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saintxscarer
Name:
Saint Venom
Age:
28
Gender:
Female
Location:
Burnley [Crap Town] ENGLAND.

Member since August 6th, 2006

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About

"Is it worth it can you even hear me/Standing with your spotlight on me/Not enough to feed the hungry/I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now/In this sea of lonely/The taste of ink is getting old/It's four o' clock in the fucking morning/Each day gets more and more like the last day/Still I can see it coming/While I'm standing in the river drowning/This could be my chance to break out/This could be my chance to say goodbye/At last it's finally over/Couldn't take this town much longer/Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be/Now I'm ready to be free."

Vegetarianism + Veganism:
I am a Vegetarian, well a pescatarian to be honest because I still eat fish but let's say vegetarian because it's simpler and it confuses people less.
I am not just a Vegetarian because it's one of the latest trends, I am a vegetarian because I am against the killing of animals just for people to eat/wear. No one needs to eat meat to live so why should anyone eat it at all. Animals shouldn't die just because people want to eat it.


"It's our time to shine through the down/Glorified by what is ours/We've fallen in love/We've fallen in love/It was the best idea I ever had/Today I fell and felt better/Just knowing this matters/I just feel stronger and sharper/Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing."

Alcohol, Drugs, Smoking, Pills + Suicide:
I have had experience with these and they weren't pleasant at all, Addiction is what came out of it all. I personally am Straight-Edge now so no drugs, alcohol or casual sex for me!
Alcohol works for some people but it doesn't work for me, so I'm not here to say that you shouldn't drink it, I am just stating that it isn't MY way. This is my opinion on smoking, pills and drugs.
Suicide, Ah the much debated topic. There is a difference between cutting and suicide. I believe that suicide is right because it is your own life and no one elses, the whole thing about God's blessing to let you be on earth is fake to me so that is part of the reason why I believe this. Now I am not trying to promote and persuade you to commit suicide. I am suicidal and I do still cut and I have attempted many times and it has made me the person who I am today and I am quite proud of that. But many people get the wrong idea as soon as someone cuts, everyone says they tried to commit suicide when cutting is just a cry for help. Suicide is right but you don't do it for attention, You do it for a serious reason.


"Well when you go/Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay/And maybe when you get back/I'll be off to find another way/And after all this time that you still owe/You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know/So take your gloves and get out/Better get out /While you can/When you go/Would you even turn to say/"I don't love you/Like I did/Yesterday"

Animal Cruelty:
I think that this is one of the most awful things ever. Animals do not need to be neglected or hurt in any way.
I wouldn't be able to hurt any animal and I don't know how anyone else can because It's sick and mean and if people do that they should be ashamed.
How can you look at an animal if you're about to be cruel to it and still do it?


"For what you did to me/And what I'll do to you/You get/What everyone else gets/You get a lifetime/Let's go/Do you remember that day when we met/You told me this gets harder/Well it did/Been holding on forever/Promise me that when I'm gone/You'll kill my enemies/The damage you've inflicted/Temporary wounds/I'm coming back from the dead/I'll take you home with me/I'm taking back the life you stole."

Revenge:
In the bible it says that Revenge is right but then Jesus says that it is not. But I personally think that it is right and when I say this, no one ever gives me a reason why it isn't right. It's a way at getting back at someone for what they have done and if they didn't want revenge to be sought on them, they shouldn't have done anything in the first place.

"Tonight, I felt stonger/Inside of your ways/It takes alot to get home/But it's okay when the light is always on/I just want you to understand/There's no need to keep waiting/Another day in another hand/It could be so different/A letter to me/Your wasting time/You know you could be/Yeah you could shine/But Tonight you'll get it right/You will make a difference/Tonight, Tonight, Tonight/I Feel stronger/Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye/If I could see through/Even so far away/It's all you need too/Make it through another day."

Religion:
I am not a believer in religion unless you count a religion of which you worship vampires because you're obsessed with them and act like one so much that people think that you are one.
I think that all of the religions are the same just with the stories twisted a bit and the names changed around.
I also think the bible was just made up by some very imaginative people because people want to believe that there is something after death. Also I think that the bible was made so people were taught what sort of people to discriminate against.


