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lana del rey.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16030 | September 7th, 2012 at 08:20pm
I know what to do to live the life I want. But I'm too scared to make the changes to make it happen.
I need to quit this bullshit internship.
I need to break up with my boyfriend.
I need to move out of home and into the city.
I need to volunteer to do the copy editing for that business.
I nee to get myself out there, work on my online presence.
I need to stop flirting with my married English Literature Professor.
I need to do my uni work.
I need to make my dreams happen but I'm too fucking chicken shit scared.
I don't want the suburban life I'm headed towards.
I'm better than a housewife.
I'm better than what I am right now.
If I keep going the way I'm going, I'm going to end up in an early grave. |
Day Of The Dead
Salute You in Your Grave
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 4772 | September 8th, 2012 at 03:32pm I need to stop thinking about things, it's all in the past, what's happening now is what matters. I need to stop being so touchy and just get on with things, I just need a way to deal with this anxiety. I don't tell anyone, not even my boyfriend about this because I don't want to worry him. But then I think I'm acting differently to him because I'm trying to hide it and then it just goes in circles. I'm sick of this. 6 years of pretty much being kept in the dark. I'm a little lost. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 9th, 2012 at 07:05am I really need to quit school. Im not happy there. I dont wanna do this as a profession. Im 95% sure I wanna be a massage therapist. But thats just more school to endure, and I cant afford it right now. Maybe if I finish beauty school, ill make enough money to do what I really want. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | September 9th, 2012 at 10:36am i wish that there was a way that i could forget about tomorrow.
where i could just wake up and forget about what happened 12 years ago.
but i know that would be entirely impossible for me. it always has been.
so instead, i just hope that i can make it through the day in one piece.
after all, i know that she wouldn't want me to mourn her death anymore.
she would want me to be happy. so i need to try to be, for her.
odds are, i will fail miserably, as always. but i am still going to try. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 10th, 2012 at 07:03am Part of me wants to congratulate you
Another part of me wants to smack the stupid out of you
What the hell were you thinking??? |
stereo typical.
Tragic With a Capital T
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 46539 | September 12th, 2012 at 10:35pm I owe you more than anybody realises.
I don't deserve a chance to make this up |
lana del rey.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16030 | September 12th, 2012 at 11:36pm I'm actually enjoying writing this essay.
But I can't stop procrastinating.
What the fuck is wrong with me? |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 13th, 2012 at 07:08am Why them? I dont understand.
Why cant they have a good family...they deserve that at least. |
amo.
Damned After All
Age: 32
Gender: -
Posts: 105480 | September 15th, 2012 at 08:23pm That was seriously one of the stupidest things I've ever done and I regret it.
But it's no use, it still cost me my job.
Fuck. Why didn't I use better judgement? |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 15th, 2012 at 08:45pm My emotions are seriously fucking with me
When Im finally so close to getting what I want, my feelings trick me into thinking I dont want it anymore. But its only been here lately. Whats wrong with me? |
idk. my bff jill?
Demolition Lover
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 18372 | September 16th, 2012 at 08:14pm I love what I'm doing. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | September 16th, 2012 at 08:17pm i wish that it was possible to go back in time and have the chance to re-do so many things about myself and my life.
as i get older, i can't help but to look back at certain parts of my life and wish that it had been entirely different.
i'm tired of disappointment and remorse. most of all, i'm tired of loathing myself. i wish i was a different person. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 17th, 2012 at 07:14am I dont know what to make of it. Ive wanted to be with my best friend since the moment I met him. And now that Im getting an opportunity after five or so long years, my feelings are disappearing. On and off. This cant really be happening. How does this shit just happen? I hate it. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 21st, 2012 at 09:20pm If im being honest with myself, I really do think im gonna be alone forever. Ive seriously convinced myself that he wants to be with me. I mean, on the surface, things appear to be perfect. But if I dig a little deeper, I come back to reality and realize he's way too good for me. Things are too good to be true right now. Im even fooling myself into believing that a future with him is possible. But it cant be. If it were meant to be, it would've already been. He's too smart for me, he's just too amazing. I cant wrap my head around this. |
energize!
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 29
Gender: Female
Posts: 10820 | September 22nd, 2012 at 12:38am i was doing so well and then nope, tonight was the worst night ever.
literally the only thing i love is my family and i'm leaving them in January |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 22nd, 2012 at 09:51pm I know things arent perfect, but this friendship is perfect to me. We are everything a friendship should be. Even though we're ex's, our friendship is as if things were always like this. Let's keep it going, cause living without you would suck. |
andromeda;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
Age: -
Gender: -
Posts: 69253 | September 23rd, 2012 at 08:32pm
I read through these posts occasionally like a creep. And even though I've got my fair share of problems, I wish I could give each & every one of you a hug.
I know I've posted something similar to this before, but I feel like it needs to be said again.
<3
|
stereo typical.
Tragic With a Capital T
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 46539 | September 24th, 2012 at 12:43am A simple post like the one above me is enough to make someone's day.
For me, Leila, it did. <3 |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | September 24th, 2012 at 08:50am Its as if we never dated, like we've been friends forever. I honestly feel like Ive known you my whole life. Im perfectly fine with where we are right now. I hope to God it doesnt change. |
Kick Start My Heart
Thinking Happy Thoughts
Age: 32
Gender: Female
Posts: 559 | September 25th, 2012 at 08:50am I'm so angry and jealous right now. I knew so many people would desert me when I left you, I just didn't expect it to be people I knew for years before we'd even get together and it fucking hurts |
