My Chemical Suicide Story (How MCR Saved My Life)

Back in March/April of 05, I discovered who I really was, through Green Day. They were my life, and then a few weeks later, as I was watching music videos, 'I'm Not Okay' came on. I had just truly experienced a lifechanging moment, and didn't even know it. Being from a very stupid and akward place (Alabama) I wasn't able to go to any MCR shows or discover them from some awesome underground venue or whatever, so I couldn't really get into what I really loved. Things were changing in my life, my dad splitting up with my step-mom, my grandmother dying, shit with my mom, and my dad's new girlfriend who has 4 bratty ass kids who love to be in my business, along with my dad on my back about how who he wants me to be. (A preppy chick who has straight A's and volunteers and is involved in every school function) And that was NOT who I was anymore. I was a depressed teenager who didn't know what life held in store for me, and didn't really care, and I was suicidal. I didn't think anyone cared for me at all. I thought music was just something that gives you personality, not something that could save my life. Even my best friend couldn't even figure out what was going on in my life, I had to keep it from everyone. I went through this time period where no one mattered, nothing in the world mattered, and a real life was a figment of my own imagination. I was catching hell from both sides of my family, and I couldn't take it anymore. My grades were declining, and it was hard to even laugh. No one understood, they all wondered where the old Tiffany had gone. The one who used to love and live as a normal person. Then one day, I placed Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge in my CD player. I just let it play all the way through. I was consumed. I was in a trance of murder, death, guns, pills, and My Chemical Romance. No one could seem to bring me from it. All of the sudden, all my cares in the world seemed to revolve around MCR. It was on my mind 24/7. I heard their story. Of how Gerard overcame his problems, and everything else. That gave me more incentive to get better. And I said, well if they can do it, so can I. Even though I have never been to a single MCR show, never met the guys, or anything that the hardcore-est of fans can say they've done, I know in my heart that My Chemical Romance is the SOLE reason I am alive. right. now.



Post your life story here, and how MCR has chemically altered it.

Dude, I totally know wut you mean. My sis and I just had to move with my dad and my step mom, after my mom's drug problem left us living in an apartment we were being evicted from, without electricity. She had no job. we had to steal food to keep ourselves alive. I also thought music wouldn't be something to save your life. Listening to "Headfirst for Halos" everyday helped me through alot of shit. My life is mildly easier now. But I hate moving, especially from a place I've lived since I was born. New surroundings, new school, new people. I'm an outcast. But knowing Gerard went through it all, and got over it, keeps me going. I know it sounds pretty corny, but it's true. MCR has made a huge impact on my life. And I thank them. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be alive right now.

should this topic be here? jw

At first, my life was pretty fucked up. I was getting sexually asaulted and abused. No one at all cared. My brother, the only one who accepted me is kicked out of the house. My so-called "loving" sister won't even fucking accept me. The only guy that I wanted to spend the rest of my life doesn't even want to have anything to do with me. My brother ends up dropping out of school with no car, no cell phone, no money, no nothing. I even wrote my suicide letter. I even planned a date that I was going to kill myself. But then, My Chemical Romance came in to my life. They fucking saved me. They helped me believe that I wasn't alone, and that someone out there actually cares. Their music inspires me so much. They've helped me get through some of my most deepest depression. And I swear to fucking god, I cannot thank them enough for giving me a reason to live. For giving me a reason to be myself, and not take anyone's bullshit. And to be perfectly honest, if anything ever happened to them, I would probably kill myself. I would die for them. That's how much I care about them. That's how much of an impact they've put on me. Thank you, MCR for saving my fucking life.

Wow. I shared more with the people on here than with my closest friends, lol.

That's good to hear. That's why they make brilliant music in the frist place. I don't get sad much I listen to MCR because their lyrics are very deep and dark. MCR is there to save your life.

yupp!!!! for everyone

wow! mcr are very successful. they have saved a lot of lives and kept on saving more..

well, sometimes, i still get pretty sad and upset at times. although i have no big long story, all i can say is that i have thought of suicide and everytime i listen to their music, i just. i dunno, those thoughts go away. if i ever met them, i would start crying.

my story is kinda shitty and not very long but,
at the begining of the school year (I'm in 7th)
I was trying to fit in, you know talk what people wanna hear and crap like that.
well when one of my close friends told me about MCR I bought the CD.
I listened to it and I did too hear their story.
When I got to "I'm Not Okay" and heard that story,
I changed how I was gonna be this year. I changed my clothes additude towards things. I started to dress sorta punk/goth/emo stuff you know? Before I didn't quite like myself but now I do because I know I can be myself and still liked. I mean I have the same friends since 3 grade (one still since kindergarden) and a few new ones who don't even dress like me nad still love me! Also MCR changed my life into listening to the music I LIKE AN NOT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE. I use to please my older brother by listening to what he likes, screw that! I listen to what I want and my life is a hell of alot bettr now

