bellamuerte337

I am a girl living in the suburbs, trapped behind the superficiality and ignorance of her peers. I live in a world of people whose lives follow the same dry and monotonous thread as their mothers and fathers before them, content to march straight ahead into a life of endless boredom and blank white walls. It's hard to do anything but scream at the raised eyebrows, the whispers, the "how can you like that type of music?". People used to living in glass cages find it difficult to accept others for their differences, content to label away until everyone is stuffed in their own pigeonholes. I'd like to break the glass. I'd like to destroy the pigeonholes. I'd like to spray those white walls with color.

I am a person easily seduced with the dark romance of MCR, the brutal honesty of the lyrics and the heart that bleeds into the music that they create. The black drama, the morbid irony, the blood-stained curtains that rise in the Theatre of My Chem, all appeal to me. Maybe it's the poet within that enjoys it so much. Living in such sterile surroundings makes it hard not to fall into the grooves and patterns worn deep by the wheels of suburbia. Listening to "Vampires Will Never Hurt You", sobbing at the beautiful, heartwrenching chord patterns in "Helena", rocking out to "I'm Not Okay" and then looking guiltily through the window to check if anyone's watching, singing gleefully along to the strains of "Blood", marveling at Gerard's voice as he croons the ending of "Disenchanted", feeling my heart swell and rise like a zeppelin during the chorus of "Welcome to the Black Parade".....that's how I let myself go a little. Let myself think. Let myself wonder if there's actually a Black Parade. Let myself dream that there's a way out of this prison, where age and race and looks don't matter, and we can just be ourselves, artist or poet or musician or anything else, and be accepted for who we are.

So, in conclusion, the five guys in MCR--Frank Iero, Mikey Way, Bob Bryar, Ray Toro, and especially Gerard Way--are all heroes. Do they know this? Quoting them, they're "a band that wants to save your life." And they've accomplished that. Not that I was suicidal...I never was....but from something just as bad.....not knowing who I was, having no identity and no drive and no will to make a difference in the world.That's why I love My Chemical Romance. Because through their music and through their personalities, they are extending a hand to steady me, to let me rise, to let me feel the ground beneath my feet and know that I put it there, that this is MY doing, and that I can be whoever I want to be without fear. Who the hell cares what the others think? They let me really LIVE. And that is why I love them, and why I will keep loving them, forever.