XLove_Sick_LullibyX

Hello, loves.
My name is Mara. I am outgoing yet withdrawn. Exotic yet bland. I see black and white while everyone else sees the rainbow. My friends and family stand beside me, yet sometimes I find I am alone. I ask questions that can't be answered, and answer questions that aren't asked. I feel the safest when i dream because i know I can't die. At times I am my own best friend, while at other times i am scraed because i feel I don't know who i am. Sometimes I feel on top of the world, and sometimes i feel like i have plunged into a black hole. There is only three bright lights in my life: My little brother, my mother, and my absolute best friend/sister, Halley Bunker. She is on here, too. Her name is Don't Tell Scotty. You will love her. Everytime I think of her i smile because she makes me so happy. I don't know where i would be without her, and if she ever reads this i want her to know that i love her more than any friend i ever knew and anybody who meets her is the luckiest person in the world. yself included. Halley, I love you. And thank you........for everything.

-I carved your name in the bullet so that people would know you were the last thing going through my head-
-I hope you choke and die on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me-
-pain doesn't hurt when it's all you've ever felt-
-SHUT UP voices or I'll poke you with a Q-tip again!-
-My imaginary friend thinks you have serious problems...-
-Artificial Intelligence is no match for Natural Stupidity-
-"candy is dandy, but liquor is quicker"-
-somebody needs a happy meal-

Oh, yes, i am absolutley obsessed with Pooh Bear, I love unicorns, and i have a million stuffed animals. They make very good therapist. Hehe!

-I was having such a good day until I woke up-
-I wish i could collect all the tears you made me cry so i could drown you in them-
-"dead in her mind and cold to the bone, she opened her eyes and saw she was alone"-
-I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours-
-destruction is a form of creation-
-it always rain the hardest on those who deserve the sun-
-"If you cannot see it, how will you know that I'm in pain? To wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain"-


Please read this...
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday. I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them. I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson". If you belive that Homophobia is wrong, please repost this.