"And it's all in how you mix the two/And it starts just where the light exists/It's a feeling that you cannot miss/And it burns a hole through everyone that feels it/Well you're never gonna find it/If you're looking for it/Won't come your way/Well you'll never find it/If you're looking for it/Should've done something but I've done it enough/By the way your hands were shaking/Rather waste some time with you/And you never would have thought in the end/How amazing it feels just to live again/It's a feeling that you cannot miss/It burns a hole through everyone that feels it."

Friends And Family:
My friends and family have got me through everything so I love them more than words could ever say. No one would ever replace or take those guys out of my heart. Each one of my friends or family have done something for me, so I'd be lost without them.

"The Friday sun bears down again/As we drive with our friends/And on these longest days we spend/All the time trying to pretend/That our stories could be true/Wanting to be cool/The setting sunset says the day is through/If only we knew/And we all sit around here in our home town/Listen to the waves as they all crash down/And watch the fire as it slowly burns away/Glowing embers fly across the sky your/Your here by my side/in my summer/our last summer/The world passes by in my summer/our last summer/The light makes shadows fall/surrounded by each other/I let you watch it all/the view from our last summer/The view from our last summer/We trace the sun across the sky/I would stop time to stay with you/I would stop time so we don't move/I would stop time/I would stop time/I would stop time to keep you."

George Bush and Tony Blair:
I may not be American but I still think that George Bush is a total idiot. He sends Americans into war to fight for him, why can't he just talk for things or fight himself. He makes families lose loved ones just because he wants to prove that he is better than some other country and he doesn't let it drop. I also think he is an idiot because when September 11th happened he had to drag Prime Minister Tony Blair into it when it clearly had nothing to do with us.
Tony Blair is also considered an idiot in my eyes because he always goes running when George Bush calls, He just wants to be associated with stupid power.


"Love your hate/Your faith lost/You are now one of us/Love your hate/Your faith lost/You are now one of us/Nothing from nowhere/I'm no one at all/Radiate/Recognize one silent call/As we all form one dark flame/Incinerate/Nothing from nowhere/I'm no one at all/Radiate/Recognize one silent call/As we all form one dark flame/As we all form one dark flame/As we all/Love your hate/Your faith lost/You are now one of us/Love your hate/Your faith lost/You are now one/One of us."

Gays, Lesbians, Bisexuals and Transgendered:
I am gay or a lesbian but I really dislike that word. I have had the speech of "you're too young to know" and "it's just a phase" but I believe that you are always aware of what you are but at young ages you refuse to believe it.
I get the crap everyday of people giving me dirty looks or saying stupid things about me, I went through the times where I would have rumours around school about me or I'd walk into my class and I'd hear "Eurgh She's Gay!!!" yelled out whilst my teacher was there. Even my Progress Leader hates me because of it.
But I have plenty of friends who are gay and bi and I love them because of it and I am proud of them just like I am proud of myself.
Love is love, Forget the genders.
What would be better than a world where you could see or hold someones hand, be proud and be totally in love and not get abuse yelled at you whether it was Girl/Girl, Girl/Guy or Guy/Guy?


"I am finding out that maybe I was wrong/That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone/Stay with me/This is what I need/Please/Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you/We could sing our own but what would it be without you/I am nothing now and it's been so long/Since I've heard the sound/The sound of my only hope/This time I will be listening/Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you/We could sing our own but what would it be without you/This heart/It beats/Beats for only you/My heart is yours/This heart/it beats/beats for only you/My heart is yours/My heart/it beats for you/This heart/it beats/beats for only you/It beats/beats for only you/My heart is yours/My heart is yours/This heart/it beats/beats for only you/Please don't go now/please don't fade awayMy heart/my heart is yours/Please don't go now/please don't fade away/Please don't go now/please don't fade away/My heart is yours."

