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heartbreak,betrayal,and self sabotage

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leaderoftheunwanted
Killjoy
leaderoftheunwanted
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 59
October 15th, 2008 at 11:44pm
watching you with her, sharing your life with the wrong one
waiting for you with me, together forever or dying an epic yet romantic death intertwined in the purest of impure
running every time I see you, the thought of you loving me scares the living shit out of me you black clad teenager
wishing on every eyelash and star, that we will be together or that i will finally gain the courage to say what I feel
sitting here all alone, to sit and wonder, cry and moan
loving you with all my heart, feeling blue as hell that the you in my head can't play your part
reminiscing of our childhood, classroom chats and lunchtime memories are all I have left
it all feels like a nightmare, I wish I could wake up from this horrible dream
wrapped in you arms, I feel safer than I ever have before
you playfully brush the bangs out of my eyes, I feel love that doesn't hurt
sleeping eternally, dreaming all my selfish dreams
slowly disappearing, no one cares it seems
afraid to die and not say goodbye, a selfish fear that you wouldn't be able to live without me as I wouldn't be able to live without you
never mind, you don't give a shit.
leaderoftheunwanted
Killjoy
leaderoftheunwanted
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 59
October 17th, 2008 at 08:25pm
*how the hell?*

how can you say that you want to be my friend, because when i offer my sincere and advice and get you to agree you just run back to her again?
how can you think that i'm not your friend, when i'm the one who always tries to give you hug and encouraging words when you sit there wishing your life would just end?
how can you say that i could care less, when the inside of my notebook is a poetic mess?
how can you just forget or friendship,don't you know it doesn't have to become a courtship?
how can i let you break my heart everyday,when you say hi and give me a hug in your playful little way?
how can you not be mine? don't you believe that our destiny's were meant to intertwine?
how do get to sleep at night, what with all the inner demons you have to constantly fight?
how do i keep on living everyday? haha, with the righteous lyrics of Mr. Gerard Way.
how this story end? with me in your arms, or with you holding on to the love that you do not wish to lend ?
how can you not let me love you, why can't you realize that my love is true?
Jenny.
Moderator
Jenny.
Age: 29
Gender: Female
Posts: 19720
October 18th, 2008 at 10:47am
Welcome to INO
Please make sure you post all your poems in one thread. Seeing as you have made more than one thread, I will lock this one and leave one open. If you have any questions, don't hesitate to PM.
Thanks.