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School Blocked It


I am 15 and come from a small country village which practically isolated me from the world for a good 10 years of my life, going to a school that only ever got to 48 stundents at its maximum. Yes i said fourty eight students in the whole, entire school. Then was sent to an all girls boarding school in Hamilton, New Zealand.

Which means out of the 52 weeks in the year I live 40 of those weeks with 132 other girls, in a hostel, Sonninghill Hostel. Not to mention going to school with 1500 other girls. For me it is scary, and what is worse... I still get lost!
There isn't much about me that is that interesting...
I have two brothers that are enough to make a nun swear!!
The person who i have roomed with for the past year is kind of strange...
but then i can't really talk either.
We are just really weird.

My Chem have helped me to pull through my life a number of times.
Every single time i come close some how they are always there, it is kind of freaky but i am glad.
They have helped me so much, they have infulecnced me to become straight edge and I have been like this now for over a year, and it feels good.

This site is awsome!
I don't have many friends and being able to come back this hostel everyday and knowing that I can read some of the amazing work on here, helps me to get through.I still struggle but knowing that everyone else has survived... makes me feel stronger and helps me pull through.

This has all been said by one girl who is too afraid to show who see really is after being hurt because of it. Thanks for creating a place were it is okay to be me.



Meet the band that pulled me out, that helped me to realise that i couldn't do this alone, that showed me the direction in which to walk, that helped me to hold on tight, they influenced me to carry on, therefore they helped to save my life.

What to now??
i now have like two demerits for being back late from town.
3 minutes late bak from town!
that is how much the matrons hate me.
so now i have to clean up the breakfast room that 130 girls have eaten in at 7 in the morning!

(='.'=) This is With. Put him on your
(*)_(*) INO page/profile and help him always be there to save Dark!

My name is Lilly
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor

My name is Lilly
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.

There are thousands of kids out there just like Lilly.
And you can help.




    SATANS LIL HELPER!, May 9th, 2009 at 10:07:28pm

  • BlueOnesHelpMeFall

    Yeah feet are icky!

    Yeah the concert was awesome! I couldn't see anything 'cept for the outline of Gerard but it was still awesome and funny as!

    BlueOnesHelpMeFall, May 15th, 2008 at 04:31:41am

  • BlueOnesHelpMeFall

    Girls' High? Ah I Didn't Even Know Thay Had A Hostel Lol. My Mum Used To Go There.

    Oh yeah the concert was cool! Didn't you getta go? Ah that musta sucked. Lol. I had crap seating though. And the drive up to Aucks was boooring. and my sisters feet smelt horrible on the way home. Loooooool

    BlueOnesHelpMeFall, May 13th, 2008 at 03:14:38am

  • BlueOnesHelpMeFall

    Hi, (Randomer)
    Lol But Um Do You Go To Like Sacred Heart Or Dio Or Something?
    Lol. 'Cause I Go To Sacred Heart And I like Randomly Found Your Page And I'm Like ooo NZer! Then..Ooo Hamiltonian! Then Ooo All Girls School In Hamilton! Yeah...Lol.

    BlueOnesHelpMeFall, May 7th, 2008 at 03:01:46am

  • Mellisshh yeahhh?

    hey.. your welcome. i was bored so iv been adding randoms all day. lol.

    so how r u?

    Mellisshh yeahhh?, March 29th, 2008 at 02:14:09am

  • Mellisshh yeahhh?

    hi random add!


    Mellisshh yeahhh?, March 29th, 2008 at 01:04:30am

  • little birds.

    Hey, I live in Hamilton too!! Smiley
    So yeah... Hi

    little birds., December 17th, 2007 at 09:53:30pm

  • The Only Hope.

    yeah thats fine =]

    The Only Hope., December 11th, 2007 at 01:44:14am

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