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hedge bitch;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
hedge bitch;
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 65427
November 6th, 2017 at 03:56pm
J

So you did see it. You did say something. It took you two days, but you did.
What were you expecting? Were you waiting for me to tell you first? Because what reason should I have now for thinking you would care? Even now, what were you trying to get out of texting me? Were you hoping I'm come crawling back into our fucked up friendship? So all you got out of me was a "thank you." Because what else could I say? I can't respond with the things I wish I could say. So let's just go back to pretending that we both think we're in the right. I won't expect anything from you on Wednesday, and then we can just stop pretending we're even friends.
K.K.
Bleeding on the Floor
K.K.
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Posts: 1787
November 8th, 2017 at 09:22am
Up until a few days ago, I had a lot more posted here, mostly on my profile, but obviously I removed that, so all you fake stalkers most probably won't ever read it. I guess I'm in the process of deleting some other old posts, but why should I? Mostly I don't give a shit about what I posted here many years ago. INO is for honest people mostly, not for people like you... Who don't have a life or for whatever other reason stalk me, on FB and now here. I don't mind genuine INO members, just my stalkers. My life, my thoughts, my sexuality, everything else is my own, and I don't have to answer anyone except God, the Creator, for anything I post or may have posted on here. You have also got no right to judge me because you're nowhere near qualified for that. First try being honest to yourself and going through some things that I've been through, like most people on INO, or most people who have seriously thought of suicide etc. And have seriously thought of life and death.... Most of my stalkers have in my opinion no idea, and therefore have no right to have a valued "opinion" . A valued opinion, to me, comes from someone with lot's of experience in a certain field who knows what they're talking about.
K.K
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
November 23rd, 2017 at 04:54pm
Seeking,

There's no way I can convince you to stay next year, believe me I can already tell from what you were talking about with J.B. I guess June will be the last time I see you then (unless I see you on results day). Enjoy the rest of your life, I guess then... Wait, why am I telling you this now? I've got until June to convince you to be my friend, nothing more than that I promise. I won't do what I did last time when I tried to be your friend and apologies for everything constantly. I mean I'm trying at the moment to start mini conversation just to break the awkwardness. I really can't tell if you are taking this attempt at friendship as awkward or not but I will continue it anyway. I'll see you on Monday. From now on, you are no longer my crush, you are just my friend in my eyes if you take to friendship like a duck in water. I want to end off the school year on good terms, please. If we don't I'll regret not becoming friends with you in the end. I know not all stories have happy endings but I want this one to have at least a content ending. Not quite the dream but still positive.
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
January 1st, 2018 at 09:14pm
A.S

I do feel bad for breaking your heart (I just don't like you that way) but please try not to make me hate you for the constant nagging for memes. I don't do things when I'm nagged to
polystyrene;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
polystyrene;
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January 10th, 2018 at 10:38pm
k-

you were doing so well when we were together. you were kicking addiction's ass. now I'm not sure what to think or do. the rational part of me knows that love can't save an addict from themselves, but the fact that your new gf shoots up with you isn't good. I still love you, even though you treated me like shit, and just now was the first moment that I realized that I'm probably going to have to go to your funeral sooner rather than later. that scares me so much, because our last conversation wasn't nice, and who wants to bury someone they love? I know it's all out of my hands now, but I wish you'd pick up your phone so if/when addiction gets the best of you, you'd know I still care.

I know you won't pick up when you see my name/number on your screen tho, so I'm not gonna even try, but fuck I feel so helpless.

L
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
February 10th, 2018 at 11:13am
Seeking,

Are the rumours true? I've had people trying to convince me that they were for the past three months or so but it wasn't until I kinda got proof that I started believing them. Plus, I got told by some reliable sources that the rumours could've true. I only started to believe them myself on Tuesday. I've managed to keep these rumours/secrets for you for the past 5 days or so (only speaking of them with the fellow skeptics that helped to convince me and people that don't even know you at all). I'd love to actually tell you this yourself and not be writing it on a forum page that you'll never read but seen as you muted me on Facebook, won't let me follow you on Instagram and I don't even know whether you have other social media account, I'd have to ask you in person. Even then, the same friend that sent me the "proof" of the rumours also told me what you had to say about me behind my back so I think that eliminates any chances of me ever speaking with you again. The only way I could reach out to you is through your sister but even then I don't really talk to her anymore so... Plus, I don't think you'd want your sister to hear of these rumours until you're ready to either claim them or not. I'll see you on Monday in the same lesson that I see you in everyday but I won't end up speaking to you so I guess that will have to be another lesson of pretending that I don't know the rumours and trying to hold back bringing them up in a conversation...
amo.
Damned After All
amo.
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 105346
February 14th, 2018 at 10:56pm
Dear Papa Pancho,

I can't believe that tomorrow is gonna be 11 years that you've been gone. I miss you so much and to this day, I still hope that my next phone call is from you. I still expect that knock at the door to be you. You were pretty much my dad and I didn't find out til after you were gone that you tried to protect me from my mom, tried to stop her from abusing me. So not only were you my dad, you were also my hero, my guardian angel. I wish I could have properly said goodbye to you and tell you that I love you. And I hope I'm making you proud. I miss you and I love you. I'll try to visit you this year. ❤❤❤

