someone u don't know

im trying to create a band im calling it BGH (blood, guts, and horror or hate)
I haven't realy decided what the h will stand for.


OK: I may seem ok and happy on the the outside, but on the inside is something way different.
I have to seem happy and cheerful to my friends because if im not they'll know somethings wrong.
It's what happened. My grandma died when i was in the 3rd grade and ever since then i've realy realized what death is.
then i heard about my dead aunt Joy. She was suppose to be my god mother infact she was before she died of cancer.
My life has been different ever since i changed schools.
At my old school i had lots of friends who i could talk to and tell about my problems but at the new school kids picked on me in fact i almost killed a kid in the 4th grade because he was picking on me on the wroung day. I told him that it was the wroung day and he wouldn't stop so i wated till the teacher was gon and i choked him till he passed out. I thought he was dead but i didn't know you pass out before you die.
thats when i started lessoning to good chalet the song from them that got me through realy hard times was hold on.
I was about to kill my-self because i thought no one cared about me but then i relized that everyone the i know cares what i do because it affects them in a way.
Hold On got me until about a year ago and i didn't feel like i had friends that when everyone started to talk to me.
thats when one of my supposeed friends hacked me
and i was about to kill myself again.
thats when i heard their song for the first time: I'm not okay
its weird because it came at the right momentin my life.
thats when i started writeing songs and decide i wanted to creat my own band.
my friend pointed this sight out to me.
I'm blurting stuff out on the internet that i didn't even tell my best friends