Deception

Deception

Once a girl with lots of hope,
will slice at skin as she tries to cope.
Tearing as I try and get this feeling out,
just doesn't work so I want to scream and shout.

This black t shirt now soaked with blood,
stuck in this cycle for good.
I barely notice how troublesome it'd become,
my voice is mute and my head numb.

Second nature to me now,
to a multitude of mental disorders I bow.
well I feel too far gone,
singing the same sad song.

I've let you down my dear friend,
fooling everyone I'm on the mend.
I tried I did,
I failed.

No More

Take me by the neck,
yank me out the door.
Kick me out;
you've done this all before.

Shout a little louder,
hit a little harder.
Put your all into it,
at least hurt me well.

See it's not working,
don't you get it?
You've done this so many times;
this is clockwork.

You hit me,
I no longer cower.
You yell,
I no longer cover my ears.

I guess I'm still weak,
for I am yet to leave.
But my smile is mine,
of this you are not the thief.

So come on mother,
give it all you've got.
You thought you had me forever,
you do not.

I am not a rag doll toy,
you don't get to throw me around.
Keep trying,
one day I won't come back.

My life years on will not be threats,
it will not be violence and cowardice.
There is a fire that burns,
and you cannot snuff it out.

My story will not always be the same,
one of abuse and neglect.
It will be of how I burnt your memory,
and how I survived.

That's Me

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I'm still the same person,
Inside and out.
I'm still your daughter Mom,
I'm just coming out.

I've felt this way for a long time,
And I imprisoned myself,
By telling all these lies.
So please, forgive me of my innocent crime.
It's been too long,
And no longer can I hide these lies.

I won't be the perfect daughter,
That you want me to be.
I won't be involved with a man,
But a women, you'll see next to me.

If I disappoint you Mom,
Then I must be the worse person in the world.
To let my mother down kills me,
Just because I prefer a girl.

I'm sorry Mom,
If you don't approve.
But this is who I am,
And thats where I'll stand!