Te quiero,
Jennifer
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
February 22nd, 2018 at 11:53am
Seeking,

You massive twat... I actually believed your lies and I felt guilty for all the things I'd done in the past because of your lies but no. It was a joke that YOU created in order to get me off your back. Now I'm kinda wishing that the lies were true. That may seem surprising but I've come to realise that there are more cons to the truth than there are pros these days. You know you could of just told me myself how much you fucking hate me and I would of backed down. I'm just getting flashbacks to when you blocked me on Instagram with no prior warnings; even though I know exactly why you did that, you still could of expressed your opinions to me rather than just subtley expressing them with a block.

When I found out that rumour was false, I couldn't even tell if the truth was good or bad anymore. I still can't tell whether the truth is positive or negative. At least I've had a few days to process the truth now. I'll be honest, I was more annoyed at J.P than I was at you after finding out about this whole joke you two had planned because he watched through my every emotion throughout the situation and never pulled the plug on it all even when I just didn't seem myself. I still don't have a strong opinion towards yourself other than calling you a twat. I feel as though the only thing that's saved you from not getting a massive swarm of anger sent your way is the fact that J.P made it seem as though you had no involvement in the whole situation whilst it was still occurring. It wasn't until I found out it was all your idea that I realised you were actually involved and I just haven't had any strong opinions to your involvement in the joke. I'm only calling you a twat because it was kinda a dick move to take... I don't even know if I still like you or not anymore. Everything in my mind is conflicting. I guess your little plan did work then (I hate admitting defeat). Go ahead, roll in your accomplishment then; your little plan has sorta worked just not the way you expected it to.

I was just reading through one of my previous messages written to you on here. "From now on, you are no longer my crush", how long did I really expect that to last? I've said that hundreds of times throughout the years but it's never seemed to work. Let's see if it will work this time. From now on, you will no longer be seen as my crush in my eyes. I may still call you my crush as a bit of a comfort blanket but I won't tell new people of you being my crush and I'll try to not speak of you as often. I don't want to be the girl who likes a massive dickhead.
dark blue;
Killjoy
dark blue;
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May 14th, 2018 at 09:07pm
Dear ~ ,

Having spent a solid few hours trying to come up with the polite way to decline your job offer, I would like to spend a few moments drafting up the message I would like to have sent you.

You can take your job and stick it up your arse. As far as everyone else who applied for it goes, I hope their houses burn down, that lad with the lisp in particular.

Yours sincerely, ete.

Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
May 28th, 2018 at 07:43pm
This whole page is filled with spam so I'll try to bring back some reality to this thread

JP,
I'm so jealous! You'll have to tell me all about the festival at some point whether that be over text or when we get back to school. Either way's alright!

Seeking,
You just confuse me these days. I still can't tell whether I like you or not. I'm more on the side of not liking you but I still show elements of liking you. I kinda see you as a brother. I mean I see all the guys in our history as brothers at this point and I'm going to hate the last ever history lesson together but you're just kinda the more special brother. I'd say that it's because I have more memories with you but that ain't true; I have more memories with DM for sure because I've known him longer! Anyway, the reason you confuse me is because you keep sending me follow requests from random accounts you make on insta. Why? I thought you hated me; why would you want anything to do with me? My only explanation is that you're using these accounts to get pics of me for memes with your mates. If that ain't true then I'm just kinda confused. Also the picture thing... Guess I can't say much about that...

HR,
You were just too kind the other day! I was just expecting you to continue walking ahead of me, just ignoring me. You really didn't have to walk with me but it was a nice gesture and I appreciate that.

ER,
THANK YOU FOR BEING ABLE TO PUT UP WITH ME RANTING AND RAVING ALL THE TIME! YOU ARE LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE IN OUR YEAR GROUP AND I'M REALLY GOING TO MISS OUR LITTLE GOSSIP SESSIONS NEXT YEAR! Oh and also, thanks for the invite to your bonfire! I loved the idea even before you explained what it was in the group chat!
hedge bitch;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
hedge bitch;
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 65427
June 15th, 2018 at 10:35pm
J
It's been a year. A year and five days ago, I said something to you that basically destroyed our friendship. And now that it's been a year, I've put more reflection into it.
It wasn't me. For the past year, I've wondered how much of this could have been blamed on me versus you, but now I see, that if our friendship was really any good, it would have survived me putting my foot in my mouth.
I've been in a bad mood for the better part of the past year because I kind of can't stand any of my other "irl" friends, and my internet friends aren't as active, and so with you gone, I've felt secluded. But a year later, I know I'd never want to be friends with you again because what good is it having that kind of friendship that falls apart when someone says something stupid?
Of course, now I'm talking like I actually know something about something. And I'm honestly better at being alone than I am at maintaining any kind of social life.
I still wish I could tell you off, for real, just once. I want to rant in your face and have a classic mic drop moment. Instead, I'll just have to remind myself that I really am happier with you gone. I might be miserable in my lonliness, but it's a hell of a lot better than wondering if I fucked up with you, or wondering if you were going to bail on me last minute again, or convincing myself that I was the one who was less than because of the lopsided dynamic between us.

