Things I See
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The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | so you see me revolving in circles around my mind my Lucy but then I spirl out of it and go into a whirlwind of mystery. I watch the sun rise and set in 2 seconds as I yield the officer of life i find my numbers and my financial imbalance and I say "take this, brother, may it serve you well" I hand you a clump your not sure what it is it is a magical mystery. as you listen to my music, you being to mold it into something so extravagant that no one can truly identify it. you ask everyone around "what is it?" they all ignore you and dutifully and briskly walk towards their resting area. it feels like a bad dream but your not even sure it's that. as I turn invisible you wish I came back to life then you slowly realize you're turning in circles. you find a revolution with the same name as you and grab it by the spline. you shake it until it is yours and then you plunge into a never ending ocean. you travel through time and space as if you balanced it. you hear fighting in the background but you don't follow it your so intent on the thing that you made you cannot peel your eyes away. it leads you to a fountain thats spurting music and blood. you touch it and you dive into this inference of imagination this unreal reality and then you finally discover that you've found the meaning of life you see it in your masterpiece and in your surroundings and you've found yourself your mind your soul you |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | sorry, I wrote this one above in a ten minutes (under a time limit). I'll change it to modern english later once I've posted all of mine |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | PERFECTION her cold, dry fingers caress your warm, soft skin. it sends shivers through your stable body. everywhere she travels with her hands leaves an ice burn on your soul. her frozen silky lips lightly touch your cheek. you sigh and smile as she would want you to. she begins to shake uncontrollably from her unknown chill. you hug her desperately trying to warm her somehow. you whisper in her ear you love her forever. she replies not with the same feeling but with "too much for me this blissful ecstasy." you wish she wouldn't say that all you need is those reassuring words not how she does not deserve you. she is your everything. thats all there is. nothing more to it. what one deserves and not deserves doesn't matter. as long as she's there everything is perfect. |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | (I just wrote this on a random feeling so I don't know what to call it) The way you really see it, it is nice to know, why everything eventually swings to and fro. As you sweep your hands down the road, you see a wonderful kaleidoscope. Full of wonders and dreams and so called love that will fill you with happiness, joy and tubs. You wonder aimlessly about this magical mystery place and you wish you were not so out of space. Of one of the things you find, you see it sparkle in the light. Once you wrapped it around your heart, you know you will not have to travel far. For the thing that you were looking for was here, in your delightful mind that’s oh so queer. |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | SUBJECTS white is that racist? because i think its an interesting color its almost angelic --------------- ANGELS hmm what are they? stalkers from the sky? do they even guide me? or are they mini gods? --------------- god... existent or nonexistent yes or no its all belief I don't see it like so many people do he is a figment of our imagination and he apparently sent a savior down to save us --------------------- savior he is with me he is mi savior not from god from the wild array of what some may call heaven he fills me up complete I am ...... I should not be self centered like i am around him I should let him do what he wants not the other way around I'm mad at myself for being so why am I so not what I want to be its a goal I must complete it but he wants me to be up not down he wants me to talk not be silent he doesn't want me to say sorry when i have so many times its hard not to be self centered when hes with me I hate it but hes saving me should I let him? everything that comes out of mi head and mi mouth its just so down casting I wonder if it hurts him I wonder if happiness is what he wants from me and all he wants as a gift is more of my love I wish I was selfless as him I wish I was him I wish we were one how can I do this? this is so hard ------------------------ ONE "one is the loneliest number that you ever knew two can be as bad as one but the loneliest number is the number one" is loneliness love? is to love to be lonely? ..... once....take away the see and u get one ....... is to act to lie? is to lie, to pretend? to pretend..... pretending to love is what too many people do truth is disappearing everyday everywhere I love truth truth should be my best friend yet I lie so much to people that I believe are unimportant but I should believe that they are important ...... today I ask why do I talk? talking is of no use to me I wanted to be silent today silence helps me daydream dreaming is beautiful I want to dream of strawberry fields of diamonds and skies of walruses and revolution 9s of life and love of mystery and truth of kaleidescope eyes ------------------------------------------------------------------------ I'm telling you....you are more than that of heavens....you are greater to me than anything..I don't know if this will ever end...this feeling of complete adoration for you ...its so impeccable my mind will swirl into a series of visions...visions of heaven ------------------------------------------------------------------------ this is the never ending poem about subjects that com to mind ----------- dreams are beautiful bad dreams and good dreams all have their little meaning sanctuary I find in them they lead me to my little world of reality in a place of time and space that cannot be balanced they are dark and unseen like all the colors blend to one ------ black no...I'm not racist space is made up of so much it is black blackness is visible as well as invisible it is life in its worst metaphor black is the leading color in everything you see ------ SIGHT I see sight as a verb not a noun it is an action in a statement but its so much deeper than that sight is what u see at the end sight is what u do when you find something incredible is it so deep that its sad? ------- is sadness deep? why? is it because its emotional? is it because it pulls the heart down into such fathomless pain, its too much to bear? what is sadness? will it ever sleep? -------- SLEEP sleep is a mystery no one shall ever discover it so many people test it but they never will figure out that there is no scientific answer sleep everyone needs it lets you drift into a state of consciousness unknown to reality into a place where anything can happen or maybe into your happy place.