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A Beautiful Nightmare...Poems written by Gabi...xxx

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Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:32pm
It Stops Us

Everything I do,
Reminds me of you.
Anything I see,
Makes me want you with me.

I can't even look at the band,
Without wanting you to hold my hand.
When I cry and people all huddle,
That's when I need you to give me a cuddle.

And when I start to feel like this,
You could fix it all with a tiny kiss.
Even just a peck on the cheek,
Would stop me feeling so down and weak.

But I know none of this matters,
Because we don't want our friendship in tatters.
I would never swap the 'best friends forever',
But I know it stops us from being together.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:37pm
Can't Be With You

I'm going to have to,
Leave it be.
We'll never be together,
You and me.

That is all,
I really want.
And all of my dreams,
They're starting to taunt.

When I'm asleep,
We're always together.
And that's how I want it to be,
Forever and ever.

Walking down the beach,
Or together at a concert.
Holding hands,
It would never hurt.

But now I realise,
That it can never be.
We can only be friends,
As I'm starting to see.

It's all of my dreams,
And nightmares coming true.
We both love each other,
But I can't be with you.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:40pm
Going Mad

Sitting here in tears,
Hugging my phone,
Reading the texts you sent,
So I don't feel alone.

Talking to pictures,
Trying to send you my love,
Hoping they'll let you know,
What I've been dreaming of.

Sitting on my bed,
Thinking of you,
Trying to write this poem,
So you know my feelings are true.

I love you,
But I feel so bad,
I've upset you so much,
And I swear I'm going mad.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:47pm
Because We're Best Friends

I said I wouldn't talk about it,
Anymore.
That we'd just be great friends,
Like we were before.

But I can't stop thinking of you,
In that way.
And I mean that,
I do it everyday.

But you've shown me,
I don't need to change.
People can love me back,
Although I'm weirdly strange.

I'm a girl possessed,
Only ever talk about them.
"MCR this,
Hey look it's My Chem!"

But you love me for that,
And you do it too.
And you're helping My Chem,
Pull me through.

I still like you,
More than a friend.
And although I haven't moved on,
I'll just pretend.

I'll always dream of you,
You're engraved on my heart.
But because we're best friends,
It's being ripped apart.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:52pm
Holding Your Hand

That one night,
Holding your hand,
I finally felt safe,
It helped me understand,
This mucked up place.

That's why we're here,
To love and be loved back,
To help fill in the qualities,
That those close to us lack.

Laughing and giggling,
Close to each other,
We sat without fear,
I'll never love another,
As long as you're here.

You mightn't realise,
Just what that meant to me,
Holding your hand brought me life,
I now know the reason for me to be.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 09:57pm
Do You Still Love Me?

Is it better,
Us being apart?
Or are we just killing,
Each others' heart?

I don't even know,
If you still feel that way,
But if you don't,
You have to stay.

It's drowning my eyes,
With a lifetime of tears,
I haven't been this in-love,
For many many years.

The only problem is,
You're my bestest ever friend,
But I won't promise my heart to you,
If our friendship has to end?

Please tell me the truth,
It's something I yearn,
Do you still love me,
Or will my heart burn?
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 15th, 2008 at 10:10pm
The Dream

Yes! It's finally come,
The thing we couldn't wait for.
That DVD,
That we couldn't have wanted more.

I go round to your house,
To give you your one.
Then I sleepover,
Wow it's great fun.

Sitting, laughing together,
Watching our favorite band.
Then, a slight movement,
I accidentally touch your hand.

But you don't flinch,
Or say "No".
Then we hold hands,
And don't let go.

When the DVD ends,
You won't believe this.
We move closer,
And gently kiss.

It only lasts seconds,
Not very long.
But we both know it's right,
That's how we belong.

From then on,
We're together.
We don't care who knows,
And it lasts forever.
Cherokee
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Cherokee
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Gender: Female
Posts: 2300
July 16th, 2008 at 03:47am
WooooW You finally got your thread.
So, I'm gonna read the recent ones now =P.
Let me see...

It Stops Us: Simple words, and a really deep idea ^,,,^.


