Letters to Anyone

Devin.
You really are something else. He couldn't work those days because his car died. The only reason you don't have enough money for rent is because you go to school five days a week and work two days a week. Sometimes. He works way more hours than you. Why dont you bitch about your man getting more hours? You don't even buy your animals food. I've bought cat food the past ten times, and Ive bought dog food on more than a handful of occasions. The animals would be dead if it weren't for me. And you guys buy more alcohol than actual food. How can you afford all that alcohol, but not rent? Or animal food? You make me sick. He works as much as he can. Usually five days a week. Not the hours he wants, but it's a whole lot better than the nothing you claim he's doing. Also, who the fuck STARTS partying at 4 in the morning? I just honestly hate you both.
Vanessa

CJ,
I know this will hurt, and may fail, but you need to go back and live with your mom. It wont be fun. It wont be easy. It wont be ideal. But I think it's necessary at this point.
Vanessa

C,
I spent all day with you. I wish you knew just how tempting it was to grab you and kiss you. I had a million chances. I just know better...You're the addiction I can't quit. You're the craving I cant curb.
Vanessa

Ned,
I have to ask, and I wont even be mad with an honest answer. Am I even still employed? I mean, this makes three weeks since you've called me in. I mean, I get business is slow and all that, but I'm the only one who isn't working. I get Susan has to be there. And you do, obviously. But you both complain about Adam constantly, and he's somehow still there, even with slow business. All he does is come in during the evening shift and clean up. I could do that, if yall hate him so much. Not that I think he needs to be fired, he does a decent job. Just stop selling me short. If I was in my right mind, I'd quit. No point being employed there if I'm never there. It's getting out of hand.
Vanessa

D,
Actually, no. This isn't where I thought I'd end up. When I was younger, I was actually similar to how I am now. My interest would constantly change. I'd pick a career I think would be fun, but then it'd change the next week. In church they taught us that if you listen, God would revel what you're supposed to be. Of course I don't believe that now, but I did when I was younger. Everyone else had it "revealed". Why not me? I still have no idea what I want for a career. I expected to know by eighteen. I'm way past that now. I also expected to stay ay the daycare and make enough money to live and figure it out. That also didn't happen. A came in and blindsided us all by firing us one by one. It's been a struggle since then. I didn't get my cosmetology license. I didn't even want to, but I really did try so I wouldn't be a failure. I failed the test by one point. And that one point wasn't even based on performance, but based on how much I sanitized my hands. I felt pressured to go to school. I shouldn't have went and wasted all that money. But I genuinely thought if I'm gonna be miserable, I might as well not be broke too. Now I'm still both. I still technically have two jobs, but I haven't been to N's in almost a whole month. So it doesn't really count anymore. And K only works me three days a week, for a few hours at the most. I honestly can't do much about it. I've been looking for full time work. It's just simply not there. Even the unemployment office is only hiring people experienced in furniture. I'm trying really fucking hard. I know you don't believe it. I'm also trying really hard to focus on my future and what I wanna be. I'm slightly leaning towards being a counselor. I hope it doesn't change next week. I just wish you could see things from my side. But I can't make you.
Vanessa

C,
I'd really like to know what your text was about. I haven't sent you any gifts. You know I'd never send anything or drop it off. I'd hand it to you personally. That being said, I've been freaking out and sobbing because I wont be able to get you a gift. My parents were low on cash, so I bought all the Christmas gifts. My bank account has been cut by more than half just this month. And then bills came. My parents are paying me back 200 tomorrow, but I really cant be spending it. I just hope you like the sentimental card I'll have to get you. I'm deeply sorry.
Vanessa

Corey,
Please be okay. Please just let this be me freaking out over nothing. You were acting so odd earlier, but you told me the medicine does that to you. You told me not to worry. I should've driven you to the hospital instead of back home. I should've told your mom before I left. I really hope it's nothing. I don't think I'd last very long without you here.
Vanessa

Dad,
I'm trying really hard to keep my cool. Although punching you right in the face would be a nice stress reliever.
Vanessa

Tucker,

Please find Melvin up there in dog heaven and keep him company.

Becca

Don,
Just...stop smelling so good and stop being so handsome and kind. You're just two years younger than my parents. You have children and grandchildren. I shouldn't like you.
Vanessa

Don.
I knew there was a reason why we got so close so quickly. Maybe this isn't so taboo after all.
Vanessa

T,
I believe you. I really do. I just need to hear it from him.
Vanessa