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ why do people hate me? they hated me first...they hurt me first...they targeted me first...they don't even know me...yet why do they hurt me like they always do? am I not good enough to satisfy them? am I just so weird or ugly that I become the point of a conversation? am I that bad? to be continued |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | SUBJECTS cont. why does everyone hate what I crave? what have I done wrong? no, more like what have I done wrong that I haven't apologized for ----- do I have to yell? do I have to scream? why cant you hear me? why cant you just listen harder? why are we so lazy? maybe if we just stopped everything it would go back if there is a back to where it belongs but "we can't go back" fine then we'll go forward in the right direction we should work together we should solve together there should be no complaining no yelling and no such thing as busy ------ the world seems to be revolving in the wrong direction not right not left just wrong ------ if I tell you the truth will I get punished? if I tell you the truth will you listen? if I tell you the truth will you not tell others? if I tell you the truth for once in my life will you hate me? ------ someday someone will find me they will see the true me and they'll be speechless for what they find looks horrid on the inside but looks beautiful on the outside but they wont jump to conclusions like too many people do they will finally discover the hidden elegance and extravagance and luxuriousness in the horrible unearthly clump that is me ------ for now my insanity is what keeps me from drowning it helps me fly away from the hate and the gravity of my "priorities" my insanity is a mask a lie a test to see if you really truly genuinely understand and appreciate me ------- I hate attraction attraction of forces attraction of lovers attraction is fictional attraction is not the correct term of usage it is a deception --- if you absolutely must love me you must be mature enough to identify my lies and my truths to be continued |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | MY OWN OPINION no one is free tho we all dream to be i would very much like to fly away, but i kno that would ruin my future, i dont care about it anyway ............. i just want to do what i do best and preach my opinion to the world im the worst communist you can get i dream of equality and simple solutions how naive i can be there is also unfathomable parts i only truly know how to carry on everyone is crazy to someone else everyone is special to someone else to love a lie is to be innocent to lie about love is to cheat - my good mood is bad for others my middle mood makes people happy my bad mood gets people concerned... i definetely dont need their sympathy i am the worst best angel of hell (this one's in my info) |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | THE WISH OF IMMORTALITY the luscious moonlight drifts over the virgin snow and leaves shadows in its dust as an abandoned swing set stands stiff in the negative cascade of wind. the majestic trees layered with angelic white unnecessarily crouch and cower in the long after twilight darkness. their haunting and taunting branches linger without reason. the magnificent light of the night creates the elegance of the nervous trees and encourages them to swoop into the sky. the child whose soul never sleeps watches and listens intently on nature's silent conversation. the child is intrigued by its expressionless emotion and its universal power. the child dreams of becoming a part of the unknown excitement and desperately hopes that the magic and the mystery will never die. |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | your wrong, you rebel Everything I do, whenever I flashback I always think of how stupid it was. Always. Every time I think that, I picture myself being slapped, hard. What is wrong with me? Oh, nothing, dear Dazi, It's just you being young. The tendency for me to cling to childish things Makes me an all over baby to the world of reality. I hate how I am. I hate it all. It seems that I have four sides to one soul. One: the bisexual MCR crazy freak that scares people Two. the one that tries to please everyone and is a fake friend to you Three. the hateful depressed, self-centered piece of crap Four. the extremely nice one that thinks she knows all I am just a naive stupid ugly creep. Oh don't you just adore the painful truth of it? Oh yes it's quite lovely, I should say. today I ask, why do I talk? For I always, do the wrong thing. |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | IMPOSSIBLENESS As I gaze out the windows of flight I view the stars as seen in near space I am mesmerized by the silver dots that litter the heavenly sky I feel like I am a ghost I can reach out and float freely in the atmosphere I can stretch out my hand and let it glide through the watery night I can let each particle of my spirit dissolve into all the stars I loathe this earthly attachment of gravity The only home for me is the twilight of life Up into unknown regions of unimaginary beauty I belong high up Where I am an Untouchable Where I am a speck in another's life or an idol which to wish upon Now as I watch the grand show I believe I see every little point but I know better there's always more My mind is drifting back down to me now I look back and realize The only way to be where I wish is to travel throughout dreams All I have to do is close my eyes and I will be or open my eyes look up and long to be in my non-reachable sanctuary In conclusion I shall love what loves me and my distant dream will only be a distant dream Life will go on within and without me and I will go wherever it takes me |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | no title Let's scatter the stars They'll become our tornado Let's roll in the winds They'll become our lightning Let's fly through the leaves They'll become our thunder Let's swim among the lights They'll become our blizzard Let's melt on the rivers They'll become our earthquake Let's explore inside dreams They'll become our sky |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | THE REMNANT say, can i borrow your ear? mine doesnt seem to be working properly or are you speaking words of truth? I'm just sitting on this door step sitting and waiting My butt is numb for I have not moved for ages Every time I knock on the door you yell out a knock-knock joke I play your game because maybe you might let me in but no I'm still waiting It seems to be my destiny to wait and linger and remain in my fetal position passing the time away until I knock again Your disguised rejection cuts like a knife to my aura But I'm still yours If you hide what I seek then I hide what you never want to see in me If you lay your head down I lay mine The funny thing is, "If I lay here If I just lay here" you refuse to lie with me "and just forget the world" But you want me happy and that's my character in the magnificent play called The Gypsies of the Night Wind |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | A DEATH IN A PLAY Today I showed you truth that once dawdled in sunflower fields when it strikes your eyes your insides shriek in horror you cringe in ignorance. Instantly you block the image you change the subject. someone needs to learn how to face their fears |
The Broken Choker Killjoy Age: - Gender: Female Posts: 23 | AVE MARIA My grandpa died this summer. One day he was crying in bed. He said it was so beautiful. He was listening to the divine Ave Maria. I repeat that line. Over and over everyday. I sing it too. Ave Maria. Because I want to be beautiful. Beautiful for Grandpa. Beautful for my love. Beautiful for the benefit of others. Ave Maria. <3 |
Helena Rush. Awake and Unafraid Age: 31 Gender: Female Posts: 10158 | I can't see anything... |
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