Im.just.me

A Little about myself:

My name is Jen.

I SCREW UP BIG TIME -.- heaven help me.

[[IM SO BLEEPING UGLY....I MEAN SERIOUSLY!!!]] -cry-

I am the type or person that no one can ever relate to and that no one can ever fully understand.
When I finally have someone that can comfort me…I have a way of alienating myself from them, though I don’t mean to, I just seem to find isolation wherever I go.
But some days its all alright.
I’m a really boring person, there’s not much to me.
Yet I got so many problems I don’t think I’ll ever be normal
I have my happy days where I believe everything is fantastic and then I’m kind of normal (not quite fully) then I have my down days (most days) where I cannot relate to anyone and though people may try I feel isolated from everyone else.
That’s where the music comes in.
I love music that can truly describe exactly how you feel in such a short space of time.
I love lyrics that really touch you and make you happy, sad, angry etc.
Something that holds real meaning to me.
I’m hurt quite easily sometimes but other times I can be angered real easily but I don’t mean to be angry. I regret it later afterwards.
I try not to be judgmental towards others.
I like to listen to others rather than tell my whole life story.
I like to try to help people as much as I can, or say something encouraging no matter how small it is.
I contradict myself a lot... maybe too much and I find that annoying.
I hardly get to tell anyone my problems (maybe that is a good thing) so that is why I cannot connect with anyone, and when I do they think I’m weird
I get called weird a lot, even by my own friends.
I hate it when people keep telling me their life story so I try not to do that to other people.
It’s not easy for me to relate to people. That frustrates me.
I want to try to help the world as best as I can, but when I’m in those negative days it all just seems impossible…the “what’s the point??” line comes in here.
I hate seeing all these world problems.
I hate it when I look around and I think no one is doing anything. But there are people out there making a difference.
I like to stay positive…be optimistic. Sometimes that’s really hard for me. sometimes its like I have these negative waves flowing from me.
I try to have an open mind about things.
I don’t think I’ll ever be about to fully relate to someone. If I ever do then that would be amazing.
I’ve had a horrible past…it wasn’t all horrible but most of it. Maybe not as horrible as some people’s but it was still pretty bad.
Sometimes I can’t forgive my mistakes from the past.
Sometimes I can’t let go.
I still believe both my cat’s deaths were my fault, and that makes me sad thinking about it.
I regret not knowing my brother well enough.
I regret not helping people when I could’ve
I mostly remember the negative past events for some reason.
I’m surprised at what some people are capable or these days; e.g. murder, child abuse etc. when I hear those things it makes me really angry and upset...mostly angry…
I love my family and my friends…though sometimes I have my doubts but don’t we all?

Hrmm… yeah that is pretty much all I can say right now.


Artists I listen to-
(Not that I LOVE them all but it’s some stuff I listen to….)
AFI
Aiden
Alkaline Trio
The All-American rejects
Avenged sevenfold
Avril lavigne (some)
Billy Talent
Blink-182
Breaking Benjamin
Bullet for my valentine
Dashboard confessional
Death cab for a cutie (some)
Emilie Autumn
Escape the fate
Eskimo Joe
Evanescence
Evermore
Fast crew
From first to last
Funeral for a friend
Goo goo dolls
Good charlotte
Green Day
Gyroscope
Hellogoodbye (some)
The hot lies
Jet
Jimmy eat world
The Julian theory
Keane
Linkin park
Missy Higgins
My chemical romance
Otep
Papa roach
Paramore
The red-jumpsuit apparatus
Relient K
Rise Against
SAOSIN
Scenes from a movie
Scribe
Silverstein
Simple plan
Small mercies
Story of the year
Strike.fire.fall
System of a down
Taking back Sunday
Thrice
Underoath (some)
The used
The veronicas
30 seconds to mars

Etc etc you get the point! =] theres more! i just cant update fast enough! XD
ok this may expand...but yeah...
as it already has...and i cant update every 2 seconds...
so if there is a band thats not mentioned...it doesnt mean i dont like them
coz i might love them...