In a hail of bullets:

my story is kinda shitty and not very long but,
at the begining of the school year (I'm in 7th)
I was trying to fit in, you know talk what people wanna hear and crap like that.
well when one of my close friends told me about MCR I bought the CD.
I listened to it and I did too hear their story.
When I got to "I'm Not Okay" and heard that story,
I changed how I was gonna be this year. I changed my clothes additude towards things. I started to dress sorta punk/goth/emo stuff you know? Before I didn't quite like myself but now I do because I know I can be myself and still liked. I mean I have the same friends since 3 grade (one still since kindergarden) and a few new ones who don't even dress like me nad still love me! Also MCR changed my life into listening to the music I LIKE AN NOT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE. I use to please my older brother by listening to what he likes, screw that! I listen to what I want and my life is a hell of alot bettr now

you go girl! haha. i have learned not t care what ppl think. in my schoo, only me and this other girl truely like MCR and we get picked on b/c of it, but we stand up fro what we like.

yeah me and my friends do that too.
I think it's only me and my friends that like MCR in the whole 7th grade!
and that's 6 of us I think?
5 girls one guy lol
everyone considers us weird until one preps started to be my friend lol
now everyone is like "okay they are not so weird"
I'm just like "screw you!I got my own friends and now one of yours! so what are you gonna do now bitch"

lol

In a hail of bullets:

yeah me and my friends do that too.
I think it's only me and my friends that like MCR in the whole 7th grade!
and that's 6 of us I think?
5 girls one guy lol
everyone considers us weird until one preps started to be my friend lol
now everyone is like "okay they are not so weird"
I'm just like "screw you!I got my own friends and now one of yours! so what are you gonna do now bitch"

lol

haha. lmao. yeah. thats exactly how ppl are at my school. i am in 9th grade, and i get picked on liking mcr espacially by this one senior kid. but i dont care. hes just jealous. lmao.

yes jealous!
because you like kick ass music and he doesn't

bahaha. lmao. i know. <3

That's so dumb...
>.<
Seriously.

In a hail of bullets:

yes jealous!
because you like kick ass music and he doesn't

You can't compete in music.

I wasn't suicidal, but I had a wicked anger issue. Like if something didnt go my way, I would throw a hissy fit, or start fights with my family, i drove my older sister away at one point, I got into fights with my little sister every day...i was a wreck. I was like that because for 9 years i was tortured by the girls in my old catholic school, and when i went to public school in the 10th grade i was really afraid...didn't have many friends- i was the quiet girl that sat in the back.

then I started listening to MCR, and they really mellowed me out, i think because now I know there are people out there who are as fucked up in the head as I am...so I didn't have to act all angry and bitchy to get attention anymore. Now my older sister and I are very close- this friday I am going to hang out with her and my niece, and then saturday she is taking me to get my prom dress ^_^ my little sister and I now have a common interest- *coughcough theway brothers cough cough* and everyone says my overall attitude has changed. Like I am happier ^__^

And MCR helped me through my break up with my boyfriend after he left me for a skanky whore.... I listened to Honey, the mirror isnt big enough for the both us...and suddenly felt happy, because his new girlfriend is a flat chest control freak with a huge nose ^_^

MCR is like a happy pill- levels you out without the stupid side effects like kindy failure ^_^

EXACTLY.

i sent the same message (mine) to MCR on myspace- and i hope they'll read it. doubt they'd have time.

i really would love it for them to know how i'd go to the ends of the world for the guys who brought me out of such a strong will of suicide.

anyway, i have you guys to spill to. i never even told my best friend, until yesterday.

my other friend doesn't know.

i think she's going to kill herself, seriously, b/c she's going through some problems. she will not listen to me when i tell her what Gerard said about suicide, and how he got through his porblems. i hope MCR really touches her...

i had a similar thing happen to me.
you see, i spent my whole life (meaning since pre-k) trying to fit in and be like everyone else. and i let people walk over me so they would "like" me. i was so obsessed with other people accepting me; i didn't really know who i was or wanted to be. i kinda lost myself. this caused a downward spiral. i started having "breakdowns" where i'd just completely lose my self control and sob until my head hurt and hate myself to sleep. i wore "the clothes", i listened to "the music", and i did "the cool things". but i was dying inside. and i started to think about dying and suicide. i wanted out.

then, american idiot came out. it was 2nd semester of freshman year, i discovered the beauty of rock music. the freedom. the individuality. i started to come out a bit. i didn't completely stop hating myself, but i helped a lot.

then, i heard of this band called My Chemical Romance. remember the first time i heard it on the radio. on my piece of shit radio and the college radio station with bad reception. still, the message got out. that song was the story of my life. i got revenge and i listened to it nonstop. i saw them in concert and it changed my life. but i took the music the wrong way. i listened to it and was depressed, and cried and all that shit. then i heard their story and i realized i took it all the wrong way. i realized that somewhat depressing feeling i felt when i listed to it was a message. it was me realizing that i was. obsessed with death and dying. thats what i had become. long story short i started to heal myself and havent thought about suicide within the last 3 months apporox.

Yeah man, the music video for "I'm not Okay" really spoke to me, and it made me realize i'm not the only one who's ever been an outcast "If you've ever felt...alone."

It's amazing how a group of 5 beautiful people can save lives.


I love you, My Chemical Romance <3