So enjoy another "fuck you" from me to you.
gnash
In the Cannibal Glow
gnash
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Posts: 52983
June 19th, 2018 at 02:27pm
j,

i've had a little over 6 months to reflect on everything, and i'm still hurt. it's fine if you didn't want to marry me, but you could have had the decency to have told me to my face instead of doing it over the phone. you could have talked to me instead of hanging up while i was having a panic attack. you could have given me valid reasons as to why you didn't want to be with me so i could try to improve as a person instead of giving me the lamest fucking excuses ever. but you did none of those things. you walked out of my life so easily and immediately erased me from everything as if i had never even existed. you said to me on the phone that i would easily get over this because i have family and friends that love me. but guess what? family and friends can't take away the pain of what you did to me. nothing can. not even medicine or therapy. i'm still so pissed that you assumed i'd be perfectly okay. i'll always be pissed. i'll always be heartbroken. i'll always wonder why you are such a fucking dick. i'll always hate myself for pursuing you in the first place.

- mandy
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
June 22nd, 2018 at 08:37pm
JP,
It's a shame that we kinda drifted apart more nearer to the end of the school year. I wish we were closer friends on the last day because I'm now a little bit resistant to even bother messaging you about organising something during the weeks off because I'm afraid you won't reply or you'll think I'm joking. Want to go on that shopping trip we've mentioned twice before in the past but both times I had an actual reason as to why I couldn't come? I was kinda looking forward to looking through merch stands and making fun of each other's tastes in music... I just don't feel like actually messaging you about organising it...

Seeking,
I guess all I have to say to you is read your leaver's shirt! Oh and thanks for actually signing mine. I thought you would have just told me to fuck off because you want nothing to do with me indicated by you lying to your sister about not knowing me (for the record I didn't ask her to ask you about me. The only reason I knew that conversation actually occurred is because your sister told my brother who told me. The only reason it came up is because I'd told my brother about our history class and who's in it)

ER,
Again, THANK YOU! You give the best advice and I'll miss having you in my year next year for sure! It's not even a worry to me that you didn't sign my shirt because I know I don't need your name written down on an old school shirt to remember all of our miraculous conversations!

BM,
You're an actual dickhead. I surely won't miss you next year! Picking on people isn't funny! Dickhead!
Charbarmanning
Bleeding on the Floor
Charbarmanning
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1145
June 29th, 2018 at 08:06pm
JP,
Please don't lie to me. I'm sure you were! It's was two or three specific sentence I heard that made it obvious you were. I don't want to bring them up because I'm afraid that you might respond saying that's not what you two said. Then what did you two say then that sounded so similar to those two that gave it away... There may have been four or five dead giveaway sentences. They were in there. You know what, I'll write out the sentences in the secrets kept secrets topic for you to decode and realise I called your bluff
gnash
In the Cannibal Glow
gnash
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Posts: 52983
September 10th, 2018 at 01:47pm
jessi,

it has been 18 years. 18 years ago when you were just an 18 year old and your life ended. i was just a scared 12 year old girl, thrown into adulthood in an instant. i looked up to you as if you were my sister. when you took me out a week before you passed away, i noticed you didn't feel well. but i didn't think much about it. i laughed and said that i felt tired too from that walk that we went on. little did we know, your life was about to come to an abrupt end. i said it when i was 12 years old and i'll say it again, if i could have traded places with you, i would have. you made the world a better place and you brought happiness to every single person around you. it's not fair that your life was cut short. you had so much to offer. i wish that i could have become half the person that you were, but i have failed horribly. i wish you were still here to offer me advice.

- mandy
polystyrene;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
polystyrene;
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February 7th, 2019 at 05:30pm
A-

I feel really guilty about fucking your boyfriend. I didn't plan on it, he was there and it just kinda happened. and like I know he has cheated on you before but I never wanted to be involved with it. I am so sorry. I wish I could make this better.

L

gnash
In the Cannibal Glow
gnash
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March 11th, 2019 at 12:47pm
bro,

i'm happy for you. i truly am. but i know it may not seem that way right now. i'm upset that you didn't tell me yourself that you will be moving to a different state. you are my best friend, and we have been for as long as i can remember. i'm losing you and i don't know what to do. i know you are grasping at straws to try to make me feel better, but saying that we will still see each other the same amount that we already do is 100% bullshit and you know it. plane tickets are expensive. there is no way either of us could afford that over and over again. but if you feel like this is the right thing for you, just know that i fully support your decision. will it hurt like hell and will i be severely depressed? yes. but that is for me to sort out, not you.

- mandy
Universe.
Generation Nothing
Universe.
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June 29th, 2019 at 03:26am
A
Three am, no big deal. Its been an ok summer but i know time seems to be escaping and somehow things are the same but they aren't.
And i still miss you every day
Its a different feeling. I really hate it so much.
I wish you were around. Life is so quiet without you.