Lady Wicked

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  I miss you.

  Jerm, March 30th, 2014 at 08:16:16pm

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  Happy New Year

  Jerm, January 1st, 2014 at 09:01:22am

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  Merry Christmas.

  Jerm, December 25th, 2013 at 12:39:13am

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  Just letting you know. Spent the night in the hospital the other day. Really bad abdominal pain. Docs told me that it could be appendicitis and that if the pain comes back or if I feel sick to come back in right away and im going to have to go in for surgery. So far Its been okay not too much pain nothing that would worry me to go back in.

  Jerm, August 21st, 2013 at 03:47:11am

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  I dreamt about you last night. So many memories and so many emotions. I miss you darling. I hope you have been doing well. Love always,
  
  ~Jerm

  Jerm, August 11th, 2013 at 03:08:12pm

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  Im sorry :(

  Jerm, July 30th, 2013 at 12:50:39am

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  I didn't tell you how to deal with him, I just said that I don't want to cause any trouble for you. I don't understand what I said to make you so angry towards me atm. As far as my new meds are concerned, You already know what is going on with that. The only thing I would be taking these for would be because I have high uric acid levels which I did have blood test done to check. However, he gave them to me before I even did the test so there was no way of knowing. The meds he gave me usually are given to treat gout. (I dont have gout... lol) So thats why my pharmacist told me it would be pointless to feel these on top of how expensive they are. And even if it because of high uric acid levels there is another med I can take that is better for it and it only costs $4.
  
  I'm not trying to fight or argue or any of that sh*t. I understand that I could say something, and get help finding a way there. I miss all of you guys a sh*t ton. Im taking care of myself and everything, I'm in pain but still. I take all my normal meds like I'm supposed too. I Love you to death, last thing I want is for you to be angry with me

  Jerm, January 19th, 2013 at 01:53:55pm

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  $90 to fill the new meds I'm supposed to take. Can't afford it no way I'm getting it filled.

  Jerm, January 18th, 2013 at 03:22:12pm

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  Yeah I know, but just have to wait and see not much more else I can do.
  
  *Shrug* I dont know, either you want to come see me or not. Fighting with him shouldnt stop you. I mean I know you dont want to have to deal with the headache and aggravation but still would be nice to see you again. Im dreaming anyways I dont even have close to enough money to even bus there and spend any time. And if i were to bus anyways it would take 5 days to travel the country to get there. Which really i wouldnt mind but still. Even that is just more than I can afford, even 5 months from now im sure. So Coming back there will always be something that I want to do, just will never get the chance to do. No matter what the world seems to want to keep us apart one way or another. I really dont know what more to say at this point. It has been so long since Ive seen you Ive become numb to the idea that Ill ever get to see you again. Or at least in a time where i know youll be happy and wont have to go through some stupid sh*t over it. God knows the last thing i want to do or need to do is cause more trouble for you in your life, I know Ive cost enough to last us a lifetime. And im sorry for it. But im not sorry for the choices that I make. And I hope youre not sorry for the choices that you make in your life. You can only listen to what your heart wants for so long before you push it away and move on. I unfortunately cant do that. I cant come to terms that I wont get a chance to be with you. Though it seems as my time has come and gone just like that. All in 3 days. The entire future I had forseen time and time again in my dreams gone just like that. maybe things can be different? Im not sure but hoping so or wishing for something that I have no power to control simply just wont do. you know how much you mean to me and you know how much I Love you and have never stopped Loving you. So really thats all I can offer or say. Its all I can ever be. It is me. Its is everypart of who I am and who I showed you I am.

  Jerm, January 16th, 2013 at 12:57:01am

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  But you know I would behave. I just want to see everyone. And spend some time with you of courss

  Jerm, January 9th, 2013 at 02:53:55pm

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  I dont start sh*t I finish it :p lol xD
  
  Yeah pretty positive its due to kidney stones again. Or uric acid stones but don't know for sure. Next appointment is 3 days before your birthday.

  Jerm, January 9th, 2013 at 02:44:13pm

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  **UPDATE**
  
  Just got back from the docs. New prescription for my knee problems. Just did more blood test for other possible things that could be causing it. Uric acid test and a urine test. Blood in urine leads to who the f*ck knows. Let you know more when I know

  Jerm, January 9th, 2013 at 02:35:27pm

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  That's a decision you'll have to make you can't let other people dictate how your life is going to turn out. Who knows though. I'm a grown ass man I don't have time for petty bullsh*t so if he wants to Act like a child then so be it.

  Jerm, January 8th, 2013 at 01:52:57pm

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  I miss the way yours taste aswell. And that was the idea but well see. Just never know :)

  Jerm, January 7th, 2013 at 05:58:32pm

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  I miss you so much too Miranda,
  
  You know i dont mind you ranting your problems at me. And I knew you too broke up and that you were staying together. Social media is a b*tch huh? lol :P and I know we never really did have much of anything but at least we had eachother. them first 3 days there will still be some of the best days Ive ever lived in my entire life. (Im trying to arrange a visit in the summer) Money of course being the issue lol. Where ill stay or what not im not quite sure yet but of course your mom said it was okay and to get my ass there lol. I know a lot has changed since the last time I been there and since you and I havent been that close like we used to im just not sure. The only real thing that I am sure of is that I Love you, and Im always going to Love you not matter what. You mean the world to me. And us be silly as old people... Come on this is me were talking about ima be ni my 60s still rocking video games and being a nerd XD I dunno babe, I just want you to be happy. and if me being able to be in your life makes you happy than that is good enough for me. If not well the poop on you too :P Im jk of course.
  
  So what else is new? I miss us being able to talk everyday and joke around. and I miss the blushy faces you made when we were on the phone. *Kisses* Yup see that one you just did just then. I Love seeing you happy, means the world to me. Even though youre a major pain in the butt. Well come on it is true after all :D *Cuddles and kisses you again* i know I know, I cheat lol XD
  Miranda, I hope you know that no matter what life throws at us I will always be here for you. you are the one person in my life who I could never really stay mad at and the one person who will always be my true Love.
  
  I hope one day we can be together again and that everything can go back to the way it was between us. 2 miserable people but happy to be together <3 I Love you Dorkybutt.
  
  Anyways you better reply sooner this time cause i check this thing like a crack fiend waiting for a reply lol. I Love you baby, *Kisses* Till next time
  Love, ~Jerm

  Jerm, January 6th, 2013 at 07:43:21pm