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wednesday.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53026 | July 10th, 2014 at 01:13am
oh. so that's why he was ignoring me when i said we needed to hang out.
he has a girlfriend apparently. just after he acted like he wanted to date me.
false hope once again. always false hope with him for almost 6 years now.
i don't even have the energy to cry right now. my life is just falling apart,
and this is the icing on the mother fucking cake. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 12th, 2014 at 04:13pm I just got myself majorly depressed. I've never been able to fit in pants higher than a size 2 because they've always been too big. Now they're too tight. I don't think I wanna go shopping tomorrow anymore. I just wanna sit home and drink water. I'm just really fucking sad. I guess working at two restaurants is taking its toll. I weigh 105 now. To some, that's a goal. To me, it's a failure. From now on, no more eating while I'm working unless I'm desperately hungry. Willpower, don't let me down. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 14th, 2014 at 07:28pm Edit. This post never existed. |
Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 14th, 2014 at 08:40pm jesus. i have a crush.
its been litteral months. |
Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 15th, 2014 at 01:57pm I know something that would ruin her relationship with her boyfriend (whom is her world)
and shes damn lucky im a good person and i won't do that to her.
Because the simple fact is that you cheated on him.
For a year.
You fucked me while you were "in love" with him.
And you can tell yourself that I was being "pushy" and "tricking you into it" all you want, but you were consenting because you never ONCE said no. You never told me you didn't want it. You just kept i up. And I'm not going to feel guilty or sorry that you commited adultery with me.
You did.
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Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 16th, 2014 at 04:13pm I wanna write a book. I'm not too sure about what yet, but I wanna write one. I wanna accomplish something in my life. So far, I've accomplished pretty much nothing. Maybe a book will be it.
If I'm being totally honest, it probably wont happen. |
Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 17th, 2014 at 01:46am i have a sneezing fetish.
it started with blonde!gerard masturbating in the shower, and it ends with him sneezing multiple times as he's getting off the floor of the tub, like as an extention to his already errupting orgasam.
I have to stop thinking about him like this.
But it's potentially not just gerard, i think i want to watch any man sneeze....
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Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 17th, 2014 at 08:49am I feel empty. That's just it. I feel empty. |
Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 17th, 2014 at 11:09am my grandmother is turning 80 on Monday. I have been trying as hard as i possibly can to avoid thinking about it.
Bumma was 80 when things started going bad. She was dead right before 83.
I never, ever, talk about her, because when she died all the innocence i had was stripped from me. I never was the same and I never will be the same.
In an attempt to numb hte pain of Bumma being gone, I went to my other grandmother and befriended her.
She is pretty much my best friend and I love her to death for eveyrhting she's done for me.
I can not loose her in 0-3 years.
God, if you exist, you CAN NOT take her from me. I will not survive another round of death.
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Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 17th, 2014 at 11:33pm I need to get laid.
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Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 18th, 2014 at 08:58am Im torn between a future I probably shouldn't have, and a future that's basically impossible. Both are equally terrifying. But I can handle terrifying, if only it were simple. |
ab aeterno.
Lost My Fear of Falling
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 93820 | July 19th, 2014 at 05:01am Fuck, I really hate it when you accidentally like something... on fb or tumblr... shit.
Do you unlike it or is the damage already done fuuuuuuuuuuuuc
Especially something kinda personal but... i mean kaljf;aj nah i'm a creep.
but i mean i do have mutual friends with them soooooo
i played little league and bowled with both her sisters, but she was younger and idk why the hell does it bother me so much idekkkk |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 19th, 2014 at 08:33am This is starting to get annoying. I know there is no other option. So why can't I stop thinking there is? I literally have no other choice. This is it. I can't just live in some fantasy world where things would happen exactly the way I think they should. Nothing will happen the way it should because that's not how it's supposed to be. If things were meant to be different, they would've already happened when there were a million chances to make it so. I know this. I've lived it for years. So why can't my mind push it aside? It's not like I wanna feel this way. |
stereo typical.
Tragic With a Capital T
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 46847 | July 23rd, 2014 at 07:25am There are so many incredible people in my life I feel I owe so much
and it hurts me because I know I have nothing special to give them in return |
malibu.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 54114 | July 26th, 2014 at 06:05am I was trying to calm down after work, just now - and I saw a photo of the guy I kinda like with some chick on Facebook.
We still kinda flirt at work (but he's really flirtatious, I should know better) and he's told me he doesn't wanna go out with me, or whatever
and I DON'T KNOW WHY I STILL LIKE HIM, probably because I'm needy as fuck.
Anyway, I basically just had a panic attack, not sure why.
I guess, when you think it means something, but it doesn't really. It sucks.
Now I'm probably going to cry. I don't know whats wrong with me - right now
and just in general, why people don't ever seem to want to be with me in that way? Ugh. |
malibu.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 54114 | July 26th, 2014 at 06:07am I don't even care (well, I do).
I feel like I have more to say; that I haven't said enough to him
and that maybe it would change his mind - it probably wouldn't.
That's why it's frustrating. |
malibu.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 54114 | July 26th, 2014 at 06:24am It could be anything, I wish I could un see it and my brain would shut the fuck up.
And if she's best friends with his ex, then no way.
And if it was happening, I wouldn't want someone who would do that... ugh. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | July 26th, 2014 at 09:05am This is honestly annoying. You make 40 hours a week. Only you and the boss make that many. The rest of us make maybe half of that. And that's if I''m not sent home early because we aren't busy. You hate your job, and you're very vocal about it. I don't see how you're still there. If we did that, we'd be gone. You hate A so much, nothing he does is right in your eyes. I admit, he may not know how to do much, and it probably does get a bit annoying at times, but this is his first job. He has no clue. I'm sure there at least one thing the poor guy can do. Give him at least a little bit of credit, or you'll end up losing him. He's gonna have enough and quit, and then you'll complain that there's nobody to do his shit in the evening. I have another job too, I can't come in and do his shit. I would, because the hours are killing me, but my other job is there too. I hate it, with a passion, I'd rather be at the BBQ place. But, for some reason, I'm kind of rooted in there for now. I don't like most of the people, and the job is absolute bullshit, and the hours/money kind of suck, but I'm stuck there. So, find a job in your field, stop whining, and move the fuck on. |
Frnk iero.
Awake and Unafraid
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 11747 | July 26th, 2014 at 02:50pm im really starting to loose steam on my book.
i just wish i still felt the same way about it as i did two months ago.
i dont want to fail again, at writing, so im forcing myself to keep it up.
But jesus its difficult.
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sad savior;
Wild Eyed Joker
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 86309 | July 28th, 2014 at 02:43am i miss the mountains so much. it's all i can think about. all those mountains were the most beautiful thing i've ever seen and for some reason i feel so spiritually connected to them. 3 months ago i had never even seen one before, and now my mind keeps drifting back to them. i'd give anything to be back there, i'd give anything to hike up that mountain again and just stay there. i want it so badly. |
