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wondering
Killjoy
Age: 29
Gender: Male
Posts: 18 | March 28th, 2014 at 05:52pm
I can't stand my mind. No matter what I think of, I can't get my mind off of wanting the truth. And wanting to forgive those who hurt me most. It makes me feel like an idiot every day. |
wednesday.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53026 | March 30th, 2014 at 06:01pm i know what i want to do, but i'm terrified. i need to think about my happiness and do what will be right for me, but i also know that it is absolutely going to break his heart. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | March 30th, 2014 at 09:49pm All I want to know is what I'm supposed to do with my life as far as a career goes. I literally have no skills, and every time I've tried out something new to learn a new skill I'm so bad at it they quit teaching me and turn me away. I can't do it by myself. I tried working in food, that was a huge failure. Retail was also a major failure. Beauty school was probably my biggest failure. I can't cook. I can't sing or dance. I can't play a sport. I'm not very good at math. I really don't know what's out there for me. I just hope I find it before it's too late. Then again, maybe I'm not meant to do anything. It's starting to look that way. |
sad savior;
Wild Eyed Joker
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 86309 | April 2nd, 2014 at 04:23pm this is the worst feeling in the entire world. i understand that you'll make it up for me but how am i supposed to stop feeling like this? is this even fixable? i'm so scared that it isn't. but, i think i just need time to process. |
wednesday.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53026 | April 3rd, 2014 at 11:22am it upsets me with how okay he was about the entire thing. granted, i didn't want him to be too emotionally involved and then for me to crush him into millions of pieces. but, still. he just acted like he didn't care for me at all. i feel like i just wasted ten months of my life on someone that didn't even give a shit about me. |
wondering
Killjoy
Age: 29
Gender: Male
Posts: 18 | April 3rd, 2014 at 12:55pm hbc, perhaps that was his way of coping? Did he seem to care in the past? Perhaps it was such a shock that he went into some form of denial? I know first hand what it is like to go into that kind of denial. |
wondering
Killjoy
Age: 29
Gender: Male
Posts: 18 | April 6th, 2014 at 06:02pm I just wish I could do the last year over. I've met some great people, grown as a person, and just overall had a pretty good time. But I also lost my brother (dog), and generally went through some trials. But I'd give up all of the good, and have to go through the bad again if I could just go back and do things differently. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | April 7th, 2014 at 07:55pm I need to get away. I dont care if its a trip to the zoo, or to another state, or just to another city. But I need to get away. I've been so angry and I dont know why, im just going to assume its because im going stir crazy. All I can do now is sit and cry. I've been so angry and sad, and I just feel like a mini trip would help. Just me and you. I just dont see it happening soon. I dont wanna fall into deep depression and lose my mind before then. Im just sick of being depressed and Im sick of being angry. |
beaker;
Ghostbuster Famous
Age: -
Gender: -
Posts: 71107 | April 7th, 2014 at 11:28pm Of course I'm lonely. Of course I'm depressed. But how am I supposed to admit to that? You asked me a straight question, but did you think you would get a straight answer? How exactly do you think you would be able to fix these problems, when I know the only answer you'd have for me is to "get out more" |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | April 13th, 2014 at 09:56am I miss all my friends. I used to have so many. I was so close to so many people. What happened? I don't wanna make new friends, I want my old ones back. Because they were the best ones around, nobody will be better. I know its impossible, but I wouldn't mind catching up with them all. If even for just a day. |
sad savior;
Wild Eyed Joker
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 86309 | April 14th, 2014 at 03:25pm i can't wait to get out of this town. i know being on my own will be a shock and at first it'll be really hard for me. i'll probably hit rock bottom before things pick up but i can't do this anymore. i can't live like this. i need to start fresh. i'm ready to be new again. |
stay away;
In a Bullet's Embrace
Age: 29
Gender: -
Posts: 55069 | April 16th, 2014 at 12:16am i wish that instead of waking up to all of this i couldn't wake up at all...
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ab aeterno.
Lost My Fear of Falling
Age: 30
Gender: Female
Posts: 93820 | April 19th, 2014 at 11:19pm Wow kid, just wow. I love my brother and all but little things like that just piss me off. Srsly bro after I just bought you those shoes???? You're gonna lie to me and say you don't know where it went? Buddy, I know exactly where it went. |
malibu.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 54114 | April 20th, 2014 at 03:12am I hate this feeling.
I only watch Little Miss Sunshine when I feel horrible. |
malibu.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: 30
Gender: -
Posts: 54114 | April 20th, 2014 at 08:53pm I feel like if I had a drinking problem or something, all my feelings would be justified.
Right now, I hurt for no specific reason and with no outlet, nothing to get anyone's attention.
I feel very empty. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | April 22nd, 2014 at 02:54pm pinkucha;:i wish that instead of waking up to all of this i couldn't wake up at all...
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wednesday.
In the Cannibal Glow
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 53026 | April 23rd, 2014 at 10:22am it's been almost 3 weeks since he last talked to me.
for some reason, it feels like it's been much longer than that.
i guess i've already given up hope on him yet again. |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | April 24th, 2014 at 07:12pm I love you with my whole heart. With every fiber of my being. If you were to leave me again, I honestly don't think I'll live through it. Not this time. If you choose to move, please give long distance a chance. I'm not ready to be up-rooted. You've been moved around your whole life, I haven't. I can't just leave me family. But I also can't lose you.I don't think I've ever been this terrified. I don't think I've ever felt this tested. We've been together two years, don't just drop it because I'm not ready to move far away. I mean, what the hell am I supposed to do without you? If you move, you'll be able to basically start life over. I'd be stuck here alone. Please, just don't go. I need you. I'm not ready to leave. Maybe in a year or two, but not now. Just, please stay. |
K.K.
Bleeding on the Floor
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Posts: 1787 | April 27th, 2014 at 05:47pm ---just wishing they would all die or suffer or change |
Richey Edwards.
Demolition Lover
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 16507 | April 29th, 2014 at 08:03am I've been through this before. Being absolutely miserable and thinking I don't love my fiance and that he isn't the one. This time it's different though. It's stronger, as is my depression. All I wanna do is either be alone, or with my best friend. I wish it were as simple as "if you're miserable then leave". Sometimes he's all I want, then other times I don't even wanna be around him. The only other person I'd want is my best friend, and he's made it clear over many years he doesn't want me. He acts like he does though. But I just can't leave. I can't. And I won't. |
