Captain-McSquiggle

Before I start this, I want to thank my friend Lorelei for really turning me onto My Chemical Romance, because I used to know only four songs [courtesy of Kaz; love ya babe], and yeah I liked them [especially Headfirst for Halos], but I'd rather have listened to Bowling For Soup or something any day. I have her to thank for showing me how amazing these guys actually are, even when she wasn't exactly trying to in the first place. I love you, Loreleiii. <3

So now that that's covered, on with the show!

So give me all your poison
____________And give me all your pills
___________________And give me all your hopeless hearts
_____And make me ill

This is my;
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE SAVED MY LIFE STORY
and it's probably totally pathetic compared to the rest of yours. they didn't even really "save my life." but oh well. i'm writing it because it happened tonight [7/12/07].

Right, okay. Well, I have this HUGE problem with people petting my arm and poking me and touching me and all that. And it's completely involuntary. It literally makes my skin crawl. I get so nervous, it's just as worse as being in an elevator for me, or going to the doctor's office. Everyone knows that both things seriously scare the crap outta me. Neither my dad or my brother feel like accepting that, for whatever reason. My dad makes up excuses, my brother calls me oversensitive (as if i have an off button for it; sheesh). It feels like no one takes me seriously at all, except my mom, who says it's some sensory issue. Whatever it is, I really, honestly cannot take it. And tonight at dinner my brother stretched his arm across the table and hovered his finger right over my skin, and even that made me so nervous I swear I could've thrown up. I'm telling him to stop but he's laughing at me, cause he really doesn't take it seriously. He thinks I'm just complaining over nothing. I couldn't take that twisty nervous feeling in my stomach anymore, and on top of that I was so sick and tired of not being listened to, that I just went nuts and broke down. I literally started crying. Afterward I felt like such a loser, and I came upstairs and unpaused my playlist, and My Chemical Romance went on. Just the way Gerard was singing and everyone was playing; how it sounded like they meant every single note helped me so much. I was so shaken up, and all of a sudden, just feeling like someone got it, like someone understood, like they were actually serious made it so much better. I calmed down so fast, and instantly got that "Fine, I don't care. You can go screw yourself" feeling. I don't even know how that makes sense, but they settled me down.

I LOVE MY CHEM. <3