A Beautiful Nightmare...Poems written by Gabi...xxx

Pascale's Poem

You know you do it,
But I don't see why.
You don't even know,
That you made Dad cry.
He saw a photo of you,
When you were three.
That's when he broke down,
Right in front of me.
Mum was crying too,
Both my parents in tears.
This is all your fault,
It'll be like this for years.
I couldn't handle it,
I locked myself away.
But I know you don't care,
You still don't love me today.
You slag me off,
For who I am.
It really angers me,
But I remain calm.
I don't see how you changed,
You used to be so ace.
But now you're running away,
Just like you're running a race.
Now you only care about you,
And what your best friend thinks.
You used to be my sister,
But now your attitude stinks.
I don't want to do it,
I don't want to love you.
But I can't help it,
Deep inside I have to.
You're ripping it up,
Tearing the family apart.
You'll try to hide it,
But you care in your heart.

Will Soar

I'm still holding on,
I don't care what you say,
These guys saved my life,
I'm thankful everyday.

You say I rest my life,
Way too much on them,
But however hard you try,
You can't understand my love for My Chem.

"They're too unreliable",
They'll never let me down,
"The band will break apart",
Hey, give back my crown.

I understand you think it's stupid,
And I don't blame you,
You just don't feel the same connection,
To the band that I do.

When you told me to let go,
What was I meant to do?
I looked at them, didn't even smile,
And it's all because of you.

It left me feeling empty,
A huge gaping hole,
I was completely alone,
With hardly any soul.

But I don't hold it against you,
It's something I thank you for,
You told me I need something else,
But my love for them will soar.

Through Teary Eyes, With Shortened Breath

Watching the blade scratching slowly across my skin,
Through teary eyes.
Hoping it will relieve me of my sin,
With shortened breath.

Standing up so high, looking down at the ground,
Through teary eyes.
Wondering if I jump, will I ever be found?
With shortened breath.

Running and running, throwing away my pains,
Through teary eyes.
Like getting high on drugs, but with adrenaline in my veins,
With shortened breath.

I wonder if it's worth it,staying here alive,
Through teary eyes.
Is there any point, in trying to survive,
With shortened breath.

Bi-Polar Or Not

Jumping around, on such a high,
Then all of a sudden, you wanna die.
Your life is full of terrible things,
And it's just made worse by all the mood swings.
Why did it have to happen to you?
Do you really have Bi-Polar, is it true?
And no matter how hard i try,
I really can't explain why.
This just makes me feel so bad,
And when I think of how I acted, I just get mad.
But it's not you, that's upset me,
i hate myself, can't you see?
The reasons are too hard to explain,
But all my self-hatred, I can't contain.
There is no reason. for me to live,
As there's nothing left, for me to give.
I know more about it, than you think I do,
And I'm really sorry, I didn't see it in you.
I hope this doesn't change anything between us,
I won't treat you differently, or make a big fuss.
I'll always love you, no matter what,
You are my best friend, Bi-Polar or not.

Days Of The Week

Monday comes and the lying will start.
Tuesday's the day he'll break my heart.
Wednesday beckons, there's another cut.
Thursday arrives, I'm stuck in a rut.
Friday creeps in, I can hardly speak.
Saturday's here, my breaths are so weak.
Sunday draws close, i can't stop crying.
By the end of the week, I'm finally dying.

Drunk? No, Not Me


A sister who hates me,
For who I am.
She wasn't always like that,
And I shouldn't give a damn.

But when she slags me off,
For not wanting to get drunk.
I don't get that,
It's a pile of junk.

I have a real reason,
But she won't understand.
That's a choice I make,
Thanks to my favorite band.

It's a good choice,
One I make for myself.
That won't damage,
My mental or physical health.

She thinks I'm trying to be perfect,
Just a good little girl.
But she doesn't see,
That this choice costs me the world.

My friends telling stories,
Of getting drunk together.
But I'm proud of this choice,
I'll keep it forever.

Would You?

You give me your coat,
When I'm cold.
The perfect hand,
For me to hold.

The perfect person,
For me to miss.
With wonderful lips,
I long to kiss.

Your wonderful heart,
I long to steal.
And the silky soft hair,
I love to feel.

Your beautiful face,
I love to see.
Loving the warm, fuzzy feeling,
You bring inside me.

Loving spending my days,
Only with you.
But if I told you this,
Would you feel it too?

Cancer/Aunt Peggy

Growing weaker,
Each passing day.
Why do you have to,
Leave us this way?

So elegant and bold,
A beautiful dancer.
But now you're fading,
Because of this cancer.

Not only is it that,
But MRSA too.
I wish there was a cure,
So you could pull through.

I know it can't be stopped,
It'll come soon.
Counting down the sunsets,
And the rising of the moon.

Your lips are dry,
And skin so pale.
But eyes so radiant,
Telling your tale.

A long lived life,
So many things done.
And as a teenager,
You had the most fun.

You've brought things round,
Taught me to savor life.
When things get bad,
The answer's never a knife.

Thank you Aunt Peggy,
I'll miss you when you're gone.
But I'll never forget how brightly,
Into my life you shone.

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I love them...

i applaude you!!!
They rock severe socks...

Watch Over Us---R.I.P Aunty 8th August '08

You're not in pain,
You suffer no more,
If heaven exists,
You'll be at the door.

We knew this was coming,
The day would soon be here,
I'm glad it ws peaceful,
But I hate seeing the tears.

I didn't know you well,
But I can feel your ghost,
It upsets us all,
But hurt Papa the most.

I hope where you are,
Is better than this place,
Watch over us, Aunty,
Don't look back in disgrace.

awwwwwww your poems are so touching!! i love them all, well done!!
they're amazing. really. i've fallen in love with them.

Can you guys please help me think of a title? I'm stuck for ideas...
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Once silky to touch,
A pure soft white,
Now stained a deep red,
Because of your spite.

Once thick and warm,
Magnificent to see,
But now they're broken,
And won't carry me.

I thought we were comrades,
Fighting for the same cause,
And I was jealous or you,
Because of your flaws.

They said I was beautiful,
Too good to be true,
But I'd give it all away,
To look more like you.

You said it's all you wanted,
My natural beauty,
So armed with a blade,
You took me off duty.

You slashed at my back,
And I fell to the ground,
I felt my wings start to break,
With a loud cracking sound.

Now I lay here in a pool,
Of my own blood,
I'm unable to fly away,
As my tears start to flood.

If angels like us,
Can succumb to such vanity,
Imagine what it can do,
To all of humanity.

the reason i lie is soo good!

WOW! I love your poems sooo much... And I'm not a fan of poems to be honest... But yours are... wow! I don't know what else to say... But wow!