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andromeda;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
Age: -
Gender: -
Posts: 69253 | November 15th, 2012 at 08:54pm
I found your old texts from when you actually cared about me. I wish things would go back to that.
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lana del rey.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16030 | November 16th, 2012 at 05:49am Holy shit.
Last night he was looking for a pair of boxers and came across my scrap book. He flipped it open and it just happened to land on the only page that had anything about John in it.
Its the only personal diary entry in the entire book.
I had to snatch it off him before he read it.
I don't think I can be with him anymore.
But I still love him.
I've not fallen out of love with him.
I've just fallen more in love with someone else.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING TO MY SELF?
I have isolated myself from John and told him I can't see him anymore and I'm trying to be tough and drag myself away from him. I'm continually think about flaws he has.
But I can't stop loving him.
And I just don't know what to do.
I never planned for this to happen. |
lana del rey.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16030 | November 16th, 2012 at 05:52am And just as I write that post, I get a text from him.
My life is spiralling out of control.
He can't leave his wife, I don't want to be the cause of their marriage break down.
But I'm meant to be doing my doctorate under him.
How can I do that now?
Should I move to another University?
Is that even an option?
Maybe I should just take that marketing job with Dad's company.
The pay is amazing.
Even if I don't like it all that much.
Maybe I can come back to my doctorate later, and things between us will have cooled down. |
lana del rey.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16030 | November 18th, 2012 at 02:10am I just checked my timetable for next semester.
John is teaching my Shakespeare subject.
When the hell did he take over teaching that?
Why didn't he tell me that?
Well, I guess because I stopped talking to him.
I can't be in a subject taught by him.
At least as my doctorate supervisor our interactions would be private away from everyone else's eyes.
How am I meant to sit there in a room with him and 15 other students?
And it's the only third year Literature subject so I HAVE to take it to graduate.
What have I gotten myself into? |
for reasons unknown
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 100
Gender: Female
Posts: 11073 | November 18th, 2012 at 05:45pm i think out of all of the people i know, i dislike 93% of them. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | November 19th, 2012 at 07:02am evan peters.:i think out of all of the people i know, i dislike 93% of them. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | November 19th, 2012 at 08:22am why is this happening to me?
i don't understand. it worries me so much. |
Captain Bumout
Wild Eyed Joker
Age: 37
Gender: Male
Posts: 87451 | November 19th, 2012 at 04:44pm a part of me wants that reading to come true.
it would make my life so much easier. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | November 19th, 2012 at 06:25pm Just remember, it could always be worse. |
stereo typical.
Tragic With a Capital T
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 46539 | November 20th, 2012 at 12:24am You're the only person I feel comfortable telling these things to
With you I don't feel like you're judging me. More than anyone, you understand. |
Captain Bumout
Wild Eyed Joker
Age: 37
Gender: Male
Posts: 87451 | November 20th, 2012 at 02:40pm i seriously want to beat the crap out of you.
you never give a crap about anyone but yourself. |
Day Of The Dead
Salute You in Your Grave
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 4772 | November 20th, 2012 at 02:47pm These past few months have confirmed my belief I'll never escape bad luck. Being ill, worrying about other people, friend in a bike crash, losing other people, having a shitty job. Where did everything go so wrong? |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | November 22nd, 2012 at 06:35am Day Of The Dead: Where did everything go so wrong? |
Search and Destroy
Moderator
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 34535 | November 22nd, 2012 at 03:20pm losing hope |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | November 22nd, 2012 at 03:58pm i know that having this kidney stone isn't necessarily my fault.
it's not like i asked for it. but i feel like a huge burden to my parents right now.
being in immense pain makes me seem very needy, and i feel terrible about it. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | November 22nd, 2012 at 07:16pm You had multiple chances to make your move. I gave you about a billion opportunities. Honestly, waiting on you got old. I waited over five years. Im almost twenty years old, im not playing games anymore. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | November 24th, 2012 at 08:47pm i feel like i am slipping back into a state of depression again.
and this time, i am not sure exactly how to stop it from happening.
i know that being ill hasn't exactly helped my mind any at all,
but that's not the only thing that has been bothering me lately. |
geradsredskittle666
Really Not Okay
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 610 | November 25th, 2012 at 02:01am I admit I am more cut by you leaving Sydney than I will admit... |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | November 25th, 2012 at 07:28pm I feel like a failure, honestly. That could've been so much better. I hope it was just nerves, and not something seriously wrong with me. |
ab aeterno.
Lost My Fear of Falling
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 93820 | November 27th, 2012 at 03:04pm Really sick of having other people's backs but no one has mine. |
