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Late Night Message From Adalae

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blackXmascaraXtears
Bleeding on the Floor
blackXmascaraXtears
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 1359
September 7th, 2008 at 03:32pm
this is a poem i wrote [actually 2 seperate poems]
then turned into a song..
yes its based on me life, no my names not Adalae
although thats what he used to call me
some tips on improvement, or general comments would be wonderful
just please dont tear it apart thanx!
[and ps yes i did put in lyrics from various songs]




so here i am
drowning in dreams
while His Magesty sleeps
with the keeper of keys
can you see the moon?
it's all but died here
because here's not the same without you-
not at least tonight

so many nights filled with the
sound of your voice
so many days filled with the
pain of your choice

staring at the place where
your picture used to hang
replaying in my mind
all the words that you sang

how can i get over you
if i keep waiting for the call
that won't come
not this time
it's hard losing someone you never had

seperated by time and dileminadistance,
yet you managed to touch me.
to praise me.
to haze me.
you made me.
you saved me.
you kept me alive then
you left me to die.

i knew going in i would get hurt,
but you're ever so inviting
and i just wanted to be loved
without the physical wreck

we laughed, but i cried
we joked, yet i lied
and such is life.

you wrote me a song-
the words imprinted in my heart.
my mind flooded with you.
and nightmares where i'm the villian,
dreams where you're the hero-
and i'm thinking i'd prefer not to be rescued.

i thought i felt something in the air,
changing, growing-
but it wasn't love.
it was me.
just me.

and you left me.
and you left her.
you left this world for a while.
and you'll be back
but Adalae won't be waiting.
no, i won't be waiting.

and i've been thinking,
those nights when you were drinking-
they never got you anywhere.

so there you are.
strumming your guitar.
you're my aching bruise,
but i've got nothing more to lose-
not at least tonight.

[piano break]

tear me to peices.
rip me to shreds.
you slashed me with your blade.
digging deeper into the crevices of my heart.
a penace left unpaid.

make me once again whole
because i'm killed inside
by your empty lies..
and when i'm lost in the cold
broken and so old.
oblierate my soul.
blackXmascaraXtears
Bleeding on the Floor
blackXmascaraXtears
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 1359
September 11th, 2008 at 07:32pm
bahhh
is it that boring?
Search and Destroy
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January 2nd, 2009 at 02:51pm
Moved from another thread



blackXmascaraXtears:
i dont know
how to start this song,
cuz i cant think straight
when my minds all wrong.

which is all the time-
i've been captivized
i can't think when your hands
arent laced through mine.

and everynight
i just lie awake
think about this world
and my heart, it breaks

because tonight
like the last night
like every single night
that i should have died.
its not my time-
but im not alive
i just wanna crawl into your arms
and cry

CHORUS:
the world is a nightmare for me
its all misery
there's no air to breathe
and every single night in my sleep
there's your face again
and it cuts so deep

i'm lying now
at the edge of your thoughts
hidden by Miss Mary Jane
in the world where you rot

but i've been waitin'
i've been debaitin'
been captivated
and vindicated.

i've been mesmerised
i've been patronized.
i can't think when you're hands
aren't laced through mine.

CHORUS [x2]

black creeps
the melt in your heart leaks

through a pinhole
in your soul
and the burning trees

of the blackest night
in a history
that brings you to your knees

clouds over you
and it's drowning me
while you watch me bleed.

i don't know
how to end this song
cuz the lyrics always
felt so wrong

cuz every word i make
is just a mistake
and the ghost of what
i'm really trying to say

there's blood on my nightdress
there's pain in my eyes
there's a secret in my pocket
that you never seemed to find

there's blood in the hallway
it's dripping down the stairs
it's flooding in through the window
to a place- you brought me there.
you brought me there.

the world is a nightmare to me
alone in misery
with no air- i can't breathe
and every night when i dream
it's your face, it's your face again
and it cuts, the blade cuts so, so deep.
blackXmascaraXtears
Bleeding on the Floor
blackXmascaraXtears
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 1359
January 3rd, 2009 at 10:17pm
oops im sorry i havent read the forum rules in a while
thanx for moving >.<
blackXmascaraXtears
Bleeding on the Floor
blackXmascaraXtears
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 1359
February 1st, 2009 at 01:33pm
time.

if i could turn back the time-
just for one moment
i'd tell you i'm sorry
i'm broken. i'm sorry

if i could turn back the time-
just for an hour
i wouldn't have come here
i wouldn't have lied

if i could turn back the time-
just for a day
i wouldn't have let him
and hurt you like this

if i could turn back the time-
just for a month
i wouldn'tve said i love you
i never did love you

if i could turn back the time-
just for this year
i wouldnt have met you
i woudln'tve let you walk into my life

if i could turn back the time-
just fof forever
i'd untwine our fates
and bury us in them

and if i could turn back the time-
just for one moment
-i wouldn't