Stereotyping:
I care very strongly about this because I am sick of it.
I hate people who call me emo just because I wear Vans/Converse, tight jeans, studded belts and have glasses and have my hair covering one eye and several other things.
Sure I might cut a lot but why should that be thrown in with a stereotype.
I have seen some people who most class as Chavs walking down the street in tight jeans... are they emo? NO... because they deny it so much and say that everyone else is while they're wearing the style of what they are accusing of.


"And will you tell all your friends/You've got your gun to my head/This all was only wishful thinking/This all was only wishful thinking/And will you tell all your friends/You've got your gun to my head/This all was only wishful thinking/This all was only wishful thinking/Let's go."

Random Stuff:
+ I am a bassist in two bands, my main band is called Dynamite, you can check out one of our sites. It has no music on it yet but you can read about us and stuff, the link is at the bottom of the page. For Dynamite I also come up with some guitar riffs and most of the lyrics even though I am not proud of my lyrics I will let them be used. They are not made up situations, they are about the things that I have been through.
I had this one awesome girlfriend who I loved a lot and I am still a bit hurt after nearly a year because we went through so much, but I am slowly getting over it. My other girlfriend that I recently split up with has been quite easy to accept and we are still friends.
+ When I play my Bass or my Guitar, I always tend to spazz out, jump around and do silly little moves, It shows that I enjoy music and put every ounce of energy into it. It's one of the things that I love the most.
+ Most people know that I have an obsession and fascination with death and that I have always wanted to be a vamire. I constantly get called a vampire because of how I look and how I always act.
+ I adore lostprophets, The Used and The Blackout.
+ I think that Brody Dalle [Ex-Distillers, Spinerette] and Hayley Williams [Paramore] are both hot.
+ I love Caramel Frappucchinos from Starbucks.


"She said/"Don't don't let it go to your head/Boys like you are a dime a dozen/Boys like you are a dime a dozen"/She said/"You're a touch overrated/You're a lush and I hate it/But these grass stains on my knees/They won't mean a thing"/And all I/All I/Need to know/Need to know/Is that I'm something you'll be missing/Is that I'm something that you're missing/Maybe I should hate for this/Maybe I should hate you for this/Never really did ever quite get that far/Maybe I should hate for this/Maybe I should hate you for this/Never really did ever quite get that/I'd never lie to you/Unless I had to/I'll do what I got to/Unless I had to/I'll do what I got to/The truth/Is you could slit my throat/And with my one last gasping breath/I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt."

Me:
I have Blue/Grey eyes that I wear black thick glasses over because I am long-sighted but my old opticians gave me short-sighted glasses for four years.
I have a lot of problems like Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Breathing Problems and a whole bunch of other stuff that I can't be bothered typing mostly because most of it is very personal stuff. I hardly wear eyeliner anymore. I wear black and red striped gloves everywhere and I wear wristbands at home to cover up my cuts.


"Love of mine some day you will die/But I'll be close behind/I'll follow you into the dark/No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white/Just our hands clasped so tight/Waiting for the hint of a spark/If Heaven and Hell decide/That they both are satisfied/Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs/If there's no one beside you/When your soul embarks/Then I'll follow you into the dark/In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule/I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black/And I held my tongue as she told me/"Son fear is the heart of love"/So I never went back."

Tattoos and Piercings:
In the summer I am finally getting my lip pierced.
When I am eighteen or somewhere around that age I want a tattoo of a silver star outlined with black on the top of my wrist, A black heart with pale blue wings with "True Love Never Dies" written underneath it on my veins and "Blue And Yellow" written on my veins on my other wrist.


"Of all the things I've believed in/I just want to get it over with/Tears form behind my eyes/But I do not cry/Counting the days that pass me by/I've been searching deep down in my soul/Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old/It feels like I'm starting all over again/The last three years were just pretend/And I said/Goodbye to you/Goodbye to everything I thought I knew/You were the one I loved/The one thing that I tried to hold on to/The one thing that I tried to hold on to/I still get lost in your eyes/And it seems that I can't live a day without you/Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away/To a place where I am blinded by the light/But it's not right."