Can't Be With You: Rhythm, really simple and great, and the poem kinda broke my heart.

Going Mad: Hmmm, you know? ome complex words could help to describe better, I have the same problem with a guy -_-. It is killing me.

Favourite part here:
''Talking to pictures,
Trying to send you my love,
Hoping they'll let you know,
What I've been dreaming of.''


Because We're Best Friends: Wow, that was so damn cute. I like how you actually admitted to love MCR and being obssessed by them.
Favourite part:
''I'm a girl possessed,
Only ever talk about them.
"MCR this,
Hey look it's My Chem!" ''


Holding Your Hand:
''That's why we're here,
To love and be loved back,
To help fill in the qualities,
That those close to us lack.''


^^ Amazing stanza.
Love it.

Do You Still Love Me?: hmmm, I am sorry to say that this one was kind of too typical.
I think you might want to pimp it up. Though it has a really good flow.

The Dream: That is so damn amazing, I love this one the most of the poems I have read.
But when I read the word ''DVD'' I was like o,,,O.
Other than that, the poem just led me to read till it's end.
Very well written.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
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July 16th, 2008 at 02:20pm
^^^
yay...
thanks so much!!!
xxx
Cherokee
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Cherokee
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Gender: Female
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July 22nd, 2008 at 10:58pm
Wait And See: Aww, I remember comenting that before, the last line was totally deep and true xD...

Poem For Mikey: I liked the second stanza the best... though as I always tell lmost everyone, some complex pretty words won't hurt anyone, and they just decorate a poem... metaphors and similes xD...

You'll Never Take Me Alive!!!: Simple, nice, and neat xD...

Five Special Guys: Awww, also sweet and special..

To The Media: That was strong, bu I want stronger.. good poem over all..

Frankie's Poem: WOW.. really wow! I loved it! The words, the flow.. though you have to work on that more, otehr than all that, it's brilliant!

Are We To Blame?: OMC! I love it, true, and beautifully written...

Hmm, that's all for now, I gotta run, but i'll be back xDDDDD...

Mostly, the one I didn't comment are those I already have commented before the new rules...
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 22nd, 2008 at 11:52pm
I Will Let Go

I will let go,
I know I have to,
But I love them too much,
It’s hard to do.

This won’t be my last,
Poem about them,
But I’ll stop resting my life,
On the five guys of My Chem.

Tonight, tomorrow,
For weeks I’ll cry,
There’ll be a deepening hole,
But I’ll learn to fly.

They held my hand,
They taught me to walk,
And on my heart,
They’ll have a permanent lock.

If they ever need me,
I’ll be here,
If the world will “Boo!” them,
I’ll have a louder cheer.

But this is it,
I’m stepping down,
Off the MCR throne,
I’ll hand back my crown.

They saved my life,
I’ll never forget,
I know I still have to pay off,
That huge debt.

But I’ll give them a break,
Some breathing space,
I know they’ll always be there,
When a tear falls down my face.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 12:04am
A World So Wrong

As this tear,
Falls down my face,
I feel another ounce,
Of disgrace.

As these salty jewels,
Form a puddle,
I realise why no-one,
Will give me a cuddle.

It's because I lie,
I can't pull them through,
And I know my scars,
Hurt them too.

I've been ungrateful,
Not much of a friend,
Because in my life,
I have to pretend.

Through thick and thin,
I'm always okay,
Maybe I'll feel bad,
But not today.

This is a time,
When I need to be strong,
To keep my friends brave,
In a world so wrong.
Cherokee
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Cherokee
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 2300
July 23rd, 2008 at 12:12am
I Will Let Go: I dunno what to say! I love it!

A World So Wrong: As I said, it's WOW!
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 12:51am
The Reason I Lie

The laughs you hear,
The games we play,
None of that means,
That I'm okay.

I put on a mask,
And hide from you,
The feelings I don't want,
You to feel too.

You think I'm getting better,
But my life feels worse,
I'm afraid I'm going to bestow on you,
This dreadful, deadly curse.

Sometimes I feel,
So empty inside,
But there were times,
When I wish I'd died.

Those times weren't empty,
They were full of pain,
A time in my life,
Where I had nothing to gain.

