MyChemicalBlack's Poetry

Alright, here's every one of my poems, that I could locate, from my time here on INO.
I hope everyone enjoys them, they are in order from oldest to newest.
Read and let me know what you guys think! xD
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Story of My Life

Sick of people asking
Why I seem to be masking
Yet they can’t ever know
The reason I’m afraid to show,

How would they understand?
Why speak a word silenced by hand
Call me freak, call me mistake
It’s my fucking life at stake,

All around there are eyes
Trying to kill me with lies
Paranoid? Maybe
But I won’t let that change me,

I’ve lost it all
My life seeming to stall
Only thing left in the end
Decided to stop being my girlfriend,

So say what you want
I’m not here to flaunt
Taking the only ray I require
I’ll dare to walk that fine wire.

Marred

I feel like I’m in a haze
Been like this for days
So dark is my mind
Feels like I’m left behind,

I fight with my elder
How I wish for shelter
From this poison rain
Can you take away my pain?

I’ve been walking for an hour
Life’s beginning to sour
What was bliss?
Something I shall miss,

I can’t help myself, I’m sorry
Yet your eyes are so starry
Maybe I’ll stay just one more year
If you’ll help me dear,

I’m pushing too hard
Your innocence, I fear is marred
Yet you still stay to aid
Tending to a soul about to fade.

I’m Sorry

It seems so tough
I can’t do it, I’ve had enough
Life is tasteless
I feel faceless,

So dark in my mind
No more light to find
Here I am, just weeping
Wondering what’s keeping,

The blade hurts no more
I’ve done the noose before
I don’t want you to be the one
Who forced me to use a gun,

Looking at the mirror
I feel so inferior
No one can honestly know
How I want to go slow,

Smile at me
Say it’s good being free
Just don’t stare and wonder why
There’s not enough blood to fly,

Hate myself, nobody cares
Wondering who’d even dare
Not many want this kind of friend
Who would rather end,

I’m sorry, so sorry
Your eyes are no longer starry
And the memory is still constant
To live…I just can’t.

Crimson Made Me

Can't you see
What's happening to me
Or are you blind
To what you may find,

Smile turns to frown
A poison going down
Laugh turns to scream
Such a wicked dream,

I'm hurting myself, just for you
These are the bruises, black and blue
The pain seeming to fill
My self desire to kill,

Through with crying
I'm not afraid of dying
Truth be told, you can't relate
Destined to die a horrible fate,

Bury me in darkest thought
Oh, how long I fought
Tears of blood drip where I stand
As the blade bites wrist to hand.

High School

It’s the hardest part
Not knowing where to start
Lost in the darkest cloud
Not able to speak aloud,

You’re afraid to ask
Maybe it’ll never last
Or possibly never end
Life’s the hardest with no friend,

The voices swirling about
Yet unable to shout
Cold tears leak down your face
Wondering if life’s a waste,

Nobody cares
Nobody dares
How can I keep this cool?
Doomed to die in high school.

Anthem for the Dead

Try not to be cross
Through fury, pain, and loss
Dead, I know
Even though it hurts to show,

A phantom forgot
Won’t be missed a lot
I know what I did
And the anger I hid,

My fingers close air
When you’re not there
Just a specter of hate
Horribly irate,

There are no bells
No places where the light quells
No sanctuary from my pain
Just bitter, bitter rain,

Someone once said
Even though you’re dead
Try to find that song
To help pull you along,

And as the bugs dine
On what used to be mine
My spirit still fights for dawn
That small glimmer to carry on.

I am Noone

You shouldn’t ever feel the pain I have
Just like the knife forgot to rightly stab
Blood leaving an angry mark
Hating just about every part,

Don’t look at me, I’m nobody
I fear I’ll never be somebody
But why, oh why, do I hurt so badly
You just won’t see me sadly,

I am that guy who sits alone
That guy life has never shown
I am that freak you call reject
That guy who whispers forget,

Who are you, who am I?
Why isn’t right to die?
My words are lost
At the most painful cost,

The anger hurts, the sadness kills
How it reflects when the blood spills
I’m that fool you never knew
That fucker who thought nothing’s true,

Hate me for caring, hate me for breathing
But don’t ever think I aimed for deceiving
So cold and tired, just want to go
But a part of me wants to desperately show,

Nobody knows true teenage angst
They just think you’re not worth thanks
So maybe death will take me soon
And only then will I be Noone.

Etched By Knife

I can feel you
Through written word
That heartbeat
Never to be heard,

I’m just a poet
Dying a silent death
Just afraid to show it
For fear of being shunned,

If you knew me
And the dark of mind
I’d hate to be that guy
You left behind,

These words bleed my heart
So all can read
Or possibly tear apart
My burning shame,

Your eyes don’t deceive
From a bitter, broken life
To words still hated
My soul etched by knife.

Wicked

Oh wicked knife
Taker of life
Why must you pray
On those with no other way?

Do you find it grand
To separate vein and hand?
Or is some lust
That even I dare not trust?

You weave soft lies
Chuckling, when we cry
Tempting us with every release
Promising the pain will cease,

So you wicked blade
What mess you made
Taking what we held dear
And making it our greatest fear.

Insane

These tears that I bleed
Medicine I don’t need
So fake was the laugh
That broke my heart in half,

They say I’m not right
But try as I might
This vision they see
Can never be me,

I see your face
Know there’s no place
For dark to stay
Or take me away,

I’m locked in a room
By the bride of doom
The room, so bright
I forget about light,

Curled in a corner, averting my eyes
A piece of my soul somehow dies
Don’t pity them, they can’t see pain
And for that reason, they drove me insane.

