the vent thread
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vacant alleyWAYS Salute You in Your Grave Age: - Gender: - Posts: 2991 | If you haven't said anything to her yet, maybe you should. Actually, that's what I would do, say what I feel...but sometimes that backfires to some degree (they deny the issue or think you're over-reacting. (rolls eyes) But sometimes it doesn't and or at least it's out in the open. If for some reason you have to go away for awhile, (like ignore this person or stop talking to them) well then, at least you gave them a hint, you know? Now, for my "rant"...actually, I'm pretty good right now, except that I do get what becca's going through. Um but...hmm actually, I have something, but I think I'd better get my thoughts together first.... but yeah! why do some people have to make US feel like we're the problem, and not accept that THEY might be partly to blame!?! |
vacant alleyWAYS Salute You in Your Grave Age: - Gender: - Posts: 2991 | oh, okay so I guess my thing kindof has to do with what I forgot to add in there *feel sympathy, forgive and but not expect...but the thing is, then I love them and just feel...sad??? yeah, so I guess my "vent" is that. This thing that I'm trying to work out for a few months now....I guess it's still better than anger though. |
Thnks fr th vnm Demolition Lover Age: 34 Gender: Female Posts: 15766 | I'm getting utterly tired of having all these wonderful delusions that actually give me hope for the future then rising out of my psychosis and realizing none of it's true; my life sucks just as much as it did last time I was doing "well". |
beaker; Ghostbuster Famous Age: - Gender: - Posts: 71107 | That's right. Nobody cares. Why do I bother if no one gives a shit about me and they just pretend to. |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | I just couldn't cope keeping going with any of it while it seemed like you could go at any moment when you meant something to me. I know you didn't want commitment, that didn't bother me, I just wanted some kind of relationship so it felt less like I'd lose you. I guess we both just confused the fuck out of each other, maybe I wanted the emotional side more and you wanted the other side more. Not that we didn't cross over sometimes. This doesn't get any less confusing... |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | single and unemployed again. livin' the dream. |
cricket. Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights Age: - Gender: - Posts: 69728 | being in love with a drug addict sucks. I'm mourning someone who's still alive and there aren't any words to describe it. and the worst part?? he's still in denial that he needs help. last time I saw him and I asked him what happened he was v vague and indirect and he clearly has no intentions of getting better. but it's too fucking late for me to bail. I'm in way too deep. even if I cut off contact I'm always gonna worry that he's dead, and if there was something i could have done. but it's stressing me out seeing him drugged outta his mind. every night I cry myself to sleep over him and it can't be healthy. idk what to say. I wish there was something that could save someone who doesn't wanna be saved. words aren't enough. love isn't enough. but what is?? |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | I fucking wanted you. Not your body. You knew that. Now I'm fucking devastated and I don't know why I'm heartbroken over someone who didn't want a relationship with me. I'm angry with myself for not getting over you. And I'm confused because I swear to god we could have made it work. Maybe I'm just not fucking good enough. 28/8 Although let's be honest, you manipulated me into feeling a certain way, and I've felt like shit for months as a result of that. It's taken me far too long to realise that as well. |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | I think I'm going crazy. |
beaker; Ghostbuster Famous Age: - Gender: - Posts: 71107 | There's a cute, funny, generally great guy who I train with who had freely admitted to never wanting kids. Why does he fucking have to already have a girlfriend?!?!?! |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | I have no idea what to do. Sometimes I miss you so much, but the rest of the time I'm just pissed off and know we can't be anything. I could never hate you or want you upset, but I get so angry and feel like you manipulated me and you blame everything on me and don't care about anyone or anything as long as you get what you want. Why should I give a fuck about someone who is just unstable, unpredictable, self centered and obnoxious when they don't get what they want? Part of me thinks you're despicable, and part of me thinks you're perfect. And either way you don't change and I can't stop thinking about you. |
cricket. Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights Age: - Gender: - Posts: 69728 | I fucked up. I LITERALLY fucked up so bad. I never should have slept with you. yeah I was high, but not high enough to not realize that there would be consequences. and I kinda knew it would be this way, that you would never wanna speak to me again, but fuck, now that it's actually happening it hurts so bad. why did I I have to sleep with you. even tho I had feelings I'd much rather have you as just a friend than not at all. and then there's the even worse possibility, the one where you aren't actually mad at me but you're back on heroin. that's what's scaring me the most. even if we never speak again I need to know you're somewhere out there. the world would be darker without you in it. idk if any of this makes sense, but my heart is breaking. |
vacant alleyWAYS Salute You in Your Grave Age: - Gender: - Posts: 2991 | well, so speaking of anxiety and...well, remember funny guy, how he is so active one day and then a day like today, he pops in and out but is quiet? Well...thing is, he and I were actively chatting last night (night before) and well cuz he said something that just pressed a button for me. I dont mind the playful teasing, but this is one issue that just cant be crossed, and I have told him a few times. Anyway, so I was saying it again, in public with him and he is defending it, and well I said some possibly difficult to swallow things, well he had left by then or...or because I had to...anyway, so I was like trying to reply and I wrote something and I THINK he saw it, but didnt respond, but I said I was erasing it and after I saw he came on and gave some time, well I deleted it. It is possible he didnt see it, but now I dont know. I did make another response, but idk. He has been quiet ALL day and I just did my status check, although apparently I did something else that upset THAT girl "friend" ofmine and she butted into my post to him. I have not been back since, I am so hurt by it. Ugh such drama over there! I mean I am fine with the guys (before last night, I mean he and I have always given it and taken shit from each other all fine) but the girls over there...it is just high school all over again. I mean, slightly different, but basically each girl for herself. Why can't girls have "bro code"?! It is such a pain trying to please all of them whilst being myself. I just relate better to the guys, but I just can't put up with this shit anymore! |
beaker; Ghostbuster Famous Age: - Gender: - Posts: 71107 | I am so sick of being someone other people can't make time for |
vacant alleyWAYS Salute You in Your Grave Age: - Gender: - Posts: 2991 | Haha I am such an idiot! that is all! |
on birds and glass Always Born a Crime Age: 32 Gender: Female Posts: 5177 | I want a redo |
sad savior; Wild Eyed Joker Age: 28 Gender: Female Posts: 86309 | I just feel completely blown away at how God has worked miracles in my life just in the past few months. I know I'm on the right path and it's such a bizarre feeling to know that I'm in the exact right place I'm supposed to be right now. And I just feel like so many of my dreams are happening. My favorite band got back together after years of feeling like there was no chance ever, there are new Harry Potter movies coming out, I have a car now, and most of all I'm in school to work towards a career that I know I want (or that I still feel like I want right now anyway) and I have a love interest. All of this happened at the same time, seriously within the span of about two months. I've never been so happy. I'm so thankful. |
Thnks fr th vnm Demolition Lover Age: 34 Gender: Female Posts: 15766 | urgefewbvfleshdlEWDGFEWL |
brother nero; Always Born a Crime Age: - Gender: - Posts: 6778 | WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO BURDEN ME WITH THEIR FUCKING DRAMA?!!!!!??? If you're family, a super close friend, or we're dating, then fine. If not, please don't. |
stay away; In a Bullet's Embrace Age: 29 Gender: - Posts: 55069 | fuck anyone who works in mental health who has never had a mental illness, this mentally ill bitch is coming for blood |
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