming my name Because now you're only starting to feel my pain I wrote you a letter on Christmas Eve Told you I love you and never would leave But today is the day I must tell you I'm going Cause' yesterday's memory's have so sign of slowing So goodnight my fair lady |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Silent Conversation Your blond hair lowers as you look into my eyes You ask me what I'm trying to hide But I give you no answers I give you no change From the silence that I live through everyday Your looking for a reason The thing that make me tick But everyone has already told you I'm nothing but sick. You refuse to believe them And want an answer from me Why can't you see that everyone has given up on me? That no matter how many times that I drown Now matter how many times I lie The world has given up on me They have turned their backs back around They don't care how many times I drown. You want me to tell you my every feeling and thought You want an explanation for all the dark clothes I've bought But once again silence fills the room You know you've bitten off more than you can chew I'm too much for you. Your dark green eyes are now welling up with tears I don't want you to cry here Why can't you see That you're the one doing this to me? |
Wandering_Soul Jazz Hands Age: 31 Gender: Male Posts: 303 | These are incredible. You convey your emotions really well, and the imagery is fantastic! Keep up the amazing work, I can't wait to read more. |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Wandering_Soul: Thank you so much! I'm really glad that you enjoyed them. |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | You and Me The smell of alcohol is in the air There is lots of talking and people drinking I look around the room as I set up the stage I never did like playing in bars All the somke All the talk All the flirting All just a little to distracting while you're Onstage With all the lights With all the eyes matching yours With all the people not listening to you With all the people that are I pick up my guitar and turn up my amp I adjust the microphone to my height People look up like they are a bunch of cattle And I am their herder I give the room a going over before I start to sing I am singing the lyrics but I am thinking of You and me I always do it I am into the 5th song A slow love song I wrote about you But know one seems to be in the mood Except me I hear the door open I hear footsteps on the granite floor I open my eyes Just for a peek at the newest crowd I see you sitting at the bar Nothing in your hand Nothing in front of you Nothing but a big smile and a wink I try to smile back But its hard to without crying After the song I go down to the bar I see you and you walk up to me We talk about the old and the new The good and the bad We talk a long time Just you and me Just like I had always pictured Until you kissed me |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Long Lost Heartbreak I'm confused I know I want you But yet Your not here to have I'm alone Yes, I do have lots of friends But yet They can't always be around I know that I want you I know that I need you I know the reason I can't sleep at night is you I know what you're trying to say That I should just pick up my life And move away But I don't know if I can I'm drowning In the very memory of you But yet You're the thing that keeps me floating on This river of life I'm lost In our past But yet You're the light at the end of this tunnel I know that I want you I know that I need you I know the reason I can't sleep at night is you I know what you're trying to say That I should just pick up my life And move away But I don't know if I can I'm confused But yet I know whats wrong I'm alone But yet I have a million friends I'm drowning But yet I'm still thirsty for more I'm lost But yet I know where I'm going So come and get me down off this ledge We don't have to run off together Into the sunset It would help me just to see you again But yet Will that be the end? |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Our Love She looks at me I can't breathe She takes a step in my direction I've never understood this affection I have for her Her hand touches mine God, she looks so fine Her arms wrap around my waist I can almost taste Our love It's a love so strong Yes, We know it's wrong But if we go our separate ways There is so much pain But our love takes the pain away And that's why I love her to this day |
MCRmusicmonster Really Not Okay Age: 30 Gender: Female Posts: 612 | Death's Lifeline Your eyes deep green You make me want to scream Your hand grips mine God you look so fine There's a gun in my had The one that you grip If I could only just trip Make it look like a mistake I've lost all faith In love But somehow I still have one feeling left One love One life One time Your my only lifeline You look into my eyes Like you're trying to find Something that you've lost My fingers grip tighter Around the trigger As your face morphs into saddness And concern For your life or mine I'm not really sure All I want is so simple So easy to do But that lifeline of mine is rigging of the hook But why do you even care? Before now you wouldn't even pass me a look But right now your right here beside me Holding my hand Just like I'm a child And I don't understand But your the one that doesn't understand You have no idea You're the reason I'm doing this 'Cause you're the one that's killing me You've shot out my heart You've drowned my brain You've been to many hallucinations You've been way too much pain You've sat here for so long Are you still alive? Yes Yes you are And so am I Because you still speak And dead people can't cry. |
misa misa. Shotgun Sinner Age: 33 Gender: Female Posts: 8241 | wow, you have written a lot since i last checked your thread! Long Lost Heartbreak was by favourite. I loved the last stanza. The question at the end made it seem really fragile, and really summed up the conflicting emotions of the subject. Great title too, it really drew me in. there are a few little grammatical and type errors again but apart from that it was good. |
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