Wipe the Memory Away

Wipe the blood
Off the wall
Soft was the thud
Where you lost it all,

They won't miss
Your horrible life
Stealer of bliss
Who died by knife.

Hopeless Life

I see my face in snow
Heaven knows where I’ll go
The poison moves through my veins
Reminding me of all past pains,

No matter how I slice
Thinking it will suffice
I just can’t cut myself free
From the body you see,

Like a dark cloud in my mind
You never know what you’ll find
I’m constantly going down
To quiet my inner frown,

My heart beats fast
I can’t erase the past
But if I fill it full of lead
I get the feeling I won’t be dead,

So my friend
The life you knew is about to end
Promise me, never cry
‘Cause even the hopeless are afraid to die.

Smiling to Die

Be there when I take the plunge
Laughing to cry
See how the blade does lunge
Smiling to die,

I feel her breath
Not far from my neck
How it reeks of death
What did I exspect?

Say I’m a fool
For thinking I’ll be okay
That going to school
Will take it away,

I’m bleeding one last time
Angels can’t deny
What I’m doing is no crime
That’s my reason why,

Same old story
How the teen feels sad
Feeling dark glory
Can’t be all that bad,

Stare at the wall
And see my life
How I’m meant to fall
On the bloodiest knife.

Hello and Goodbye

I’m bleeding on the bathroom floor
Cannot take it anymore
Is this what life’s supposed to be?
Ceasing what I am to be,

Can’t hear you now, I’m dead
See how my hands are blood red
Would love to see your face
How the specters would chase,

Take the crimson noose and hang
So the words the devil sang
You’ll never really have to pay
But my dear, these words I say,

How you took my heart
And then said “Let’s take it apart”
I’ll always hate you for that day
For making me run away,

You’re crying on bathroom floor
Couldn’t take it anymore
Should have thought of me, my dear
Now nothing will be like before,

Like a stationary gun
It was never really fun
Wave goodbye and say hello
To the next unlikely fellow.

Moving On

Hold on tight
This won’t be alright
The things I want to say
Will always make you turn away,

You’re always glancing at the groom
Smiles lighting up the room
Yet see you see me and you cry
Why did I have to die?

I’m always wearing black and blue
Though my heart will beat true
Like the fist that threw me back
You my dear, I won’t attack,

So smile once and hold me close
I know it’s me you’ll miss the most
A broken corpse full of lies
Just hope you don’t despise,

The mirror itself won’t ever leave
So my love, just believe
Though I’m gone, you can do no wrong
Justly declared by the bridal song.

Your Choice

You stand above the clouds to see
What it is you’ll never be
Don’t look, my love
Or fate shall shove,

Such painful days pass by
My tear filled black eyes
Heaven knows I can’t hold on
This is the lonely path I’ve drawn,

It’s that final stab I fear
Death’s laughter echoes in my ear
Curled up and crying why
Is this why I want to die?

They all laugh and point my way
Can’t ever let my face betray
‘Cause deep inside, I know it’s true
I’d rather be someone else than you,

Have you ever cried to sleep?
Have you seen the reaper weep?
Have you ever cried out loud?
Knowing that you’re not allowed,

So tell me this, should I fall?
How pointless I am to all
So off the building, still intact
Waiting until the cement attacks.

Late

Take the handle of the gun
We’ll all wait until it’s done
So would you lie to me?
That you don’t want to be,

So scream the voices, dead
Can’t get them out of your head
So listen close and don’t look
This is what life took
A loving hug to hold
The soul that once was bold,

Smearing blood against the wall
Time to answer death’s tempting call
This is the way it’s going to be
Oh babe, I’m sorry,

So my dear, you set the pace
This is my great disgrace
Smash the mirror and bitter fate
Now I know, it’s not too late.

My Disgrace

That cold black soul
That keeps us whole
Will never know
How life does blow,

And where it goes from there
There’s no need to care
‘Cause where we’re going
There’s no way of knowing,

Oh, the knife’s been thrown away
And muzzles are at bay
We’ll take this time to burn the rope
‘Cause baby, there’s so much hope,

But I lie to your face
Because it’s not your place
To always know what I am saying
I’m just a soul that keeps on fraying,

Say it’s okay
To want run away
Never going to see your face
So you won’t know my disgrace.

Hospital Mistake

Give me the news I need
Medicine to make me bleed
Doctor, please, this is a mistake
I’m not the one you came to take,

White are the walls that cling
Black are the needles that sting
How the straps hold me down
And doll-like nurses frown,

It’s a nightmare
I swear
Hospital hell has its last entry
That is, until the next century,

What started out innocent
This I can’t repent
Becoming a patient, oh god
To a place most fear to trod,

Tell it to me straight
‘Cause it’s you I hate
For trying to take me away
When I badly wanted to stay,

Laying here, bound and gagged
Bruises from where I dragged
I know it’s bad and when I leave, nurse
I’ll be driving in a fucking hearse.

Ode to a Lost Soul

My greatest fear
Will not appear
Though the darkest part of me
Is something you will never see,

This is our darkest times
You’re not worth the bitter rhymes
Just smiling, looking sweet
But that my dear is your defeat,

Every moment I breathe
Are all the times you’ll always seethe
Try not to touch my hand
‘Cause it’s something you can’t stand,

Remember me not for my pain
But for all the times we danced in rain
Those memories I hold so close
This, my dear, I’ll miss the most,

Heaven breathes on my back door
And yet I still bleed on the floor
This is my hell that I wrote
That’ll teach me not to gloat,

You can’t ever see
The fool that was me
This is my final song to you
The one always held me true.