MCRmadness

I write this again.

Something about me

- I'm girl, 16 years and from Finland.
- My English maybe isn't the best, but I try as well as I can.
- I have three cats and one rat.


My Chemical Romance and something else about me, that have to note with MCR...

- I'm MCR-fan.
- I found MCR at Christmas 2006... Actually, I'm not sure did I find MCR or did MCR find me... 'Cause it came like a some "miracle" [I don't believe in God, so not any religious way] when I started to be little bit depressed...

- I have been always myself, and I have been harassed and rejected because I'm "different"... I dare to be myself, I'm not interesting any things about "fashion" etc...
- At least in Finland [I don't know about other countries] I feel there difference is like a taboo between youngs... So many move with the "mass" and they can't understand why someones doesn't want to be like them...
Okay, that heard strange, but that's what I think...
- I like metaphors alot, and some day I thought, that people which move with fashion are like "flock animals", like wolves are... And there is other humans which are "maverick". But we which are "mavericks", we have our own flock too, but everyone of we wants to be own herself/himself, and ours leader is Gerard and MCR...
I don't know is that understood, but I doesn't matter... It's only one of my strange thoughts...

- I have mentally scars from harassing and especially rejecting.
And again some metaphors [what? I like them].
When I saw I'm Not Okay video, I fall in love with it right away. It's personally best video.
There boys are harassed and rejected, and they finally want to stop it, and they stop it.
It gave me more self-confidence, and I didn't feel so inferior anymore.
MCR like, they "stitch" my old scars more "closed", but these scar never disappear completely...

- I have seen MCR at live once 07/03/2007.
It was amazing. They came at the first time in Finland, and I was one of them who was there.
I can't believe I have seen them, I just can't. And some days I view my posters and go crazy like "I have seen THEM!!!"... But I miss MCR too, and I hope they come back some day. Gerard promised for us they come again
We did a record, 'cause the crowd scream so much that sometimes band's sound and Gerard's sing didn't heard.
And after gig I got Frank's sign. I never thought I could get somebodys sign.
And I can't believe that on my ticket is REAL Frank's sign

My hobbies and something boring info of me

- I draw alot... It's my most important hobby
What I draw... Hmmm... Animals, Frerard or Gerard in humans sometimes, more animals, my own comics, again animals, MCR at animals... I learn all time to draw more and more, and actually I learned to draw own my own.
Few years ago I drew horses, and they was so ugly 'cause I couldnt draw them alright... And somewho I realized, I'm not sure when, that I could draw them from some photo... And I started to draw horses always from some pic, and nowdays I don't need any pictures when I draw horses, altiught if horse's posture is that I can't draw without "desing photo" where I can look horse's features...

- Listening to music. Music is life. MCR saved my life. MCR is my life.
Okay...
I like rock/punkrock music.
Bands:
MCR is number one, ofcourse.
Jimmy Eat World, Yellowcard, Amber Pasicif, The Killers, The Rasmus, Head Automatica, Sherwood...

When I was about 7 years old, I found some book that my half-aunt [or whatever it is in English] has sent for us from America. Some children's "notebook", something Sesam-thing... there the notes are colored plots on line of a staffs. I "moved" then in my head from book to piano and studied to play it on my own.
I studied all song from that book and from some other Sesam-book too. And I'm not sure did I learn real notes at school or from these books.
But I remember sometimes I played some "kids songs" and looked real notes from songbook. And I don't remember where i learned many of childern songs that I often played at home...

But then, somehow I left piano and playing and started to being ashamed if I play anything [I have social fobia], but when I found MCR I felt I wanted to touch piano again, now I somedays "play" something little when nobody is home, and I have studied Parade's into and little bit of Cancer just to listening the cd and finding right piano's keys.

Now I stop...