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Attitude / confidence & esteem.

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Jeanne Paulin.
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Jeanne Paulin.
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 9905
January 21st, 2009 at 06:31am

I'm having troubles conversing with people (yes, friends count), I mean, I think a lot before I do or say something, at dahil sa sobrang kakaisip, my thoughts always end up being unsaid. Communicating with people is so important and easy to do; pero para sa akin, it makes me all feel dumb, it makes me lose my self-esteem / confidence.

Oh yeah, I was never really good at taking compliments. Nasabihan na ako ng mayabang, and that one little word just ... I dunno T.T
Insecure ako--- honestly. Though, I'm not one of those people who tend to backstab for their satisfaction.
Dumadating rin ako sa point na, I feel so angry with myself and but couldn't find the reason why.

Friends are just friends to me. It never really gets to personal talks; hanggang likes / dislikes and chismis lang. Sabi ng iba, maging open daw ako, but I don't know how. Trusting is not what I usually do. And besides, I hardly talk to people when it comes to secrets. Because like I said, I think before I do or say anything at all, it always to a conclusion na pessimistic thoughts are invading my head.

Yun lang muna.
Liek teh lulz!
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Liek teh lulz!
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January 23rd, 2009 at 04:58am
Akala ko ako lang yung ganyan. hug

I'm trying to start by pakonti-konting secret with my friends bestfriend, actually it took years for my bestfriend to gain my trust, and kahit na halos 5 years na kaming bestfriend, hanggang crush pa lang yung nalalaman niya sa akin. Tehe

Pero when it comes to problems...wala akong nilalapitan...ewan basta feeling ko kasi walang makakaintindi sa akin kaya ako na lang mag isa nag iisip ng paraan (that's why I always end up with a fucked up way out).

Hmmm, can't think of any solution kasi yan din problem ko, eh. Wehe, pero number one na sagot jan is THINK POSITIVE. >.< di ko din magawa yun.
Halifax.
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Halifax.
Age: 29
Gender: Female
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January 23rd, 2009 at 05:29am
i dunno. very few people are trustworthy. so all i do is vent in my blogs and stuff.
ciara.
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ciara.
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 32541
January 23rd, 2009 at 05:43am
Don' worry. Basing sa mga sinabi mo. I'm also like that, I think... or even worse.
I'm not only trying to get into nice conversations with people, I'm actually desperate.

Even with my own friends naiilang ako. (Except for two people na super kaclose ko pero with the other 4 friends that I have? Sometimes I wonder kung friends ko talaga sila eh)

I know a lot of people feel the same way. Trust me, I've talked to people who had confirmed na di lang ako (or tayo) yung ganun yung problem.
I think it's common with young adults actually.

You shouldn't worry too much about it hug Of course di naman nating maiiwasang isipin yung mga ganyang imperfections natin pero don't be too bothered about it. :)

EDIT: parehas pala tayo. nasabihan na din akong mayabang. once. I'm still wondering bakit, though. Kasi ako na yata ang taong may pinaka low na self-esteem, ako na nga tong laging tahimik and nagpaparaya para sa iba, ako pa yung mayabang. well, people have their reasons for describing us like that pero di dapat tayo masyadong paapekto especially if we know we're doing everything we can to be the best we can be. XD
Jeanne Paulin.
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Jeanne Paulin.
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 9905
January 25th, 2009 at 09:35am

Thank God. I love you guys. It makes me feel all mushy inside.