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idk. my bff jill?
Demolition Lover
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Posts: 18372 | December 22nd, 2012 at 10:59pm |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | December 23rd, 2012 at 06:47am How can things be this perfect? I dont mind it at all, its just a bit odd. I hope it never changes. |
stereo typical.
Tragic With a Capital T
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 46539 | December 23rd, 2012 at 10:37pm My sudden appetite/ eating habit changes are actually starting to worry me.. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | December 23rd, 2012 at 11:15pm I feel like such a disappointment to everyone. I cant do anything right. Im pretty sure I make my best friend hate me. I must be why he's so frustrated all the time. He seems happier whenever Im not bothering him. And my parents, I have to be a disappointment to them. I dont do enough for them, and I cant really seem to do anything right for my mother either. Maybe one day ill be better. And the people at school would be better off if I weren't there. Someone with actual talent and passion should be in my spot. Im about to graduate and I still suck. Maybe thats why they dont give me any clients, cause they know ill screw it up. I just feel like my clients act like they like my work. If someone else where to do their service, they would actually approve. Maybe then the teacher would quit giving me dirty looks because she wouldnt have to watch me screw up anymore. I know she's sick of watching a failure. And my church group is better off without me. I left mainly because Im sick of wasting their time. They obviously dont want me there, but they're too nice to say anything to me. The teacher doesn't even know me and she assumes Im selfish. I must've said or done something to make her see me that way. Maybe its because whenever they ask for prayer needs, mine are always dumb. Or maybe its when I ask them to pray for me. I guess that's it. I guess that makes me selfish. Im sure even God himself is sick of me. If he even remembers I exist. Really, the only reason I even bother waking up is my boyfriend. He's amazing and actually puts up with me. I dont deserve him by any means, but im thankful for him. He will never know how much he means to me. He keeps me alive. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | December 26th, 2012 at 12:25pm i sincerely hope that this does not end the same way that it did last time.
because if it does, then it will fuck up everything. and i won't know how to recover from it. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | December 27th, 2012 at 08:38pm I dont deserve you, im beyond lucky to have you. I appreciate you and love you more than you'll ever know. |
Finnick Odair
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 32
Gender: Female
Posts: 50222 | December 30th, 2012 at 02:00pm jfc I can't wait to go to Ireland next week. I just had to spend a whole dinner time listening to my brother complaining about his cold. stfu there are worse things and our own mother is way worse off. grow a pair. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | December 31st, 2012 at 10:37am i try to do so many good things to help with her depression.
like taking her to the movie theater and paying for her ticket.
but that just ends up making her worse instead of better.
because she's usually pissed that i've spent money on her.
i just want her to be happy. i just want to help her feel better.
i keep doing all of these things, thinking that she'll be happy.
but it always seems to have the opposite effect on her.
i'm out of ideas. i feel like such a failure.
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energize!
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 29
Gender: Female
Posts: 10820 | January 1st, 2013 at 02:26am i'm crying myself to sleep on the first night of the new year
i really, really wanted this year to be better
i tried to make it different
i need this year to be different |
andromeda;
Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights
Age: -
Gender: -
Posts: 69253 | January 1st, 2013 at 01:21pm
I am probably more upset that I couldn't get fucked up on New Year's than is healthy. 
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mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | January 4th, 2013 at 11:33am if this is a sign of what the rest of the year is going to be like,
then i just want to fucking quit and go elsewhere. |
amo.
Damned After All
Age: 32
Gender: -
Posts: 105480 | January 5th, 2013 at 03:01am I wonder what it would be like to be with someone who wants to be with me.
Maybe that is why I'm jumping at this opportunity and then I'll end up doing something that I'll regret later on.
I mean, I've waited this long, so why can't I wait longer? |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | January 7th, 2013 at 11:20am i want him to know how i feel before he finds someone else.
i messed that up in high school with one of my good guy friends,
but i won't allow myself to mess it up this time. i deserve this. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | January 7th, 2013 at 01:54pm I just cant help but feel sad for him. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | January 8th, 2013 at 09:20am why did he even bother to say that in front of me?
he knows this very same issue caused me to experience depression last year.
i wish that i had enough money that could save them from filing bankruptcy.
just when i think my life could get better, i couldn't be more wrong. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | January 8th, 2013 at 09:45pm I feel stupid, really. Im sitting here crying cause I wont get engaged for my birthday. But really, he needs that car. Im happy for him, truly and honestly. Im just kinda scared he'll realize he doesn't need me anymore because he can support himself. Im gonna feel useless because he doesn't really need me anymore. He has a job and a car now, what the hell does he need me for? I mean, I make him happy, but any girl can do that...I guess im just sad because I got my hopes up for this, and it got shattered. I dont want him to leave me before he realizes he still wants to marry me. I wanna feel needed, and now im gonna feel kinda useless. But I couldnt be happier for him. I wont let my selfishness show itself, cause deep down, I do want that ring more than anything. But his needs/wants come before my own. I already dont feel like I do enough as is...fuck, its gonna be a terrible night. |
John St. John
Shotgun Sinner
Age: 29
Gender: Male
Posts: 7145 | January 10th, 2013 at 09:20am When did INO get so dead? I just logged back in for the first time in ever |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | January 10th, 2013 at 12:30pm Its really not that bad. My life is great, all thanks to him. As long as he's in my life, nothing can bring me down. |
mandylorian
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53013 | January 11th, 2013 at 01:14am i wish that my life wasn't so fucked up.
i'm tired of feeling depressed, alone, and heartbroken. |
amo.
Damned After All
Age: 32
Gender: -
Posts: 105480 | January 11th, 2013 at 02:26am I'm really tired of being so self-conscious. I need to do something to get in shape. |
