My Chemical Suicide Story (How MCR Saved My Life)

I was in a bout of depression a few months ago, and I was to the point where I was just numb all the time. Not sad, not anymore. Just... disconnected. I thought, 'hey, i can't feel anything, why not just end it and unburden everyone else'. A horrible thought, but it was my mindset at the time. I never self-mutilated, though. I just thought to get it over with in one fell swoop. I was pretty much just weeks away from actually ending my life, when I bought LOTMS. I had seen it once before, but I was just barely into My Chem back then. So, watching it that time, and listening to Gerard talk about his depression made me kind of open my eyes. When he said something like, "Well, if anything bad-er happens, I'll just do this and it will all go away. It's when you start looking at it as an escape..." Well, I cried buckets, because that's pretty much where i was. i know, it's not much of a defining moment, but from then on I got my shit together, i talked about my emotions with other people, and while i'm not completely better yet, i'm open about a lot more things and i let people know when i need help getting back onto the right path, so to speak.

and i definitely love all the stories. thanks for sharing, everyone. =]

It was very recently My Chemical Romance saved me. I am a freshman in high school. So I hav had many challenges. Honors classes, marching band, not fitting in,and my stress and anxiety. It was getting rough for me when I relises I was losing myself in my work. I was depressed and I had turned to cutting to self medicate. Bad choice.
I hadent cut in months before this time, but over all, I had cut for three years. But the night MCR saved me, I had relapsed. I was yelling and crying and waiting to bleed out and die.
I was ready, that's what scared me.
Then I put on music, as a last resort. I was listening to Green Day when MCR showed up in the recommended music.
Famous last words was the song to save me. I didn't feel alone. And I relised, I was not alone. And I was not afraid. I was ready to take on the world.
Things are much better nowadays. Gpthey fuel my confidence and give me all I need. I will never be able to repay this amazing band that has changed my life.

MCR has saved my life a few times actually. back when i started marching band freshman year, I had this girl who would be a complete controlfreak/bully to me. so I would go home, and listen to MCR after band, and just let them take it away. then LAST year they saved my life again. the SAME girl who was now our SECTON leader, started a rumor that i did something that almost got me suspended, but I didn't do it. I tried confronting her, and she laughed! Like it was NOTHING to do that to me! So, I went and grabbed my ipod and BLASTED I'm Not Okay, and Headfirst for Halos, and by that time, I wanted to slit my wrists till I died. I hadn't cut in years. since i discoverd MCR in 6th grade. I just kept playing MCR in my head. And to make things WORSE everyone at the school thought I was a lesbian, but my friend Kelsey. she was getting shit for being friends wiht me, and I felt really pissed. the girl, and my OTHER best friend, had stopped talking to me competely, and the band teacher ONLY cared when I told him I was going to hang myself, that night.
so, I put on LOTMS, because it always seemed to cheer me up, but all I could think about was wanting to die. Then I watched more of LOTMS, and heard Gerard say, "Its OK to be messed up, cause theres five dudes just as messed up." and then it hit me, it was like, "Shit, I'm not alone." and I made it through last school year listening to MCR.
and then they helped me through MORE marching band, and people who do shit at my school.
basically my whole section hates me, and this one kid, who was friends with me as a little kid, acts like a complete jerk, and ignores me. then whenever he talks to me he just yells shit, its like, "what did i do to you?" and then everyone in band expects me to be perfect, and stuff, and I'm like, "i'm trying, but you never notice me!"
The only other time band was fun, was when Evee was in it, she was my best friend, who loves MCR. then she gradated.
Then kelsey and my other friend, graduated, and I feel so alone this year, I have kids i talk to in my class, but it isn't the same, and all the kids at my school smoke stuff, and I'm not into that. So I have maybe a few friends, but they hate most of my intrestes, its really hard to get though this year.
I feel aloooooooonnnnnnneeeeeeeeee..............
but at least i have MCR to make it better, so thanks Gerard, Ray, Mikey, and Frank for helping me so much!! <3 Jules

I'm from Alabama too so I understand what you mean.

Well for my story, I lost my dad to suicide at a young age and when I got older and understood it better I became depressed. Except I didn't really know that I was. So whe I entered high school and a whole buttload of drama hit me, I spiralled downward and hit rock bottom. I was hurting myself, ignoring everyone, and just becoming a shell of myself. This was the second time I was depressed and it was the worst. The first time I was a couple year syounger than I am now and I found them. In the beginning I didn't really understand but then the more I listened the better I felt. And when I became depressed the second time I listened to them religiously. I'm still not completely better but I am on my way. I probably wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for them.

They saved my life, i was cutting and on the edge all the time, no-one's ever really liked me but i had my few friends but when i was suicidal i was always snappy towards them but they tried to help me but then i saw them on kerrang and then had a look into the, about their struggles and how they put realistic things into their songs, then i had a listen to their best on a TV show so i got the CDs, I've been out of depression ever since and i'm still alive today.

Thankyou MCR, you saved my life <3.

I have always sort of looked at life in a negative way. No one really notices but I think of death and these terriable things all of the time, but no one not even my best friends really know that. I thought I was an ugly person on the outside and inside, and questioned wheather people really liked me, and I always felt like a dork nobody liked. People used to call me emo and goth because of the way I dressed, but I was never any of those things and I still am not. I just think it looks good. But when I began to listen to mcr all of the time, it seemed that I just started not to care. And I have felt better about everything ever since.