The Bands I have seen live are:
Oversight,
A Thousand Stories,
Ambush UK,
The Blackout,
Kids In Glass Houses,
Flood Of Red,
Red Alert,
Scepticemo,
Nitro.


"Step one you say we need to talk/He walks you say sit down it's just a talk/He smiles politely back at you/You stare politely right on through/Some sort of window to your right/As he goes left and you stay right/Between the lines of fear and blame/And you begin to wonder why you came/Where did I go wrong/I lost a friend/Somewhere along in the bitterness/And I would have stayed up with you all night/Had I known how to save a life/Let him know that you know best/Cause after all you do know best/Try to slip past his defense/Without granting innocence/Lay down a list of what is wrong/The things you've told him all along/And pray to God he hears you/And pray to God he hears you/Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend/Somewhere along in the bitterness/And I would have stayed up with you all night/Had I known how to save a life/As he begins to raise his voice/You lower yours and grant him one last choice/Drive until you lose the road/Or break with the ones you've followed/He will do one of two things/He will admit to everything/Or he'll say he's just not the same/And you'll begin to wonder why you came."

Music
I would write down a list of bands and artists that I like but I would be here for a while because I would have to find every artist that I like but I can say that my favourite bands are: lostprophets, The Used, My Chemical Romance, Green Day and Paramore. I like all types of music except Rap and Classical because I do like having a wide variety of different music to listen to and I can also fit in with other people who like the same music.

"Tied to the testing of wills/Where my heart breaks and spills/Left to the sight of the sky/In your arms I'm defined/Thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies/In the minds of your enemies/And I'm stone in the eyes of your foolishness/If this is what I'm meant for/No longer interesting/Fall forward to even the score/Just a thought to you/Tied to the testing of wills/Where my heart breaks and spills/Left to the sight of the sky/In your arms I'm defined/Thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies/In the minds of your enemies/And I'm stone in the eyes of your foolishness/And I'm nothing more than a line in your book/Yet I'm nothing more than a line in your book/Yet I'm nothing more than a line in your book/Yet I'm nothing more than a line in your book/In your book/In your book."

Links And Stuff:
Add me on MSN if you want: burnley_minority@msn.com
Add me on MySpace if you want: http://www.myspace.com/ohioxisxforxloversx
Check out my band site: http://www.freewebs.com/dynamitemusic/


"Dear friends of this academy/Oh/Romeo is bleeding to death/To see a friend bleed to death/What for/Some kind of metaphor/That I can't see/So I'll drink until I see it/This sky will make me sick/So I'll give up on you/I'll give up on this/This sky will make me sick/So I'll give up on this/I'll give up on you/Archers in your arches/Raise your fingers for one last salute/And bleed this skyline dry/Your history is mine/So you want to hold me up and bring me down/Yes/You want to hold me up and break me down/I don't care for your sweet scent/Or the way you want me more than I want you/I don't care for your sweet scent/Or the way you want me more than I want you/It's all mine/It's all mine/It's all mine."

Influences:
Guitar: Lee Gaze, Jade Puget, Mike Lewis, Billie Joe Armstrong, Tom DeLonge, Zacky Vengeance, Synyster Gates, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Quinn Allman, Brody Dalle.
Bass: Ryan Sinn, Mark Hoppus, Stuart Richardson, Mike Dirnt, Johnny Christ, Pete Wentz, Mikey Way, Hunter Borgan.
Lyric Writing: Pete Wentz, Gerard Way, Hayley Williams, Brody Dalle, Ian Watkins, Billie Joe Armstrong, Jade Puget, Davey Havok, Bert McCracken.

"They stand to fight for nothing/We show how stupid we've become/As fortune favours only/Those who care too much to see/Oh/It will never be okay/As some will say/We stand to fight for nothing/So close your eyes and stay away/Don't believe their headlines/They poison our minds/Everyday/Oh it will never be the same/If purpose buried everyday/The lies that lead you into the grave/As some will say/And you will never be okay/As some will say/If purpose buried everyday/As some will say/Lies that lead you to the grave/As some will say/Your revolution is a joke/As I will say."

Read and repost if you think that Homophobia is wrong!!!
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson"


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