Nothing to gain,
Except guilt and neglect,
Why couldn't they show me,
Just a little respect?

They didn't know,
What they were doing to me,
But if someone looked closely,
Surely they'd see.

That they're doing it again,
They're making me cry,
Forgetting I have feelings,
They're the reason I lie.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 01:57am
Won't Sleep


I told you there's nothing wrong,
I knew I was right.
The doctor agreed with me,
I'll sleep better tonight.

But if there's nothing wrong,
Why do I have to go back?
Is there something in my mind,
That is at a lack?

Being referred to a specialist?
You said there was nothing wrong.
Will this take months?
Please tell me how long.

Why are you doing this?
You're keeping something from me.
With all this happening now,
I know you must be.

But doctors can't do that,
They're not allowed to lie.
What would be the point in that?
It might make someone die.

Maybe I'm just over-reacting,
I'll put up a better fight.
But maybe I'm not,
I won't sleep tonight.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 01:59am
Why Did I Do It?

Why did I do it?
Again I lied.
But I didn't want the doctor to see,
How scared I was inside.

Why did I do it?
I know it was wrong.
I know it was stupid,
But I wanted to be strong.

Why did I do it?
Yes, I've overdosed.
But I told you "No",
Because it's nothing to boast.

Why did I do it?
I don't know what I wanna be.
I was making that stuff up,
Couldn't you see?

Why did I do it?
I suppose I'll have to say.
I'll go down to the doctor,
I'll tell her someday.
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 02:08am
Label Me


Label me what you want,
I don't care what you say.
I can only be myself,
And live life my own way.

The names you yell, they used to hurt,
But no longer, will they bother me.
I'm not a Barbie, or a stereotype,
I am a human, I am free.

"Emo!" I'm not bothered,
"Freak!" I really don't care.
"Weirdo!" I won't react,
Not a breath will I spare
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 02:10am
Only A Hug

Only a hug,
That's all I ask.
Just one cuddle,
Is it a difficult task?

Please just show,
A little compassion.
A quick tight hug,
We shouldn't ration.

It shouldn't be saved,
For when we're sad.
Or when we've made,
Each other mad.

A hug between friends,
Should always be shared.
And not only,
When we're upset and scared.

Do you remember,
The last time you hugged me?
I definitely don't,
That's not how it should be.

It's only a hug,
And can't make everything better.
But it can definitely stop,
My cheeks getting wetter.

Only a hug,
That's all I ask.
Just one cuddle,
Is it a difficult task?
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 02:12am
Can You Tell?

Do you know,
That I've been crying?
Can you tell,
When I'm lying?

Why should we have to be,
A 'perfect' size?
Have flat tummies,
And 'ideal' thighs?

Yes I wanna be pretty,
But I'm stuck with this.
A face that it's obvious,
No-one wants to kiss.

Everyone should be happy,
In their own skin.
And let it show the true,
Person within.

Caked in make-up,
People walk down the street.
Copying everyone else,
Rather than walking their own beat.

In this case,
Less really is more.
It's an old proverb,
And has been said before.

I'm thankful I'm one,
Of the minor few.
Who can putting make-up on everyday,
Isn't something I do.

People really shouldn't,
Be so vain.
They obviously don't see,
That it can actually cause pain.

I guess I'm okay,
With the way I look.
I'll never be perfect,
Like in a magazine or book.

Do you know,
That I've been crying?
Can you tell,
When I'm lying?
Molko. Killjoy.
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Molko. Killjoy.
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 814
July 23rd, 2008 at 02:14am
Heart Of Lies

It'll be after you,
Some coming day.
And you cannot hide,
There is no way.

Such a shame,
That it comes for everyone.
It will not rest,
Until the death of the sun.

This monster soon,
Will tear you apart.
Turning every thought bad,
Is just the start.

It will blind you,
From anything good.
And stop you seeing things,
The way you should.

You'll only hear,
Things that are bad.
And even people complimenting you,
Will make you sad.

It's a terrible thing,
For anyone to endure.
But you will meet it,
And that's for sure.

There is no point,
No-one can hear your cries.
There is no escaping,
The heart of lies.