ifreakinlovegerard

Ok my life has been a downward spiral for far to long its a long chain of events that starts when i was very young like around 7 and my house burnt down (begining of downward spiral) then like half of my family members died one of old age one of diabetes then one of drug overdose then my great grand mom sue who i was very close to died of lung cancer.................then i thought the spiral stoped then something happend so horrible i almost killed myself i had been 12 for about 1 and a half monthsand i was with my dad for somedays till christmas eve when i got home i heard my best friend had been hit by a CAR!and i was hopeing she would be ok but it was the longest day of my life i heard if she lived she would be a vegtible the rest of her life i was thinking someone so active and full of life as her a vegtible how so i went in my bed room and put my hand through a mirrir the next day she was dead my best friend deadi was but in shock my life was over but when no one else was there one person was his name was conrad and i loved him like a brother if i didnt know him i would be dead well then i found out my mom was on CRACK and then i went to my dad and we had to go through alot of hardship but now i live with my dad i was fine the spiral stoped for a bit but then i heard conrad moved to west virginia and the spiral is still going many people have tried to help none have but i have faith in my dad hes a good guy but still and i also have faith in my girlfriend danni shes trying to help me so is my family and im scared what will happen when i hit the end of the spiral...............................................maybe i will go insane..................................maybe we will all be dead by then.......................................................or maybe.........................i dont know


THE SPIRAL WILL NEVER END