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In the Cannibal Glow
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July 31st, 2020 at 11:20am
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aw, hope she's feeling better, beth


thanks you guys i appreciate it <3
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July 31st, 2020 at 01:17pm
started watching season 2 of TUA, so far so good
also finished rewatching the Gilmore Girls Year in the Life, and Fall still makes me cry buckets.
Celestialbloo
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July 31st, 2020 at 03:32pm
Is she feeling better beth?
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July 31st, 2020 at 05:44pm
these youtube ads have gotten substantially worse
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July 31st, 2020 at 09:45pm
I feel like I've done nothing but sleep all day, and all I want to do is go to bed, but it's too early for official bed
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August 1st, 2020 at 11:26am
damn, I have to actually go to the gym to cancel my memberhsip
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August 1st, 2020 at 12:16pm
Well, I went to cancel and it took 2 minutes. So okay.
Now I can save that money
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:24pm
Celestialbloo:
I got my gender filed as non binary with the DMV officially today!!

My sex says "x" now. How aesthetic is that


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August 1st, 2020 at 08:24pm
i haven't been on because of an impromptu beach trip
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:25pm
and now i'm back at my desktop
drinking water and eating sour patch kids
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:26pm
house of wolves;:
aw, hope she's feeling better, beth
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:28pm
house of wolves;:
i know, it's given me some life skills, it's been mostly good, i just really hate working in a restaurant rolling on floor
it does take away a lot of your freedom, and summer makes me hate it even more, i'm just definitely ready for my life to change starting next year and actually do what i wanna do with it
i feel like this job has transitioned me into adulthood


what do you do at the restaurant? are you a server?
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:34pm
Celestialbloo:
Can I ask your guys' advice on something?

I'm fighting two battles where I feel like I can't spare losing any friends and also the fact that I sometimes feel that the people I am acquainted with casually look down on me. Usually there's a small or passive thing they do and it makes me not want to talk to them anymore, but I have a horrible history of burning bridges I don't think I needed to burn, but I don't know what to do when I happen upon something like that.

For instance I'm talking to this guy who I knew in my first years of college and who seems to really like me. We messaged occasionally and even more so now that we're quarantined and whatever and we hung out when I went to long beach and it all seemed fine. Then I was texting him and I was talking about this collections and I asked him about his kiju collection and he said "Kiaju!" correcting my spelling then answered my question. It was so sudden and condescending and unnecessary. Like who cares. The question I always ask myself is; is it really worth alienating me to act on that impulse? And it makes me feel like I'm so unimportant to them when shit like that happens. Then sometimes I ignore it and it's a repetitive problem i that went on for way to long and accumulates to something bigger.

Even though it might seem small is it? Should I ignore it unless something similar happens? Having been raised in an abusive household has made it so hard to proportionizing these things in my mind and I need help doing it sometimes


with the feeling like people don't like me, i try to ignore those feelings
i've worked at instilling this sense that if they don't like me, they can deal with it, not the other way around
idk if that makes any sense
i'm not trying to say that i'm perfect or anything, it's just... idk how to explain

but i mean, i know you've been feeling lonely, so i don't think you should drop this acquaintance ship based on that
perhaps if it happens again let him know it bothers you, and then if he ignores that then reconsider
but you deserve to have friends just as anybody else does

idk if this helped at all, i'm sorry if it didn't
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August 1st, 2020 at 08:36pm
hedge bitch;:
and if he continually corrects you, it's probably worth bringing up your dyslexia. because if he uses that against you, he's not worth your time.


this x1000000
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August 1st, 2020 at 11:18pm
think I might just eat nothing but watermelon tomorrow
stay away;
In the Cannibal Glow
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August 2nd, 2020 at 02:41pm
thanks for the love guys

she is feeling better but still struggling with the pain
house of wolves;
In a Bullet's Embrace
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August 2nd, 2020 at 06:03pm
whipstickagostop;:
house of wolves;:
i know, it's given me some life skills, it's been mostly good, i just really hate working in a restaurant rolling on floor
it does take away a lot of your freedom, and summer makes me hate it even more, i'm just definitely ready for my life to change starting next year and actually do what i wanna do with it
i feel like this job has transitioned me into adulthood


what do you do at the restaurant? are you a server?
yeah, most of the time
we have an ice cream parlour attached to the restaurant, i sometimes do some shifts in there when they need me to, i hate it in there tbh, it sucks, but they've just hired someone to only work in there along with the other person who already works just in there, so hopefully after next week, i won't have to do any more shifts in there
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August 2nd, 2020 at 10:30pm
we got the announcement this weekend that I most likely will be working from home through the end of the year "unless absolutely necessary."
so they're still dancing around it, and I'm honestly going to be super pissed if they try to make us go into the office over christmas when I really don't think we need to for any reason.

but on a semi-related note, if I'm home all fall/christmas, I'm going to go extra in on the holiday decorating. I've been wanting to put together one of those little christmas villages, but never knew where to put it. now that my desk it set up the way it is, the shelf along my back wall is the perfect place to set it up.
if I can find a fall version of one too, I want to do that too
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August 2nd, 2020 at 10:34pm
semi related, my 8am class got moved online
thank god
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August 2nd, 2020 at 11:09pm
i've been thinking about streaming
but with no commentary

idk