life is a waterfall

my name is marian. i'm guessing you already knew that cuz its up there^^ well yeah that's my name. i'm fourteen.

i'm going to the airforce when i graduate, unless i get my book published by then. it doesn't have a name, but it does have... wait i need to check.... okay, i'm on page 71.

i'm very creative, i make friends with just about anybody. i like giving advice to my friends who are my family, only not technically related. my friend-family grew so dang much. well music is a big part of my life, along with fantasies. i like reading alot, no matter the size of the book, if i want to get it done, i'll get it done, no matter how huge or long it'll take. i play guitar, only acoustic. i like drawing and if you knew me at all in person ask for my sketchbooks because i've drawn some pretty weird things. not like disgusting or disturbing or anything like that, just really, really fantasy based. {i have to know what things look like so i can keep writing. and my little book here is half real, some people and places are real, animals possibly, and definitely the music, but not at all the characters and certain places.}

i usually only do things like this imnotokay for communicating reasons, but heck i think i'll start to have fun with this, even though i might not be on for a while. i mostly get on msn and yahoo messenger.

i like clothing that fits my moods or the way i want to look that day. i don't just wear one color. i'll wear purely black one day and like bright green and purple the next. which is okay, i like green, it's my favorite color besides black and white... haha.

i like playing my acoustic guitar, though i plan on saving for an electric. i like to experiment or see how good i can pick, but usually i try to nail a song by ear, which sucks especially if it goes fast. i can only play like five or so things. i've played a left-handed bass before, even though i'm right handed, so it was weird that the strings were in reverse order, but i played "spiders" okay. well the beginning of it at least. sometimes i just start playing a nice little tune i made up just to calm me down in times of need. other times i curse my guitar, or forget it. music really is a big part of my life, and if i didn't have it, i'd be different and not realize things as they are. who knows, i might not even be here typing this, but hey, you didnt need to know that.

i have plenty of best friends, but it's the life-friends that count. sierra's one of them. and erin and tristan and a whole bunch.
NEWS FLASH: im dating tristan now =D
but sierra always says when i'm out of it or something, "you save lives.. you literally save lives." and i actually think i do, now that i see what she means, i think. and i don't mean being a doctor. i don't know but i guess sierra says there's something about me that changes people, the way i am. not looks or anything but, the words i say. the conjured phrases.

i can be a jerk when i stick up for my friends or whatever i think is right; i'm pretty stubborn and adament. so stubborn that i'm going to try to get out of going to air force when i graduate. i like writing poems, lyrics at times, too. i want a band bad, but for once, i think i leave that to chan and tristan and all them good dudes and girls.

i hate bending myself to my siblings' or friends' current labels, if any. fashion styles apply big on those, which i hate, cuz i just want to wear what I Want to Wear. that goes for shoes too. i like being free with how i really am and my funny confusion and feelings. i hate feeling bottled up. every bit of emotion with all that's happened to me was let out on Tristan. i love that kid, he's so important to me, one of the most important friends i've ever had. **cough news flash cough cough**. sierra too, she and others made me see the light. because i was lost in it. it chose me, not me it.

i'm a christian and sometimes books and music make me understand things more. but i'm pretty huge on christianity; God is really important to me. but that doesn't mean i'm trying to change people to become christians. well sometimes i do, but only if i know it'll work for sure. and i'm not the goody-goody-two-shoes kind. i have some backround and never act like a slut. i usually dont randomly talk about him either unless someones being retarded and using God against me.

i almost hate low-hanging shirts and skirts. i hate being super-girly and i just hate stuck-up people, so if i see anyone like that, i beat them to the ground and remind them that they're human just like the rest of us.

things have to be rough all over so we know we're all human. all guilty of somethings and nothings. all aware that life sucks, but it's very amusing and beautiful, but painful.

we are All Human. if you refuse to look past the labels and the different social groups, then you're just screwed up somehow.

i listen to all music so if you want me to list just ask and i'll tell you what things i listen too. i dont care what i listen to as long as its not opera. but i'm more comfortable with rock and metal and all that crap

Stereotyping

I am the girl who dresses in all black and never got to finish middle school because I was called emo everyday.
I am the friend afraid to tell you that I'm bisexual, because you'de leave me for it.
I am the girl who loves to read and is pushed into the corner and beat up because of what I love to do.
I am no one. Just the kid that was pushed to far at school for being emo and cut a little too deep.
I'm the teenager who was kicked out of her house because I was caught hugging my girlfriend.
I am the woman who commited suicide just before I graduated highschool. Since I'm a CheerLeader, no one suspected it was coming.
I am the best friend who just found out she has AIDS, and is afraid to tell her parents because she'll be considered gay. My parents would never accept me if I was.
I am the athlete evryone expects to be perfect, when in reality I'm sneaking heroin between games.
I am the girl who is called a slut everyday because I can't afford to buy new clothes every year. My skirt doesn't cover what I want it to.
I am the sibling forced to clean their sister's blood off of the carpet. Why didn't I see it coming?
I am the boy who wakes up crying because the bruises my parents gave me hurt so much, but aren't even noticed because I'm always wearing the baggy clothes the kids in gangs wear.
I am the girl who got raped at twelve and am considered a whore because of it.
I am the gullible parent who let my child hurt themselves. No one can know this.

if you believ stereotyping is rong, put this on you profile.